I Will Love YouChapter 2-Moving In?!?!
~*Taylor’s Point Of View*~
It’d been a week since we’d moved in. Amanda and I had barely exchanged five words. We were avoiding eachother at all costs. Kendra had told me in confidence that Amanda was still very much in love with me. I’ll admit, that did give me some relief and hope. Maybe we could be together in time. I could only hope though.
" Ugh! You guys need to get a room!" I looked up and saw Amanda staring back at me. We’d said the same thing at the same time. I’d just come out to get something to drink, and there were Kendra and Ryan making out on the couch. AGAIN! They’d been doing it all week.
" Well we would, except that you two sulk in both rooms all day." Kendra said after breaking away from Ryan.
" Really," Ryan agreed, " I mean if you two are gonna sulk about not being together, then could you at least do it in the same room?"
"No!" We both shouted.
" And I do NOT sulk!" We added as an after thought.
" Stop doing that!" We shouted
" I’m not doing anything"
"Ugh!!"
" Will you both shut up!" Kendra said breaking up our argument.
"Ryan and I have been talking, and we would really like to share a room. So we were wondering if you two could just share a room."
" What?!?! You want ME to share a room with HIM? How could you even think of asking me that? You know how I feel!"
" I know Amanda, but Ryan and I really want to share a room. Either that or you two have to tolerate us using the couch, and sleeping on it some nights."
" What? God... I... just..." With that she broke down into tears and ran out of the room, slamming the door on her way out.
" Oh way to go. Just make her cry."
" Shut up Taylor. I don’t think it’s unreasonable for me and Ryan to want to be together, and to share the same room, either that or you guys have to learn to tolerate us making use of the couch, and sleeping on it some nights. Ryan and I want to be together, and we will. Whether you and Amanda like it or not."
" Dude, think how you’d feel if it were the other way around. If it were you and Amanda together, wanting to share a room, and me and Kendra that could barely stand to be in the same room."
" Look, I understand where you two are coming from. I’ll try and talk to her if she’ll let me. Why don’t you two go out tonight? I’ll talk to her then."
" All right man, thanks a lot. This means a lot to us. I know things aren’t easy with her, just remember that underneath it all, she still loves you."
" Do you think I’d offer to talk to her for you two if I didn’t know that?"
" Haha, yeah you’re right."
" Why don’t we go ahead and leave?" Ryan suggested to Kendra.
" Sure. Just let me grab my purse."
"Ok, I’ll be out here."
~*Manda’s Point Of View*~
I wanted out of that room as quickly as possible. I felt suffocated. I broke down in tears and just ran out of the room. How could Kendra even suggest that we share a room? After everything that’s happened to us, she would still suggest something like that. It made me so sick. I don’t trust Taylor enough to be with him, but more than that, I don’t trust myself around him. That’s why I’ve been avoiding him all week. I’m afraid I’ll tell him how I really feel. I’m afraid that I’ll kiss him and I won’t be able to stop. Most of all, I’m afraid that I’ll love him. When I’m not around him, I can just pretend that I don’t, that there are no feelings there. When I am, I give into my feelings, and I can’t do that, because I can’t trust him. I looked at my watch. It was 6:00pm. I’d been wandering around for an hour now. I should probably go back before they start to worry. I walked in the door and heard ‘ Never Let Go’ playing. Why was he doing this? Didn’t he know that it would only make things harder? I went over and sat down on the couch, I listened to the song for a few more seconds before I started crying again. I hated crying, I always had, but in the past two years, I’d cried a lot. I cried every time I saw them on TV. I cried whenever I heard them on the radio, but I cried the hardest when I heard this song. They recorded it on ‘This Time Around’, which I of course bought. They did this beautiful video for it, which became number one on TRL. Radio stations played every five minutes. It was as unavoidable as Mmmbop had been. So was my crying every time I heard it. I felt two arms slide around me and hug me. I felt tears drip onto the back of my shirt. I looked up to see two teary blue eyes staring back at my own.
"Taylor I..."
" Shh... it’s my turn to talk." I just nodded, " I know you don’t trust me anymore, and I know we can’t be together anymore, but could we at least try to be friends? Or at least be civil to eachother? Please. I hate not being able to be in the same room as each other." He said all of this in tears.
" I’d love to be friends with you again. It’s just that I’m not sure that I can trust MYSELF around you."
" What’re you saying then."
" I’m saying that I’m still so in love with you that I can’t trust myself to be around you without doing something I might regret."
" Well, can’t you at least try? I know that Ryan and Kendra would really appreciate it."
" Ugh, I know they would, it just it all makes me sick."
"I know, but think about how you’d feel if the situation were turned around. If it were you and me dying to sleep together and them that could barely stand to be in the same room as eachother."
" I know, it’s just that, oh, I don’t know."
" No, what?"
" Well, I mean, do you trust this? Because the only way this is going to work, is if we can just be friends, no pressure to be anything else right now. No matter how much we want it. All we can be right now is friends."
" I promise, no pressure. We can just be friends."
" Well ok, then do you want to help me move?"
" Sure, but are you positive that you want to move into my room instead of vise versa."
