SWOLLEN CUTS AND SORE-SUCKERS {gofs' poem page}
this is gofs' collection of poems, not all of them are listed on here cuz i dont have that kinda time, but enjoy.
TONIGHT
I hide behind myself tonight, just like everynight and i wanna feel so real just like i never have
you make me feel this way, make me tear myself apart and now i've got something to say...but i wont..no..not tonight
i am so happy, let me live this lie, its all i have left, you're all i have now
and when the day breaks fast, my heart breaks slowly all that i have anymore...is tonight.
i've lost myself, i cant find..... i never wanted this tonight, i just want forever
you make me feel this way, my life falls apart, i could do it another way, but i think i like the pain
and i know i cant control this, always hanging to myself like mommys little whore, i cry tonight just like everynight
FROST
something is wrong, not what it seems, i'm lost in your eyes, you're lost in my dreams. your skins golden touch, my
face cold and weak, hating myself and the seecrets you keep. PAIN!!! FROST!!! LOST!!! biting myself, ripping my skin,
if love is like this, then love is a sin. mind going dead, frost takes its place, cold hard stares, bruising my face.
PAIN!!! FROST!!! LOST!!! pain growing old, feelings left me, you've left me blind, frost i can see. i just don't know,
what should i do, scared as hell, ain't nothin new. PAIN!!! FROST!!! LOST!!! now you are gone, why did you go? thought
it was real, know its a show. what can i do, must be a way, mouth drawn shut with nothing to say.
I DON'T WANT ANY MORE(OUT OF LIFE)
how could i...how could you...how can love be so much like life, its killing me. why did i...why didn't you...why am i
meant to feel this. i ask you...you tell me...and i reply, i dont want you to go just like, i dont want anymore out of life
is like killing me, like time slipping away, just like you, just like you wanted me to be. i never wanted it to be this way,
to feel like this, a perfect kiss good-bye, perfect ending to your perfect lie. isolating my pain, feeling nothing but betrayed,
how could i...how could you...why would i want anymore out of life when i cant even have you?
WITHIN, DEEP WITHIN
cant believe it, never happened before, but i like it, now my eyes are sore. i didn't want to say good-bye, and all the times
that made us cry. a little of me and a little of you, telling me this love is true. sit and watch the stars at night, tell me
you love me and hold me tight. burning with the dignity i lack, i try my best to bring it back. hate is wrong and love is wealth,
well i always wanted that myself. but now is now and this is gone...together...whatever, forget that you know me.
RUN AWAY i could never live this way, searching leading my soul astray. i can in everyway mistakenly i have nothing to say.
why can't i ever breath right--breathings not for me, why can't i stand its sight--its not meant for me. RUN AWAY-you fucked around too long
RUN AWAY-nothing of worth to say RUN AWAY-fuct up now you'll pay RUN AWAY-you're fucked in everyway. tell me what i want to hear,
sell me for all i fear. my pain could never know, and after it all i have nothing to show. RUN AWAY-its my only chance RUN AWAY-don't you know my sorrow?
RUN AWAY-you know it don't you RUN AWAY-but you just stare. you search for the love you seek, i am here overlooked like a freak. hated for who i am (im a mental case),
standing staring wide-eyed with blood smearing on my face. love to none is a sad transition, i just crouch out in a fetal position. RUN AWAY-i'm in no condition
RUN AWAY-what i never knew RUN AWAY-from what i never had RUN AWAY-always from you. comeback-stay-RUN AWAY comeback-stay-RUN AWAY comeback-stay-RUN AWAY from all that i am or ever will be.
this world can make me feel so alone, i try to understand but my anger has grown. the rain knows my grace and maybe thats my place.
lost in the eyes of something i can never have.