Just a minute later, the song was over. But even from a mile away you'd be able to see the excitement on Justin and Chris' faces. "Congratulations guys," I said with a smile. Justin looked over at me, smiled, and thanked me. Chris did the same thing. Two and a half hours later, after the movie and all the excitement, us five girls were back at Sarah and Kristi's apartment.
"Guys, I'm beat. I'm going to bed."
"Jess, come on. You have to talk to us. There's still something wrong," Melanie said.
"Well, yes, there is something wrong. What's wrong is...is Justin," I told them.
"Yeah, we kind of figured that out!" Tara spoke up.
"Tara, be quiet. It's more than that. It's not that I'm mad about tonight. Because I'm over that. I'm mad because...well, because I like Justin. I still like him. And I have a feeling I'll always like him. No matter how mean or horrible he was to me."
"Girl, you have to tell him that! You have four days left here and if he doesn't find out now, who knows what will happen," Sarah said to me.
We had all sat down on the couches in the living room and were talking when I realized Sarah was right. "But I don't want to tell him."
Kristi, who we had only known for a short time, decided to add her imput. "Jessie, I don't know you or Justin that well. But, with the guys going on tour and you going back home, you'd never see each other. If you didn't tell him now, he'd find someone else. You know he likes you. Everyone alive can tell that! But you just have to show him that you don't completely despise him. Because sooner or later, he's going to give up and stop trying."
I was taking this all in gradually. "You're completely right. I have to tell him!" I said with a smile. "Let's just hope he hasn't given up yet!" I immediately sat up and walked into the kitchen to grab Sarah's keys. "Can I use your car?" I asked loudly so she could hear me in the other room.
"Yeah! Now go!" Sarah walked into the kitchen and gave me a hug for good luck. Tara, Mel and Kristi all had moved into the kitchen and wished me good luck.
"Bye," I hollered at them from outside the door.
Inside, the four girls all looked at each other. "She's going to get the guy," Melanie said to the girls as a smile formed on their faces and they all nodded.
I hopped in Sarah's car and started it up. I can't believe I waited so long to tell him this! And I just hoped I'd have the guts to tell him now. A couple minutes later, I was at Justin's front door, ringing the doorbell. I hear 2 people stumbling to the door. "I have it!" one voice called. The other spoke by saying, "No way. I have it. It could be some hot girl!" The door opened and I saw Chris and JC.
"Did I just say that about my SISTER? Oh gosh. That's not what I meant!" JC's face turned red and Chris said, "Hey girlie!"
"Hi guys. Um...is Justin here?"
"Yeah, hold on a second. I'll go get him," JC walked away from the door and up the steps while I was talking to Chris.
"I thought you were majorly pissed at him?" Chris asked.
"I was...I am. I just have to tell him something." Right then. Justin's pajama-clad body walked down the stairs.
"Oh...hi Jess."
"Hey."
"Let's...go upstairs. That way a couple certain people won't bother us."
I agreed and followed Justin up the stairs. I looked down at Chris as he winked and gave a thumbs up sign. I mouthed, "Shut up!" at him but he still kept that smile on his face. We were walking up a long flight of stairs, down an even longer hallway, and to the end. Justin opened the door and motioned for me to come in.
"Justin. Before you say anything, let me talk. I'm sorry. Sorry for all the things I've done to hurt you and for being rude and everything else I've done wrong. I've realized there's only one person I want to be with. And that person is you. Every morning, I never realized this, but I wake up thinking about you. As I'm falling asleep, I'm thinking about you. About how if I truly tried hard enough, I could have you. I'm sorry for making you wait so long. For not just telling you how I've felt since the beginning. But this is how I feel. And I just wanted to tell you that." I took a deep breath and waited for Justin's answer.
"So...are you saying you want to get back together? Or together? Or something to that effect?" Justin asked with a confused expression on his face.
"Yes. I know we wouldn't see each other a lot. But I want to be with you. Because, I've realized something. I...I lov..." I started, completely pouring my heart out to him, but he interrupted me.
"Stop. Stop before you make a mistake. You don't love me. No matter how much I think so, I don't love you. There's no way this would work out. We can't be together, it wouldn't be right. So, I'm sorry. But no."
