| Hi
everyone..(anyone). as you may have noticed by now, I do not
keep up as well as UtenaSama at these Zettais. Either
she enjoys them more than i do, or i don't enjoy them enough,
or take enough advantage of them.. but i never really was able
to keep up with a journal once i started it, even when i was
little and all my little friends wrote diligently in their journals
everyday.. oh well. not that this is a journal, but in many
ways its similar. (biggest difference being i am actually allowing
people to read my private thoughts o.o) |
| but
anyway, thats not really what i want to write about.. mostly
what i want to get out there is.. well, i guess, that life is
confusing and hard. and now that i think about it, probably
3/4 of the people on the planet are worse off than me, which
makes me feel even worse about saying that -.- oh well. my confusion
stems from the internet. "thats where it all started".
seriously. what do you do when you want to be in two places
at once? I need to finish school, but i want to be with my boyfriend.
i also want money, but i have no patience(and im addicted to
ebay). therefore i am racking up a credit card bill, and unless
i get a job pretty damnity soon, my parents are going to have
to bail me out ~.~ so what is wrong with me? |
| it's
probably largely a lack of patience. i need patience to finish
school up; then i can be with my boyfriend. I need patience
to get a job, and to wait to spend money until then. blah, blah,
blah... another reason i do not write zettais(or journal entries):
i am boring. i bore myself. |
| When
i look back at what small amount of diary-writing i've done,
i get annoyed at my past self, and want to erase a large portion
of what i wrote, and edit like crazy. But i don't, because then
it wouldnt be your past self's writing, it would be the present's,
and then you past would all be a fabrication.. bleh! so i leave
the innane babbling to itself, and avoid reading it. |
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I dont keep journals anymore. I keep a quote book.
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| I
feel that that better captures my moods and feelings
than a journal for some reason. When i look back and read the
quote book, or when i page through it to search for something,
i can tell at what point in time (usually) that i wrote the
quote, and why. around the time i met my boyfriend, i started
putting all these mushy quotes in there. get it? ^^; |
| I
have been in quebec for two months, and i go back home friday.
I have probably spoken 6 words of french the entire time ive
been here. maybe thats bad, maybe it isnt, but i have this irrational
fear of speaking it in front of those whose native language
it is. i have no trouble in french classes.. go figure. (just
thought i'd mention that, because its another part of the "life
is hard" thing for me) |
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And
the original UK Harry Potter books are better than the American
versions! Really!
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I
can't help it.. I'm a Harry Potter fan.
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thanks
for listening. chrono cross is an awesome game, btw... Legend of
Dragoon, cool as it was, cant touch it.. and thats saying a lot,
because Dragoon was my favorite game before we got Chrono Cross.
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