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WaZzzz UP? -- I am planning on redoing my whole website now.  I am going to make it look different maybe or I might keel this same layout. I just don't know.  It will take sometime but I will have it up and all. just wait. :-p

Howdy Yall --  Hey you all.. whats up?  nothin here been busy with school work and life. I need to quit my job so i can do more of my life .. But next year I will be able to b/c I am going "down Under" but thats another story to put on here later! right? right.. lol there has been a lot of changes and things that has happen to me since december .. well since the last time i posted but anyways.. By now you should know I liked ED a lot and ect. well he ask me to be his bf and whta would is say? I said yea.  I was soo fucken happen when he asked me , I was so speachless but  it was all good than.  but than a week went by and than another one and he pops up and says its over. I figured it would hurt me but it didnt.. Yea I think bout it more but im getting to the point where I dont.  I would say I was falling in love with you but he wasnt with me.  I just had to face facts that I wont be able to have him with me or anything that I would like.  But i have moved on and started going out more and havin fun.. Didnt talk to him for a long time.. he was too busy or his key board was fucked.. but it didnt matter to me b/c that was helpin me get over him .  I still like him dont get me wrong from what i kn0w he is a good boi and a cutie at that. but I gave up on him for a while and now we are talkin a little but not a lot but it dont matter really.  i just wish i could find me somebody here to have and all that good stuff.. im really chicken when it comes to askin a  guy if he is gay/bi.. he acts like it but i am scared to ask him im afrad he will go off and tell people and im not ready for everyone to know. im still in the closet and im workin my way out slowly.  but i want it to happen slow because iw ant to get use to everthin.  But its all good.  I have noticed my taste in music has changed!  I hardly listen to country music anymore.  I like that r&b stuff and some other stuff.  anyways.. I been going to the tannin bed and damn talkin bout me getting like hot or cute i been lol.. Im gettin a good tann goin on.. I wanna get darker.. hope i can but I only can wait and see.. but yea. lol im sleepy and trried im going to stop for the night ..

Posted: May 02, 2003 @ 10:27 pm EST

HeY! -- Hello!!! Ah well whats up? nothin here... Been out of school for two days! been fun lol. not really.. I wanted to go to school tho.. no one here at home .. lonely all the time and it sucks sooo bad..  Fun today at school two hour delay woohoo lol it was fun lol i wish it was like this more often...  but oh well it wont lol... got my class ring to day... its cool  i like it..  i am glad i got one!  but i waited for my friend to call me but he didnt.. man i am getitng sick of this place here.. i am think bout movin outta here when i get done with school..  go off and make some new friends.. i kow that will be better on me than stayin here and surfing like a asshole...  i got to deal with it till than i guess... why does life have to be a bitch? man i wish i knew why b/c it would really help me out ya know... man and why is that people who i really like and all live so far away? i can't get none from them and than the ones who know i like them.. they want to play around with that and i hate it... they thinks it funny i dont think so b/c it hurts me soo bad and its not funny at all.......  guess thats how people are these days...i will get over it one day ya know. but oh well..lol  shit happens i guess... but neways... i am still doing good loesin my weight.. i have to go and find out how much i weigh now.. might go to kmary and see.. lol yea kmart lol i know im an dumbass but o well lol  Planning on going back to ingles so i can have money i told my self i wasnt going back.. but I Have to!! I have to start helpin out around here.. we are soo poor right now I have never seen it like this b4... my mom keeps sayin we wont have a chirstmas this year b/c of it.. I guess i go back to work and see what i can help with.. i hateit soo much !!!! Hopefully they let me come back.. lol Well I guess im gonna go for now.. AH i need to start posting more often!! Ahh I have to bring my grades in school up too!!! Well Im gonna go for now.. bye...

