The Hardest Thing Part 3
*Jamy's POV*
I couldn't breath for a second...then I found myself drawing closer and closer to him, as if something was pulling us together, like a silver cord.
Our faces were only centimeters away...the tension was high and my breathing was heavy. His lips touched mine, hot and sweet as our bodies grew closer together.
His lips massaged against mine, I ran my fingers through the back of his hair. The electrical sensation ran through my body as our lips continued to fulfill our every passions.
He rested his hands on my hips as I pushed my lips harder against his, deepening the kiss that I never thought would come.
Chris; who, along with the other guys; had come to watch me sing busted in the door causing us to pull away, leaving my lips tingling and aching for more.
"Whoa, am I interrupting something here?" Chris asked, my eyes dropped to the ground as my face turned beat red.
"Yea, damn it! You did!" Justin said, backing away from me. "Man, look at your girl, something is up with her face," Chris joked, and I turned even redder. Justin smiled at me, pulling me off the counter.
"Anyway, I came back here to tell you that you need to get your butt out there on stage," Chris said, leaving.
"Well, I better go," I said, keeping my eyes on the ground. "Yea, good luck," he smiled, following me.
My eyes scanned the crowd as everyone cheered. I just laughed, a knew a lot of these people from my previous performances.
"OK, so, I hope everyone is doing good!" I said into the microphone. The crowd cheered. "OK, I'm doing 2 numbers tonight cuz I got the short shift YAY! I wanna dedicate these both to my love, who is in the audience right now," I said, just before the music started. "This first one is called "I Wanna Love You Forever," by Jessica Simpson
My voice filled the shop, drawing in more people.
"You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it too
I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees
I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10 thousand lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face
And felt the fire of your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever
My mind fails to understand
What my heart tells me to do
And I give up all I have just to be with you
And that would do
I've always been taught to win
Now I never thought I'd fall
Be at the mercy of a man
I've never been
Now I only want to be right where you are
I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10 thousand lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do
Cause from the moment that I saw your face
And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever
In my life I learned that heaven never waits, no
Let's take this now before its gone like yesterday
Cuz when I'm with you
There's no where else that I would ever wanna be
I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you loving me
I'm gonna love...
I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10 thousand lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face
And felt the fire of your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever.
Forever (ooh)
I wanna love you forever
Everyday, everyday...
10 thousand lifetimes together...
(fades out)"
The crowd clapped uproariously. My face was glowing as the crowd continued to cheer, I glanced at Justin who was standing up and whistling. I blushed slightly, but continued on.
"The other song, I'm almost positive everyone in here should know, is called "I Will Always Love You," by Whitney Houston. Baby, here is my answer," I said, I tucked my hair behind my ear and the music started.
"If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way
Chorus:
I will always love you (bis)
Bitter sweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you need
chorus
I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this I wish you love
chorus"
I finished the song with tears in my eyes as the crowd went wild, Justin looked teary eyed as well, and was writing something on a piece of paper, or maybe it was a napkin, I couldn't tell.
I stepped off the small stage...we had made it when I began working here...and wiped the tears away from my eyes.
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Justin pulled into the parking lot, the ride had been silent.
I stepped out without saying a word, and he followed me, the rain was still pouring heavily on us.
I stopped at the entrance to the complex and ran my nimble fingers over the handle as he caught up with me. "What time are you leaving tomorrow?" I asked, still grazing the handle.
"Around noon, more than likely," He said, touching my cheek.
I looked up into his eyes, as the rain fell across his soaking wet cheeks. His hair was matted down, but he was still beautiful. His eyes seemed to have some kind of peaceful connection with mine that I couldn't seem to break.
"I wrote a letter for you while you were singing in the shop, read it later and call me tomorrow if you change your mind," he said, before allowing his lips to connect with mine, the indescribably passion flowed through us again as the rain mixed our tears together.
After releasing from the kiss he wrapped his arms around me, and held me safe from all the pain I was holding inside of me.
He touched his hand to my brown, tangled hair before kissing my cheek and walking away. I stood quietly in the rain for what seemed like hours. I just simply thought about him and about my decision.
*~*Chapter 7*~*
I crawled into my bed, pulling my baby blue blankets around me. I had just gotten out of the shower, and changed into my jammies. I lifted Justin's note from my night stand and began reading it...
Dear Jamy,
I understand how you are feeling, but I don't know how I can leave without you by my side the whole way, or at least your love to push me through the rough days. I need you with me, you are the only person I have ever loved. You are on stage singing to me right now, and I just thought of a song that reminded me of you, so I'll just write down the lyrics...
Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
raise a family
Please, baby, come back to me.
Think about things tonight, and call me tomorrow if you change your mind
Love,
Justin
The tears seemed to burn my eyes, I knew that we just couldn't be together, not now at least. I was working on my music career and I wanted to make it without having things handed to me and I know thats exactly what Justin would do. I wasn't going to change my mind, as much as my heart and soul begged for me to, I knew I had to do the strong thing and believe that if things were meant to be, fate would take us all the way...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I woke up the next morning, my head pounding as if I had a hang over or something.
I looked at my clock, it read 11:30...the guys would be leaving in a half hour....a half hour...I repeated it to myself over and over again as if I were checking myself into reality.
My heart raced a thousand miles an hour as my phone rang. "Hello?" I said shakily answering it. "Hey hun! It's me, Chelle, I was just curious if you were going to the airport to say bye to the guys or whatever," Chelle said, I felt a great deal of relief when I heard her familiar voice. "No, I'm not," I knew that if I went I would end up changing my mind.
"OK, well, the rest of us are going, so we'll see you when we get back!!" Chelle said. "OK, laters chicka," I said. "Buh-bye," she said just before hanging up the phone.
I just stared at my clock as the minutes grew few before he left......11:40.....11:41....11:42....11:43....11:44....11:45....my heart sank...I need him more than anything else in the world. I shot up and threw on a pair of jeans and a tank as quick as possible. I called my neighbor..."Melanie, this is huge important, can I use your car to drive to the airport please?" I begged, throwing on my shoes.
"Of course, you know I have no problem with you borrowing my car hun, come get the keys," she said, her light tone of voice brightened my attitude a little...maybe I could still catch him.
I drove as fast as I possibly could to the airport and amazingly arrived there at 12:05, I ran through the terminal, I saw Chelle, Kristin, Jazz and Jamie standing at a far gate, I ran for my life.
I reached the gate to find the love of my life.............gone....I didn't think fast enough. I broke down into tears and fell to the ground, Chelle and Kristin kneeled down next to me, rubbing my back. Jazz and Jamie spoke a few comforting words, But nothing could help me...
The only man I had ever loved was gone because I was stubborn. I knew that now I couldn't just call him up and say "hey, I love you, Please come home," I was given a once in a life time chance and I just pushed it aside as if it would come a long again.
Tears couldn't stop pouring from my eyes as I slammed my fists into the floor. My knuckles began bleeding, just the same as my heart seemed to be. This was the end of my life as I knew it...I knew he wasn't just gonna come crawling back again after what I had just put him through. I knew I would never love again, and living without him would be the hardest thing.
The End
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