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TURMOIL

Inside my world I like to be
Alone, no interruptions, no others around
In the real world people fuck with me
Attitudes abound, deceptions, misconceptions
How to cope when all I want to do is leave
Walk away or stay and kill
Mind numbing anger fills my heart, my head, my very soul
Thoughts of destruction consume me
Just to hurt or simply maim, I cannot leave it at that
The mere presence of them so vile and hated sends me over the edge
Walk away, I want to, or lose a little more of my humanity
If I turn and walk away everything is lost
Every shred of who and what I used to be
The imaginary me, the one who talked, who smiled laughed, joked
The one who cared, held, spoke, embraced a friend
The duality of what's real and reality
Conflicts every which way I turn
I hate, I love, I laugh, I cry, I speak, I scream, I smile, I rage
Separate, together, all alone
Nothing left, I'm a hollow drone
Keep me safe, kill me now
I hate this place I have to be in
I hate this world, I hate this life
I hate these people, I hate it all
Solitude, my salvation
Isolation, my dear friend
Embrace the loneliness
Or face the beast
Anger dwells in every vessel
Hatred resides in me
The depths to which knows no boundaries
Alone I thrive
Together I die