Posted: December 7, 2002 @ 12:05AM

w00t --  Ah To days was GREAT! :) Got up this morning and it wasn't doing anything it was looking like it was gonna be a cold day.. well.. I was wrong...at about 7:30 it started to snow and sleet.. we still went to school.. well the road wasn't bad but they were workin on it lol.. when I go to school it started coming down HARD!!!  well at 8am they came over to say school is closing which was cool.. well I left and the roads were getting baddd... were I live they was already covered in school.. well I played for a bit in it with my blazer.. when it got tooo slick for me I came home lol.. it was cool.. it snowed all day long!!! not its sleeting/freezing rain which is kinda good b/c I wont have school and the bad thing is that we wont have power and that sucks!!! I need power so I can get online lol... but it was a aight day.. I been doing better in school now.. I have notice I been readin and understanding it more for some odd reason I don't know why but I am..  wwooohooo lol... I can't wait to find someone that will complete my life... I know if I can find someone that is wellin to help me and like me for me know I can do things I have never done before.. I just cant wait.. hopefully I find someone online.. hopefully.. there a lot of people who like to tease me because they know I like them and want them baddly but I can't help it if I do.. its hard not to.. but oh well this shit always happen to me I can get use to it I guess.. there is this dude at my school well.. I want to know if he is bi or what ever b/c he is cute.. well, the other day I was settin up there at the teacher computer doin some work I needed to do. well I think he was checking me out or something. well I did the same.. ah I couldn't help it though lol.. it was damnnn lol but anyways.. I am just too damn chicken to ask him if he is or not.. I want to get his email addy to ask him ya know or find someone that that will...  hopefully one day I will get my damn nerve up and ask him lol.. dunno what he will say but shit hopefully he say ya know.. lol but I guess I wait... but endways  I watch Star Wars II it was good.. leaves ya hangin though.. they better have another one coming out!! man I hate it when I get depressed!!!! I hate it soo much I try and hide it but it is soo hard to but oh well I will figure out how to stop it one day... but umm since I am losin weight my body startin to hurt and man I wish it would stop.. its not use to not having the total of me there lol but neways.. hopefully my mom will cut my hair tonight... dunno.. Well I can't get ZeB up on my mine !!! AHH needs to get it off but hey it makes me happy! lOL well bye for now I will post tomorrow.. bye

Posted: December 04, 2002 @ 6:24 pm EST

ah -- Well I thought I would start bloggin or  posting or what evre you want to call it.. lol Well today was aight.. but i been depressed for past 4 weeks or so.. well Its been okay since last night... I lost it... I don't know what I did but it was messed up from my what my friends say... I just wish i knew why.. i guess the lonelyness and me tryin to find someone is causing this... I know i might never find anymore.. Hopefully I will one day but I dont know.. My life is soo fuked up right now.. I am failing almost all my classes.. I need to bring them back up!! but i am not sure if I can or not since we have 3 weeks left in school.. Sometimes i wanna die b/c of things that happen but i dont.. its all fuked up.. i dont know what to do anymore.. I don't know.. I am thinking about getting in to home schooling... but ugh i dunno i have not been eatin anymore .. i guess its good.. i have lost weight which is good!!  but i am gonna get off here for now i will post more later... 

Posted: December 02, 2002

December 1, 2002 - Well I am working on "My Peeps" page now.. woohooo I only have 10 or so days left till my birthday!! I can't wait! I be 18!! woohoo!! lol  When I get done with my friends page I will start posting like a blog... Well come back soon and check me out lol.. bye for now...

November 30, 2002 - I have gotten some more pictures of me and my bro and friends. I will have more later on down the road.. I am still thinking about adding more things to my site but I don't know what I could add.  If you will please help me I would really like that!!!  If you have ANY problems with my site please email me and tell me please ( dumbdude04@msn.com ). Well That's all I have done all day.  Got one more day till I go back to school for 3 weeks and get back out for Christmas.  Well I will keep yaw updated on how this site is coming and I am planning on having it done.. and when I do I start posting every day.  Well bye for now..

November 29, 2002 - Well I have the About me page and my picture page up now.. I am working on all the other pages right now.. so keep on checking back!

November 28, 2002 - Well I have fixed my site uP! HopE Y0U like this new thingy I did.. its called chromeless! its cool!  Well Just ComE BaCk AnD i WiLL hAVe MorE UpDaTeD!! :) bYe FoR nOW! I hOpE yOU LiKe My NeW lAyOuT and DeSiGn On ThiS mUG! lol WeLL iF U tHiNk I cAn aDd ANy ThInG jUsT uMm TaG iT oN mY TaG bOaRd!!