Broken Mirrors

" If we were to wake up and realize that the life we live was not reailty would our dreams still carry meaning."

Poems by Michael Lary

1.The door of forever

The door of forever
Is closing in on me
Secluding me in my dreams
But when dreams carry no meaning
Do I rely on the faith to carry me through the stormy weather
And reach the place of sanity
On solid ground
Will the moments of emptyness
Be filled with the todays
Will I be content in spreading my fragile wings
And take a single step
To leard how to fly

2. Place of acceptance

Searching for the palce of acceptance
To open the door of eternity
Searching for the begining of the rest of life
Looking for the place of belonging
To find the peace that will fill the hole
That lies deep inside us all
Yearning to conqure the seemingly fate
That devides us from the power
That can alivate the emptyness
If we only continue to seek

"when one door closes another opens.But we often look so long and regreatfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us"

3. Dormant

Deep inside of me
Where no one no longer cares
I call out for you

All in vain

You are my phantom
You are my fears
I am haunted everynight when I want to hold you near
I scream in anguish
What must I do to ease this tormant
Why do I still care
My heart no longer beats
It has withered up and became dormant

4. Shallow preception

I want to believe that someones out there
Someone waiting for me
So many wrong reasons why
So many endless synonyms
Needed to discribe

The way I feel

So empty in my depths
So shallow in my preception
Where I wait
Silently for an answer to my prayers
I prey your out there
To save me from this desolate world
To save myself from the tragic reasoning of being alone forever

5. Unwilling eyes

Your deception plays a tragic role
Beneath the confines of your awareness

But caught off guard
You see
These unwilling eyes focus no more
Upon the broken promises
You brought to my attention
By becoming everything to me

So while I bleed over unwanted desire
I search for someone to kiss the wounds
With xidocain lips
To numb all pain
For a moment of tranquilty
To inhibit my understanding of you

"Insanity is repeating the same act, expecting a different result"

6. Insanity

And this pain questions my life>br? Is it so worthless
Why do I hold onto the things that cause me pain
Why do I still have the belief in love
But if you were to promise to ease the pain
Would I allow you to try
knowing that all you ever seemed to do
Was disrupt this life
Currupt this life into more pain
And I know you could kiss the pain away
But only for the moment
And I would allow you too
even knowing that the pain would only get worse

7. Servants of obsession

Memories of lingering moments
Become servants of obsession
Fallen reailty becomes my dreams
But so much hate filled disapointment and lingering anguish
Overwhelms the feelings of love

So many endless possibiltys
Of becoming raptured
With your empty soul
In knowing that I will put everthing difuctional in you again
With the fear that there will be nothing to gain

8. Night

The nights are cold as i roam these empty streets
Lightning flashes before my eyes
As I await the coming rain
Our memories play in my head
Im broken from the pain

So cold

Alone I break the stillness of the lake
By throwing withen it a stone
So carelessly, like you threw me away
And so I sit quietly alone
Remembering how life used to be

So cold

The night an empty shade of grey
The tears dissappear with the rain
You threw this all away
Empty promises still fill my head
I feel like I have left my soul back in your bed

9."the tommrow that never came"

Who knows where the road would of led us
Locken in each others arms
Transending All of space and time

But these memories are slowly fading
Before my eyes
With all the lies
You swore are love upon
The promise of a tommrow

But I see that tommrow will never come
And I hace come undone
Trying to fuck this lonelyness away

When the memorie of you
Is blurred by the tears that come so easily
But these tears mean nothing more
Than the feelings that have been so carelessly thrown away
By you
I feel so wasted
Because you took the tommrow before it ever came

10.Illusion

I call her angel
When she kisses the lonelyness away
And as I lay beside her
I prey the moment won't fade

And I believe that someone
Has finnaly reached out
To save me
For I do not love my self

And her innocence
Seems like it will last forever
Even though with the morning dawn
I know she will be gone

When will the pain ever be enough

11. Tears that numb

Then...
Was all that existed
For time had ceased

There were no
Yesterday's
And no
tommrow's
Only then and that moment
Sometimes I still get trapped in that moment

When those tears you cried
For reasons you kept on the inside
I took them into me
To try to ease your pain
By somehow fighting it deep withen me
But Your tears I realized were not for me
So salty they tasted
Right before they numbed my throat

12. Comfort of numbness
Constantly Yearning for something more
I hunger for someone to fufill my soul
For this emptyness can no longer be masked with fake smiles
When All I'm doing is withering away into nothingness
Sinking deeper within my pain
As I struggle for solid ground
And I find myself only to be digging more of a hole in life
Self pity absorbing all the sanity that remains
As I become more empty
Preying for the comfort of numbness

13. Sick skin

no longer able to escape this skin
As the truth materlizes
Wall's come down
And dreams cave in
But all around me
the world continue's to go on

So sheltered in silence
Left to my own devises
And I too
Must go on

Yet my every thought despises
Who I've become

Broken glass and the mirrors stained
I cannot see my self refleacted
Define my depths

14.Penut Butter Dreams

What are dreams made of
Choclate coated candybars
Or just foiled plans of changing who we are
And if I take my dreams for granted
Will they spin around and around in my mind
Untill I find the strength to follow them again
What are your dreams made of
And where are they born
In no man's land where no one understands
What it is like to be normal
or thank normal thoughts
And dream normal dreams
So if my heart bleeds purple penut butter for all those gone insane
Would you consider me sane
Or just a dreamer

15. Dillusional Mistaken Miscomfort

I put my faith in you
Only to find myself in more need
When the solution became unbereable
You became unreachable to me

So I tried to make everything concievable
So believable
But still you did not see
What could not be denied

But it was never understood
How you could hinde in all the lies
That you carried inside
But now I have found out how
To bury this burdon

16. Deminishing

I find that ture beauty is never understood
In a world that complicates everything
It makes no difference when no one cares about honesty and feelings
So we just learn to cover them up
ANd to look for the instant gratfication
Without reguard for the future

Sometimes I find myself striving for that gratifcation
As I remember that it will only be short lived
I find the problem within myself
And learn the solution through someone else
Showing me hope in a world
That's deminishing to the point of no return

So where do I go from the point of no return
To find all that had been lost by giving it away
Because there isnt any difference
In hurting the ones we love
Than hating the ones we hurt
And then try to justify
What used to be unacceptable
But now has become acceptable
And an everyday part of life
As standerds of living are lowered

17. When saying "I love you " is not the right thing to do.

Everything I ever wanted to feel
Was discovered when I looked into you eye's
I could see a forever
And never wanted to look away

As the silence would catch me
I would forget everything I wanted to say
In those moments the world would stop in an instant
And there was nothing I could do
So I just looked deeper into those eyes
And found the only words I knew
As speach found a way to my lips
I said " I love you"

There came a time when you didnt reply
You just looked at me
And all you could see
Was the sadness in my eyes

Hesitent you spoke
Words that were no longer true
You bowed your head
As you looked away
And quietly you said " I love you too"

I told you then that if saying that you loved me was not the truth
It would only bring more pain
So I just looked inot your eyes again
And said the only words I knew
I said "I love you"
But this time you didnt say " I love you too"

18. Butterfly 1-3-04

My darling Butterfly.......
I belong to you every night
And I need you here everyday
All these feelings of my love for you
Leave me longing for words to say

More beautiful than a diamond ring
More Valuable than all the worlds gold
Every morning if you listen outside...
For you the birds sing
Knowing who's heart you hold

And if you kiss me onve
It will never be enough
You are the happily ever after fairytale complete
Because with this ring I will wed
And fufill the promise sworn to keep
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