Raoul and I had just gotten back from the opera; I went straight to our bed. I wanted Erik so much. I wanted him to come to me and sing to me. His voice was so angelic. I couldn’t ever get it out of my mind. I knew oneday, I would be Erik’s wife.
The next morning, I got up and put on my best clothes;Raoul had already gotten up. He was waiting for me at the breakfast table. When I got to the Breakfast table, he looked angry. I hadn’t ever seen him look this angry. I wonder, what was a matter. When I came up closer to him, he pulled at my arms. “I know what you are hiding from me, Christine!” he said sternly.
“Raoul, I really don’t know what you are talking about”. I tried to get my arms free from him, but I couldn’t.
“You know it, Christine. You are secretly going to that madman, dammitt. How dare you do this to me?” He hit me as hard as he could with his hands. I sitted there on the floor with my hand on my face, where he had hit me. I started to cry.
“Raoul, I didn’t mean to, but I love him!” I cried. He hit me again.
“If you ever go back to him again, I swear I will kill you.” he screamed right in my ear. He left the room shortly after that.
I went up to the balcony outside my bedroom. I sitted in my rocking chair and cried. I haven’t ever been hit before in my life, not even by my parents. I couldn’t help it, I was in love with Erik and not Raoul. Raoul had become not like I expected him too. He wasn’t abusive when he was a child. I knew him almost all my life. He came from a good family. I know nobody would expect him to hit a pregnant woman.
It seemed I sitted there crying for a lifetime, and then suddently I heard and felt my angel beside me. “Christine, My Angel!” he cried. He bent down beside me and look at my face. He suddenly touched my face. He made me feel so much better inside.
“Oh, Erik, my love. Please don’t look at me!” I cried.
“Darling, I’m so sorry.” he cried, “Why did this bastand do this to do you? How could anyone hit you.”
“He found out about us!” I cried.
“If I was around, when it happened , Angel, I would have killed him!” he said meanly. Then Erik did the most passionate thing in my life. He took me in his arms and rocked in my old rocking chair. He sitted there and caressed my hair. “Angel, it’s going to be alright. We will be together!” Then he kissed me on my lips. I couldn’t let him go. I knew it was destine for Erik and me to stay together forever.
“I know, Darling. I dream of the day, we are together at last. I love you!” I gently took off his mask and kissed the deform side of his face,and then I touched it. Erik gently put my hand away from his face, and put it back the deformed side of his face,
“I must go. I promise I will be back, Darling. Nothing can kept us apart!” He kissed me goodbye and then disappeared.
Raoul didn’t say a word to me that night. I didn’t even sleep with him tonight. I was afraid of him. I was afraid , he would hurt me again or ever kill me. I stayed in one of our guest rooms on the far in of the hall. It was the last room down the hall. It was the farest away from Raoul.
I didn’t sleep at all that night. I was too afraid to sleep, because of Raoul. Raoul hadn’t ever been this way before. I know Raoul felt like he owned me. He didn’t own me, I’d owned myself.
The next morning, when I got up from my bed; I went into our bedroom, Raoul wasn’t there. He must be down at the breakfast table. I wonder, if he was still mad at me. I went down to the breakfast table and Raoul was there reading the newspaper. I came up to him and asked, “Why do you hate me so much?”
“Whatever made you think I hate you!” he exclaimed.
“Because you hit me yesterday and didn’t say a word to me the whole day.”
“Little girl, you need to be punish sometimes.” he said smiling at me. When I heard that, I wanted to screamed at him, but I was too afraid to scream at him. I was fearing that he was going to hit me again. “Darling, I’m going into Paris today and I expect you to be a good little girl while , I’m gone, if you’re not, you know whats going to happen to you when I get home!” he smiled with a evil look. I just nodded my head and went outside to my garden.
My garden had grew so much since we moved here.My roses were beginning to bloom. They were so beautiful. I satted down on the ground and sung my garden a song. It was one Erik had played and sung for me. Erik sang it much better than I did. When I sang, I could feel Erik guiding me. Then I saw a carriage coming up in the yard, and then she got out of the carriage. It was Meg Giry, my friend from the Opera House. Meg came running where I was. “Oh Christine, It’s so nice to see u again!” she exclaimed. I hugged her. She was like a little sister to me. I told her alot of secrets. She was the first one, I had told about my angel of music.
Meg and I went into the house and sitted down at the fire. “How have you been, Christine?” Meg asked.
“I have been fine.” I don’t know why I lied to her right then.
“I don’t believe you, Christine.” she replied back to me, “What’s been wrong , Christine , You can tell me.” Meg was always a great friend to me. She could get everything out of me. I wasn’t going to tell her about Raoul.
“Meg, I don’t know, if you have heard or not, I am expecting a baby.” I smiled. It was the very first time I had ever smiled. When I mention the baby, I always smiled thinking of my little precious angel.
“Christine, that’s so wonderful.” Meg hugged me.
“I’m very excited about having the baby.”I smiled.
“When is the baby due?” she asked me.
“The baby is due in the winter.” I replied.
“It won’t be very long intil you have your baby.” she smiled. I smiled back at her. I wish I could tell the world that Erik was the father of my child. Most of all, I wanted to tell Erik. I wanted to know that this child was his, not Raoul’s. I know Raoul would kill me and the baby, if he found out about the baby.
Meg left shortly after dinner time. She always made me feel happy. She was such a great friend to me. I wish that times were better sometimes. I wanted them to be so much. Why did I marry Raoul, when I loved Erik so much?
When Raoul came home that night, he came straight up to our bedroom. I was laying on the bed, he got up on the bed, and started to touch my back very passionately. “Raoul, stop it!” I exclaimed.
“Don’t you like it, Christine?” he asked.
“I do, Raoul, but not right now.” I said.
“I know what you like.” he said. Raoul turned me over and kissed me very hard. I tried to get away from him, but he was so much stronger than I was. He took off my clothes and then his and made love to me. I didn’t want to make love to him. I tried my best to get away from him, but it was no use. I cried the whole time , he made love to me. It was the most awful thing that had ever happened to me.
The next morning , as I layed in bed, the first thing I saw was Raoul; He was dressed in one of his best suits. “Christine, I have to go to London on business. I hope you understand my dear.” he smiled.
“I understand.” I said nervously.
“Good. You take care good care of yourself and the baby. I will be gone for three months, my dear.” He kissed me goodbye. The moment he left, I wiped the kiss away. Suddenly I knew this was the best time, I could be with Erik, My One True Love.
