This is a song for the emotionally distant. This is a song for a guy who has lost feeling. This is a song for false compassion. This is a song for the fun of it all. I know now. On the sidewalk we study, reason and relate all while staring down and we're out of luck. We can't weeble-wobble our way up again. We hold onto our friends as if they were around. You can't go through life thinking it drags you down. And when you feel that feeling's left you. (I can surmise) And when you don't think you can step right. (I can surmise) If you're afraid where life has left you, you'll be hunching your back, your hands in your pockets, shuffling along and reading that sidewalk until you're dead. This is a song for the drunken monologues. This is a song for the will to need someone. This is a song for those who wanna hear themselves talk. This is a song for the booze that brings it on. I know now. (You wish you did) I know all about lost time and our self-centered drunken minds. An audience for dramatics, you'll always have mine. Because when you feel that feeling's left you and when you don't feel you can step right. This is a song for a guy expecting more This is a song that I'll try to forget. This is a song for a questionable future. This is a song for me

2. Todays Special:

Reflections surfaced a sense of hope. I've seen the signs. When fucking up means something more. I'll end my time. I've waited a long time to make it the last time And it's hard see what I have come to know When all in all I know nothing's for sure I blame myself for what is lost. I've seen the signs When all I have is all I've got. I'll end my time. I've waited a long time, and now it's the last time I see myself through all my condescending pride. I've seen it all and all I choose to hide. I see the world's forgotten all of my failures. (I'll bet it all on a word) I see I'm on the rise...I've finally found a place where I feel right I've seen the world and now I understand I can't rely on everything to be what I want for me. I've seen the world. It's not what it's worth. Is it what I want for me? I know it's worth, so I'll be waiting. Someday I'll think I have it all. Until then I'll strive for something more. When I've seen the signs, I'll end my time.

3.How To Set Yourself On Fire:

A rat could have a heart attack with a tablespoon of soap and I know I'd need much more than that. And I heard with a little sugar Lysol tastes like cherry coke, that's what I heard on the radio. I also heard that blood can boil at 108 degrees, but you know, it would take much more for me. And with your brains you couldn't see this cold heart was changing, thawing out and you didn't know. So I moved on like I was told. Water your flowers and watch me go. This is what you waited for. Throw me on my way. You found someone else to need, replacing me. This is what you wonder. How long can I take the heat? Watch me. So don't forget to pull a chair up, you don't wanna miss the show and if you're squeamish with the stomach, better turn your head and roll. I'll be duct-taped to the sofa; I'll be soaked from head to toe with cleaning liquids and chemicals. Already tried to guzzle Drano, shot ammonia up my nose, but you know it takes much more than that. If I could only find my matches then we would be good to go, so before you run out the door... Get a light. It's no big deal; my mind's already gone. This is what you wanted; now it's what I need. Let's be honest, how's your new man gonna top this night with me? Forget all that you've heard. Hate's not a dirty word. Watch me. Thinking of the ways that I've been misplaced sitting by your side, I've got time to think it over. At this moment I'm content watching my life go by. You've watched me wade in this lake of shit while you've stayed dry. You never mind the odor. I'll try to keep this smile until the moment I die.

4.The Devil Lives In Massachusets:

A dream or a nightmare or was it a memory? Ambition and courage, these things don't exist to me. Drunk, I'll get nowhere this way. Before you go, here's a lesson for you all: If you want her don't let her know. She walks out every morning, every day. The booze, it gives me courage, but my brain doesn't know what the fuck's happening. If ice should be broken, this beer will sure find a way. But if my words had substance, by now she'd be next to me. a memory. Drunk. Stumbling out the doorway. Before you go, here's a lesson for you all: If you want her, don't let her know. She walks out every morning, every day. The booze, it gives me courage, but my brain doesn't know what the fuck's happening. It's not the end of the world. Welcome to my world. .

5.It Never Happend:

Do you remember last summer when you dragged me to the beach? You got sand in your bellybutton; danced in the street. Me the stallion, you the betty femme fatale, I was tense under your fingertips, my knees couldn't bend. The nervous joy of unfamiliar lips. I held myself together holding onto your hips and if the world stood still, I swear to God I couldn't tell. That was the summer we didn't waste our lives.That was the summer I thought that you were mine. It's obvious you've forgotten those times, or maybe they never... System Crash! Get a camera quick, I've been caught with a smile and I'm stuck with it. Now there's a film roll of proof that I was never alone. So let me sleep when you go so the tears on your cheeks won't fuck up my judgement. And how am I supposed to live and how am I supposed to wait for a love time took away when in my mind I still tell lies because it never happened.

6. Dont Wake Me Up:

You probably didn't know that I saw you just before dark. We always meet this way. You probably wouldn't know it was me, but then again I'm sure you don't remember who I am but I know you. I see you when you sleep, I swear I know when you're awake. I'm with my crowning failure when I'm in this bed. I should have opened my mouth then. I had a feeling in my stomach you were running out before dawn. But you were never even here. And when I try to wake up, I get lost living in this dream for so long. I'll see you when I sleep, just like I do when I'm awake And as someone holds you closely I'll remember this: I am the king of idiots. How many times will I repeat this fuck up? How hard can I try to forget these mornings? Tell me we're all supposed to be alone, because I don't want to be anymore. .