Life Number 10

This song tells the story of something I'm really not proud of. Early in 1999, I started dating this girl. She was very intriguing to me and there was an instant chemistry there. Maybe it was because we were both scorpios. Well, if you know astrology at all, you know what happened. We started to clash. At the time, I was really trying to be a player. I wasn't looking for a serious relationship and had ditched two previous girls recently for getting too possessive or close to me. Anyway, this girl was different. I wanted to spend time with her. Her being headstrong, made for quite a challenge. That's not a bad thing though, being that I love a good challenge. So, a few months went by, and whammo, I'm in a relationship. Well, then, from that realization, things went downhill. I had by that time stopped rehearsing my live band and had pretty well put music aside to pursue this girl. When I finally saw that I had done this, I took it out on her. Really it wasn't her fault; I was the one who had kinda forgotten all about this rock star dream for a while. Anyway, to make a long story short, I became this really detatched person that didn't care if she stayed, went or how she got there. Being headstrong like she was, she stuck with me for an additional 7 months before finally giving up on me. When she did, I realized (at the time) that I did love her, and I wished we had one more chance together so I could show her all the things she wanted me to be for her. The title, "Life Number 10" comes from a comment I had made about our relationship having 9 lives. We broke up and got back together alot, and this last life was the 9th. So, I was asking for "life number 10" to get the chance to show her what she wanted to see in me. Needless to say, that chance never came. However, this song did.

Here's the lyrics!!

Life Number 10
Words and Music by John D. Parker

I'm the person you fell in love with the one i tried to bury under my fame.
Not that i am famous except in my head where i saw myself as some big name.
But it was all an illusion, iw as as worthless as a grain of sand.
I thought I was cool at the time, but i was no kinda man.

And now that things are over I see what my ego's checks have bought me.
I wish i had seen it sooner tha i was just makin' myself so ugly.
Putting more faith in my voice, which in time will surely fade.
And not seeing the big picture, oh god whatta mess I've made.

(Chorus)
I don't blame you for leaving, you have every right to slam the door.
It's not like it was the first time, I'd let you down lots of times before.
Maybe we're not meant for each other, and I may never see you again.
I just wished I hadn't used up our love's nine lives, I wish we had life number ten.

It did not take you long to get back up and start again.
Meanwhile i'm still sitting here my mouth open wide, believing somehow it didn't end.
And i know i have no right to ever ask you to gimme another chance.
Because we both know that i looked love straight in the face and i never gave it another chance.

(Chorus) I may never get you back, but i'd like to say that I'd die trying.
Because when you find real love it's almost worht dying.
just to keep it in your grasp and not let it slip away.
I just wish i'd seen it when it was mine, i wish i could go back in time and say......

Copyright 2000 John D. Parker Music. Written 2/24/2k at 7:40PM

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