It was Tuesday and our new roommates were supposed to be coming today. Kendra and me were really excited. I was dancing around our room to ‘Bitch’ by Meredith Brooks, deciding what to wear today. I finally decided on a blue, fitted, v-neck shirt and black jean flares. Someone had come knocking at our door three times that day. It wasn’t ever them. I really hoped that they’d be there soon. I was getting antsy.
Ryan and I were standing outside of the building we were assigned to. We were unpacking the car to carry our stuff up. We were moving in with two other people. The only thing housing told us was that they were our age and they were girls. Ryan wanted to be in the same room as Kendra. I didn’t because that meant sharing a dorm room with Amanda. I hadn’t seen her in two years. I was still head over heals in love with her. I didn’t know if I could handle living in the same dorm as her when I knew that we couldn’t be together. I mean I knew it was my fault that we weren’t together right now, but I couldn’t stand not being with her. I really hoped that she’d gained like 300lbs and was an evil bitch, so that there was nothing left for me to love and be attracted to. Of course I knew that she hadn’t gained 300lbs and Amanda didn’t have a single mean bone in her body, so it was near impossible that she’s turned into and evil bitch. The only thing left for me to hope for was that we weren’t in the same dorm room. Hopefully we weren’t even in the same building. Although the chance of that being true was slim to none, considering Ryan had signed us up for housing the second we got the papers for housing assignments. He’d even called down there and requested to be in the same building if not the same dorm as Kendra. We had finally gotten the majority of our stuff upstairs.
" Well, this is it. The moment of truth." Ryan said, raising his hand to knock on the door.
" Yep." The door handle twisted.
I heard a knock on the door and went to answer. I really hoped it was our roommates. I was dying to find out who it was. I opened the door, Kendra right behind me and...
"OH MY GOD!" Kendra and me screamed at the same time.
I immediately ran to our room and slammed the door. I turned up Meredith Brooks and fell back in my bed. I could hardly breathe. Taylor had been on the other side of the door when I opened it. Of course he just HAD to look sexier than ever. He’d gotten his hair cut, and he was wearing a tight shirt, making it impossible not to notice his muscles. I mean I knew he looked good, I’d watched MTV and seen him in magazines, but he looked a hell of a lot sexier in person than he did on TV or in magazines. Give me a break here, it was bad enough that I was head over heels in love with him, but now I discover that I’m still really attracted to him. God, the whole thing just made me sick. I was horrible at staying mad at people. My motto was ‘forgive and forget’. So why couldn’t I forget about what he’d done to me? Why couldn’t I just forgive him, and love him again? I’ll tell you why, because I couldn’t trust him anymore. He’d cheated on me, with Katie no less, and now I couldn’t trust him. I still loved him though, and I wanted to be with him so bad, but I just couldn’t. Not when I couldn’t trust him.
Well, that was interesting. Kendra and Ryan started making out the minute they saw eachother. At the present moment they were on the couch. I’d gone to the room that Ryan and I would be sharing. I was lying on my bed, thinking about Manda. Her reaction to me had been exactly what I was expecting, assuming of course that we’d move in with them. Which we apparently were. She looked even more beautiful than the last time I’d seen her. She was tan and her hair had grown out some, it was down about 3 inches past her shoulders. As for being an evil bitch, I’d have to wait and see. Ugh, the whole thing made me so sick! I just wanted to be with her, but I couldn’t. Right now, I’d die, just to have her say that we could be friends again. That’s how much I wanted to be with her, to be in her company.
