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DARKER
side of
DONNA
Don't Cry for me
I sit contemplating death
Too afraid of reality
I sit and wait
For the destiny
Why the hell did i do it?
Why the hell I do it?
I fuck my life up
I always do
My whole life is a joke
I am not normal
What is normal?
Should i of dated?
Should i I of loved?
Is that normal?
Not for me
Beaten, tattered and torn
I screw my life up
I find love but i dont see it
I always do. I am a fuckin joke
I hate
I lie
I hurt
I deny
I dont deserve love
I dont know what love is
I have it, I deny it
I am greedy
I want more
I can not be content
Low self esteem?
Greedy, selfish
I wanbt to hurt you
Like you hurt me
I am powerful
I try not to
I cry at night
Swearing the next time willbe different
I will be good
I know I am hurting you
I rather die
Then see you in pain
You love me
Yet i can not see it
I expect my consequences
I ruined my life
I contemplate taking it
What would you do?
I will die
There is no other way
Dont worry
No one cares
They wont shed a fuckin tear
I am so sorry
Forever I will be
All i ever wanted was you to be happy with me
I rather cease to exist
Then you know the truth
I shall not smear the image you have of me
I love you
I wish i could show you
I try
I swear I try
My attempts go unnoticed
What will I do?
Nothing but hurt you...
Dont cry for me
I am not worth the time
All i am is a memory left behind....
written by me 11/2/99 Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

..I..
I..am not alive
I..have no life
I..merely exist
I..merely lie
I..know it is wrong
I know it is right
I..am confused
I..am torn
I..have a right
I..I..I.. Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

What is Wrong With Me??
What is wrong with me? Why cant I be happy?
Why cant I live?
What is wrong with me? All I feel is pain
All i feel is hate.
WHat is wrong with me? I do not know what happiness is.
I have never experienced it.
WHat is wrong with me? I hate my life. I hate myself.
What is wrong with me? When do I get to be happy?
When do I get to smile?
What is wrong with me? Why can't I love?
Why can't I be loved?
What is wrong with me? Why do I hurt people?
Why do I suffer?
What is wrong with me?Why can't I change?
Why can't I conform?
What is wrong with me? Why am I ugly?
Why am I mean?
What is wrong with me? Why am I depressed?
Why am I lonely?
What is wrong with me? Why can't I change my past?
Why can't I start from the beginning?
What is wrong with me? Why do people judge me?
Why do I care?
What is wrong with me? Why do I have no friends?
Why do I need them?
What is wrong with me? Why do I bring this on myself?
Why can't I move on?
What is wrong with me? Why do I try?
Why do I care?
What is wrong with me???.......
written by me 10/16/99 Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

YOU LIE
The calm darkness
Sweeps over the hillside
Fog starts to silently summon
the spirits souls
Come Dance with me
Come and dine with me
Your fate is my immortality
Listen to the wind
My gentle friend
Hear my words
Pay caution to the sky
Happiness is a Hoast
Love is a lie
Reality is a neverending cycle of pain
You are all the same
you Poor wretched wrench of a human
You say you care? Then you yell
You say you love, then you lie
You say your different, but I am constantly on trial
You say you accept me? Then you try to change me.
Is that love in your eyes?
Does love have to be altered?
Dare you try to change the seasons
Dare you call that love
You LIED
You said you were different
That you cared..
I opened up to you
I Let you see the world through my eyes
This is not my imagination
I see threw the mirror
Your reflection stares back at me
This is not a dillusion
All you wanted was your own satisifaction
Did you enjoy it?
Are you happy now?
the wind will never cease to calm
For I am immortal
I do not bleed
I do not die
Your words do not affect me no longer
Lies untold
memories unfold
For I am...
I will be....
For ever more...
The WIND.
written by me 8/7/99 Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

Darkness
Coming out of the darkness waiting for return
It creeps silently for it
No one shall scorn
Misery and anger are just a few
Maybe with your help this could be a clue
Death escapes its memory as you draw nearer
Anitcipation of his revenge would make you quiver
It is here It is you that provoked this tear.. Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

Limits Of Eternity
As I lay streched across your fgrave the anticipation of death
rushes about my thoughts. The stone of which my love is carved
is the stone that shall stand endless threw time.
The soil of which we have yet to become is the soil upon which my children will play
The growth of which we feed will be the rebirth of the generations time has came to forget.
Togather we shall walk hand in hand, our spirits become as one
For we shall soon go down as one of the numbers that go uncounted.
As it is written in the blood bound for life
our minds remain the one thing we can truelly call our own.
To do with us as we please..
The head of time has been reordained, to become captured by it's own fate.
Which it nor I can escape. The time has came for us to
release our limitations and answer the calling of our
own lives. The fate that you or i can resist to or refuse to accept
as our own. Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

Confusion
Disorted
tattered images
cold artic air
takes my breath
complex diversity
ethnic orgin revolves
around the confinment
of your soul
Color blind
Passion grows withen
My heart.
Unable to shatter
their world
Dancing to the rhythm
Of the champaigne glasses
reflecting into the
moonlight evening,
The tinted vision
Of all of them
Looking down on us
Shattering our glass
Love unbridled commitment
We stand apart
Due to hypocritical hypocrisy
Swollen ego's full of
Prejudice and hate
They wallor in their own
Inbreded ignorance
Stares of jagged knifes
Tearing threw my flesh
Piercing me until I scream
Tormented anguish
Cut out my heart
Squeeze out my inner soul
Am I not red like you?
Do I not breath the same air?
Must you stare at us?
Years of oppresion
Shackled in torment
We live togather in memory
We live togather in eternity
Yet unable to be accepted
We retreat into confiment
Settling for what is accepted
yet not wanted by us
Love withen reason.....
Love not by us..
Copyright Š1999 Donna Elliott all rights reserved.

Clouds

Soft Pillows
Gentle barriers
Seperating us from Heaven's Door

Dreams of Destiny
Hopes of Happiness
The child lays and stares
Up to the sky
Stairway to heaven
Stairway to Eternity
Endless constant motion
Something so peaceful
Something so destructive
Something serves so many purposes
Pitter Patter goes the rain
Falling Freely on the ground
Puddles Piller up
Cleaning Cleansing
Blanketing beds of Daisys
With life to grow
Out comes the sun
In goes the clouds....
All on a summer's day....
Written by me Donna Elliott(c)
6/21/99

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