10/31/00

Yes, the day has arrived, the day that I find to be the most delightful holiday of them all. In class I was bored out of my mind and suffered from a lack of motivation to do any of my work, so I decided to read my past journal entries for October. I am a completely different person then I was then. Somehow I wish I could return to that mental state; so isolated and cold, but then I look at what I have found along the way and do not want to give him up. I am sure that he would still love me even if I did revert back to the way I once was. In fact, how do I not know that he would love that dark side of me even more?

It is not as if I have left that aspect of myself behind exactly, it will always be here in my thoughts, but sometimes I wish that I could revert back to that melon collie abstract writing that I loved so much.

I cannot wait to see what it is the night shall bring with it. This holiday always brings memorable gifts, and grand surprises. The weather has already held up it’s half of the deal. On the way to the computer lab the rain cried heavily upon my head and kissed my body with every drop. Sleeping in the lounge was wonderful; so dark and cold outside, while inside it was quite cozy and dark. I have one more class before I leave this banal building, and then I can once again slip into the street of tears and mourning sky!

Tonight I shall play with my morbid kitten on this cold dark Hallows Eve.

Happy Halloween!!!!!!!