" Yeah, you have the bigger bathroom, and your room has the bigger closets."
" Oh, well then how come you didn’t just move in there in the first place?"
" We didn’t know that until we’d already put all of our stuff into our room."
" Ohhh...ok then."
" Shut up."
" Yes ma’am."
I stuck my tongue out at him.
" Don’t stick it out unless you’re gonna use it."
"Oh my god. I’m not hearing this. Those words did not just come out of your mouth."
" Haha, yes they did. I’ll go put Ryan’s stuff into boxes and then you can out your stuff where his was."
"Okie dokie. Oh by the way, where are Kendra and Ryan?"
"They went out to dinner and a movie. They said they’d be back by midnight."
" Ohh ok. Can we listen to a different song? It’s not that I don’t love this song, it’s just that hearing it makes me-"
"Wanna cry." Taylor supplied for me.
" Yeah." I blushed a bit, but I don’t think he noticed.
He went over to the stereo and changed the CD. ‘Can’t Go On’ by Tyrese started playing.
" Taylor..." I whined. This song really wasn’t any better.
" What?"
"This isn’t any better then ‘Never Let Go’."
" All right, all right, I’ll change it." He changed the CD again, this time ‘Give It To You’ by Jordan Knight started playing.
" Thank You!" I shouted while I continued to put my stuff into boxes.
Two exhausting hours later we were finally done. We collapsed onto the couch, Jordan Knight still playing.
" You put it on repeat?"
" Yeah, didn’t you notice?"
"No, not really. Ugh! I need a shower. I’ll be out in twenty minutes."
" Ok, I’m gonna order a pizza then."
" Sure, no-"
"Anchovies or olives. I know, I remember."
" I wasn’t sure so..."
" It’s ok, just go take your shower."
~*2O minutes later*~
I was out of the shower 20 minutes later, I decided to change into my PJ’s.
"Pizza’s...OH MY GOD!!!!"
" AHHHHHHHHH!!!! Taylor!" I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around me.
"I’m so so so so sorry!"
"It’s ok, nothing you haven’t seen before." He blushed, it looked really cute.
"Uhm...yeah...I-I know it’s just umm..."
" Yeah I now, it’s weird. I’ll just have to remember to lock the door or change in the bathroom."
" And I’ll remember to knock." I laughed and nodded my head. " Well, anyways, Pizza’ here. Pepperoni and sausage."
"Yum, ok well I’ll be out in 5 minutes."
~*Taylor’s Point Of View*~
Wow, I umm. That wasn’t something I was expecting to see tonight. She came out five minutes later, like she said. She grabbed a slice of pizza, then she went and turned the stereo off. After that she grabbed the remote and jumped on the couch.
" Are you gonna stay over there or do you wanna join me?" She asked after turning it to MTV. TRL was. Yea! My favorite show!
" Uhh sure." It was already at number two. Thank god it’s almost over. There was a commercial and then Carson was back with the #1 video for today.
" Today at number one on the countdown, ‘Never Let Go’ by Hanson."
"Do you wanna watch this? You can change the channel if you want to."
" No, it’s ok, I wanna see the video. I really like it."
The video started, like it always will. I’m playing the piano in a completely black room. Then once the vocals start it fades to a picture of a girl in a bedroom. She lies down on the bed and begins to tremble, like she’s going to cry, then it fades back to the black room for the chorus. This time Isaac and Zac join me. For the next verse I’m in the room sitting on the window seat, watching as the girl cries. It fades to the black room with Isaac and Zac joining in for the chorus. Then it fades for a last time back to the bedroom. This time I’m holding her, singing the lyrics. Then it all fades into darkness.
" You know that that’s the best video you guys have ever done right?"
"Thanks."
" Well it’s the truth. That’s the best song you’ve ever written, sung, or preformed, and it’s the best vide you guys have ever done."
" Thanks."
"Welcome."
" Do you wanna watch a movie?
" Sure."
" What do you want to watch?"
" You pick."
"Ok." She picked a movie and popped it in the VCR. Armageddon, I hadn’t watched this movie since that summer two years ago. She fell asleep about halfway through the movie. I figured that she’d be more comfortable in her own bed so I very carefully picked her up and moved her into her bed. Kendra and Ryan came back about half an hour later. By then the movie was almost over so I turned it off.
" Did Amanda ever come back?" Kendra asked once they’d walked in the door.
" Yeah, she came back about an hour after you two left."
" Where is she now?"
" Asleep, in her new room."
" What?"
" I talked her into switching rooms. She moved all of her stuff into my room and I moved all of Ryan’s stuff into your room."
" Thank you Taylor." She said giving me a hug.
" Yeah, thanks man."
" You’re welcome."
" I’m tired so I’m gonna go to bed." Kendra said getting up and going to her room.
" I’ll be there in a few minutes."
"Ok."
" Thanks Taylor. You have no idea how much this means to me."
" I think I do."
" Well if you ever need a favor, I owe you one."
" All right."
"Oh! Before I forget, there’s a frat party tomorrow night."
" Awesome, I’ll talk to Amanda about it."
" Cool, see ya tomorrow dude, I’m going to bed."
" All right see ya dude."
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