“I’ll come too,” Nikki offered. We walked into the bathroom and I just stood in front of the mirror. “Lins? What’s wrong?”
“Who was that girl?”
“I don’t know. Why?”
“Because that should be me with him. I miss him so much.”
“I know,” she gave me a hug.
“Things are just never gonna be the same.”
~*~*~AFTER THE SHOW~*~*~
I went into the guys’ dressing room during their last song. I didn’t know whose room was whose so I just picked one. I opened the door to a bedroom and laid down on the couch and closed my eyes. A few minutes later, a warm hand brushed against my arm. “Hi AJ.” I opened my eyes and looked up at Nick. “Oh, uh, sorry. I didn’t know which room was AJ’s so I just guessed.
“It’s ok.”
When I got up to leave, he grabbed my arm, “Wait, we need to talk.”
“Yeah..I know.”
He motioned for me to sit back down on the couch and I did. He took a deep breath and began, “Ok, I’m really really sorry. This past year I’ve missed you so much. Things just haven’t been the same since you left. You’ve been the only thing on my mind for months now and I-”
I cut him off before he could spill any more, “What? What a bunch of bull crap. ‘You were the only thing on my mind,’” I mocked him.
“You were!!”
“Yeah right! What about that....blond girl out there?” I said in disgust.
He looked confused then smiled. I gave him an evil face. “How could it be funny?”
“That was my cousin!”
“Oh...”
“Anyway, I never stopped loving you.”
“Are you saying you want to get back together?”
“Well..yeah, I guess.”
“I don’t think so, Nick. I don’t have the time or the patience for your stupid, selfish games. I’ve grown up a lot since the last time you saw me and I think you need to do some growing up yourself...without me. Because I don’t wanna deal with your selfishness.”
“Lindsey, I’ve done a lot of growing up too. I’ve realized that what I did-”
“And DIDN’T DO!” I interrupted him.
“Yeah...well...it was all wrong and totally selfish. ESPECIALLY not saying goodbye when you left.”
“That hurt a lot, but what hurt worse, was when you said we couldn’t even be friends!”
“I know, I know. Everything I did the last month I saw you was wrong and I’d take it all back if I could. I’ve regretted it all for a long time now.”
“Then why didn’t you call or write or at least have AJ say hi to me for you?”
“I honestly don’t know. I’ve been so confused about everything. Please Lindsey, just help me out here.”
“Well what can I do?” I asked.
“Tell me we can be together again, like it was.”
“No, Nick,” I said calmly. “It just won’t work. Things aren’t the same anymore.”
When he opened his mouth to talk, the door flew open and Aaron dashed in. “Hey guys!! Lindsey, wanna go on my bus and play Nintendo?”
I looked at Nick, then back at Aaron, “Sure.”
~*~*~LATER THAT NIGHT~*~*~
“If I tell you something, do you promise not to tell a soul?” I asked AJ as we watched TV in my room.
“You know you can trust ME.”
“Ok. You know how I told Nick I didn’t have time for his games and I don’t think we can ever be together?”
“Yeah...”
“Well, I kinda wish I hadn’t have had that conversation with him.”
“What? I don’t think I understand what you’re saying.”
“Well, I mean...I’m not actually sure. I just really miss being with him, but I don’t want him to hurt me again.”
“You wanna know what I think?” AJ asked. When I shook my head, he continued, “You should be telling all this to Nick, not me.”
“No way! I won’t tell him anything.”
“Fine, but you never know what’ll happen.”
“Why do you ALWAYS see the good in everything?” I laughed.
“Well you need SOMEONE to be optimistic for you. You’re too damn stubborn.”