Touchy subject rating: 7
Rated at a 7 because while sex is a touchy subject, its only scandalous among certain crowds. And I'm not touching bisexuality on this one (completely different rant.)

Sexual Liberation (Chapter One?)

No virgin me
For I have sinned
I sold my soul
For sex and gin
Go call a priest
All meek and mild
And tell him, "Mary
Is no more a child."

It's raining stones
It's raining bile
From the luxury
Of your denial
So I don't deny
I don't make do
I'll press alarms
Place bets on truth

I'm so up and down
And I love what's not allowed
I was lost, now I see:
And now I'm growing old disgracefully

Whatever happened to Mary?

I'll spit on floors
And do more drugs
Burn every bill
Get drunk on love
Wear next to nothing
In the pouring rain
Be a bad example
And do it all again

I'll be uncareful
I'll cause such scenes
And I'll never talk
Of used-to-be's
Tattoo my face
I won't go grey
Be a dancing queen
I'm growing old disgracefully
I'm so up and down
And I love what's not allowed
I was lost, now I see:
And now I'm growing old disgracefully

Whatever happened to Mary?

Mary, Mary
Quite contrary


Mary Mary, by Chumbawamba (off Tubthumping and the Stigmata soundtrack)


The subject of the first rant on Subconscious Chaos is going to be Sexual Liberation.

Anyone who is reading this who carries double standards about sex needs to just leave now. If you think that a guy who sleeps around is a "player" but a girl who has more than one lover all her life is a "cock sucking slut" (or that virgins are all prudes, for that matter), you can go fuck yourself with sandpaper.

Its really sad that in the supposed freedom of our country, people are still afraid to express themselves in one of the most basic, primal ways. Ok, so its not really "people." Its just women. Because women are viewed negatively if they go out and have fun the way men do. I'm by no means a mega-slut, but theres no way in hell that I'm a virgin. The difference between me and a vast majority of the rest of the female population of America and Canada is that I've ceased to CARE what people say about me. Rumors fly, they always will, and they would if I were a good little girl that came back to my own apartment and went to bed by myself every night of my life. Rumors are going to fly about everyone, because people can't keep their noses out of other people's business, people get irrationally, insanely jealous, and people have nothing better to do than be spiteful and try to ruin other people's lives. Most especially at Insomnia and all other close, tight scenes like it. And some people can't help being hurt when they hear rumors, can't help letting the nasty things people say affect them. Granted, once in a while, someone deserves all the rumors, because once in a while, they aren't rumors. I used to live with someone that brings everything on herself by throwing herself at a different guy every 4 days. The only thing I ever had a problem with, though, was her attitude about it- and the fact that she wasn't always safe about it. People degrade people, and people degrade themselves, because its a fucking MINDSET that we all have. Its WRONG to do this, its WRONG to do that, everyone else is doing something WRONG. And sex is one of the biggest no-nos in a conventionalist society's book. But its developed so that its only wrong when women do it. WHAT THE FUCK is that about? Everyone has the right to indulge in carnal pleasures, as long as their partner is willing. So FUCK double standards, FUCK taboos, and FUCK every fucking law that says we can't do what we want together. Thats the indecent exposure laws, the age of consent laws, the anti-gay relationship laws, anti-sodomy laws (by definition, sodomy is any kind of sexual act that cannot include the possibility of reproduction- giving head is under these terms, and therefor illegal in the state of New Mexico and so many other states its fucking disgusting!), and whatever law says that I can't fuck someone on the roof of the Crowne Plaza. FUCK being taught that touching your own genetalia is gross and wrong, FUCK being told that biting and scratching is sick, FUCK fetishes not being a common topic of conversation, FUCK every religion who has anti-contraceptive laws written in their bullshit fucking bibles, FUCK everyone who has ever said that virgins waiting for marriage are prudes, FUCK everyone who makes their children believe that sex is wrong, FUCK everyone who says you can't have sex without love sixteen times over, FUCK everyone who opposes sexual liberation because they're fucking AFRAID that we might fucking grow as a people, FUCK everyone who doesn't use a condom when they should, FUCK anti-choice activists who stick their fucking noses where they don't fucking belong, and FUCK everyone who ever taught us that we can't be free to consent to do what we want with who we want, where we want, and how he want because this life and every other one you're going to have after this is SHORT and everyone should fucking live for themselves and for the moment at least once in a while. We are human, we are alive, sex can be fucking amazing, and no one should deny anyone the chance to find that purest feeling of physical fufillment, and savour it for as long and as often as they want. I don't care if you're 15 or 75, this life and all others are for LIVING, not for sitting around and wishing everyone else would LET you live. Experiencing passion in life can be having a passion FOR life, and nothing is better than that. NOTHING. And you know what else?

I FUCKING LOVE STRIPPERS!!!!


I'm not saying that everyone should just buy an economy box of condoms and go out and have fun all the time and not be responsible for the rest of their life, so don't take it that way. I am saying that no one should be afraid to do what they want to do. And they should be safe about it. Cause, yeah, pregnancy and STDs are a huge problem today. But they don't have to be. For about 13 bucks you can get a 36 pack of Trojans at Walmart. If you don't want to be responsible about it, don't do it. If you support sexual liberation, please support a woman's right to use birth control in both a pill form and a condom form, and please support the right to choose to abort. Just because its not time for a child does not mean women cannot enjoy themselves. Condoms break, birth control fails. Condoms break and birth control fails at the same time. No one should have to spend the rest of their life having raised a child badly because something went wrong and they weren't ready for parenthood. Children are a beautiful thing, children are sacred, children are something to be had when they are wanted and will be loved more than life itself. Few people understand that, even fewer understand what life with a child means. Sleep is a rarity, free time is a rarity, and nothing will ever be more demanding on you than your child. And nothing should ever be more loved. I would do anything for my nephew, ANYTHING. My sister wasn't expecting to have a child, but she stepped up to the plate and is one of the best parents I have ever seen. I respect her more than I could ever express. I want to be a parent like her, but I'm not ready for it, and I won't be for a very long time. Next time you're thinking about being unprotected, ask yourself if you're ready to step up to the plate.






Be good, or be good at it.