The Eye of the Smitten

When I see a woman,
I judge her physically.
The heaviness of her bosom,
The shapeliness of her buttock,
The depth and radiance of her eyes.

What equates true beauty?
For it is said that it rests
In the eye of the beholder.
I become aggravated
And convoluted when I see
A woman that conforms
To our societal standards.

Yet I am smitten and
Begrudge myself instantaneously.
My eyes, though, can look beneath
All the layers of those fallacies.
Yet I still hold to "what you
See is what you get."

A woman is not a trophy,
But we boast as if they are.
A pound of flesh,
A sternum, a clavicle.
All of these are all but parts
Of a woman.
Also parts of a man.

I make myself sick
When I can not
Remove my eyes from
A luscious beauty.
Mine own eyes gravitate
Towards them like the tide
To the moon.

I find that I harshly
Judge those like myself.
I find my self-worth in
My appearance and reflection.
I have driven myself insane
Because I do not conform
To our combined societal standards

Second place is but inner worth.
Sad to say, though I
Chide myself for feeling thus.
What a wrought contradiction.
How I loathe myself for my
Feelings. Such shallowness
Finds me lonely and broken.


BLP - 11/21/02