Honor.....what is honor? by definition of the dictionary it is show as "High respect, as that shown for special merit; esteem". when we think of honor we think of high stature..someone of nobility, a person of great understanding of the world and himself....honor is a word to many, but it is a way of life for the few...this word is labled to those who are greatly respected for their acts of hospility and greatness towards the world and his country...i have but one thought in mind when i hear that word, " the way of life "...to truely understand what honor is you must first breathe the essence of the word... understand the origin and nature of how the word came to be, and people who lived by the code of honor......would you give your life for what you believe? would you sacrifice your happiness for the sake of others? once you grasp the understanding of the answers then you will come to a slight understanding of what it is to have honor....to know honor you must also know shame...the word like life has its opposite...you must come to understand both in order to understand what it is to live with honor.....a man of honor is a man/woman of his word, a being with undivided understanding of the order of life, and one-ness with him or herself....this is the extent of understanding i have of what "honor" is, but there is still much for me to grasp, before i can truely claim that i am a man of honor...my life has yet to unfold it's true purpose, there are many things that i still have yet to understand and encounter, but i look forward to the days to come and hope that one day i can claim that i lived my life with "honor"...........

Regret.....the topic of my entry....wat can i say about regret? well first off i got a few regrets in my life...and sometimes i wish i could jus go back in time and fix that...but i have to live with that regret..always lookin bak upon those times and saying to myself "daym what if?" i hate that sense of loss taht i get when ever i lo0k back...but that's just how life is....but for those that still have the chance to go bak and fix things , before you get to far out.. fix it!! don't regret..don't lo0k back....cuz mannn it's a bad feelin!! i wish i could have told my sister that i loved her..i wish i could have spent more time with my grandfather...but it's to late...their gone...out to a place where they can't be seen or communicated with....it's the smallest things in life we take for granted....which is why...love your parents, reguardless of how annoying they can get...tell them that you love them...tell ppl that you keep dear to your heart that you love them..because you really never know when they won't be there anymore....alot of random things happen in this world....so while you still have the chance tell close that you love them..and cherish the time's spent with that person or persons....cuz life is fast and if you dont pay attention it might just pass you by......spend time with your sister,mom,dad,brother,cousin,uncle etc...who ever has been there for you through thick and then..because those are the people that you take for granted...i bet if you stop to think about it, you don't really show them that you care.....this may not be troo for everyone but there are those out there that don't realize it.....all i'm saying is that don't live a life full of regrets....make it that one day you can look bak while sitting on the front porch of your house drink some tea and say to yourself "daym i lived a hell of a life, no regrets!!" or in other words live life and use and abuse everything and anything you can get out of the time you have...because you only live once! don't waste it.....

o0o yet another entry of a go0od song...the lyrics clearly imply to those who's ever been struck with the trouble of parent-child understanding.....i find this song to clearly underlie the view of the general teenage community....every parent always seeems to expect so much of you..and if you've ever felt the same...maybe you should make your parents hear this song....

SIMPLE PLAN - PERFECT

[Verse 1]
Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for
You can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me

[Chorus]
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

[Verse 2]
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s all right

[Chorus]
‘Cause we lost it all
And nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

[Bridge]
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

[Chorus (2x)]
‘Cause we lost it all
And nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

hey wats up!! hello to everyone that left me a post on my previous entry...sorry i can't get bak all the time...pretty caught up in sko0ol these days...but yeh..everythings good with me....sko0ols going well and life is a dream......i happened to watch maid in mahattan again and realized that they have a few good songs....here's lyrics to my fav...

GLENN LEWIS - FALL IN YOU

Feels like a fire that burns in my heart
Every single moment that we spend apart
I need you around for every day to start
I haven’t left you alone
There’s something about you, I stare in your eyes
And everything I’m looking for I seem to find
All this time away is killing me inside
I need your love in my life

I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall in you again
Like we did when we first met
I wanna fall with you again

Ohhhh (etc.)

We fought in a battle, nobody one
And now we face a mountain to be overcome
You can’t turn away, the past is said and done
I need us to carry on

I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall with you again
Like we did when we first met
I wanna fall with you again

la la la la la, whoa (etc.)

You’ll try everything you never thought would work before
When you live, when you love, and you give them your all
You can always give up some more
Baby nothing means anything unless you’re here to share with me
I can breathe, I can bleed, I can die in my sleep
Cause you’re always there in my dreams

I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall with you again
Like we did when we first met
I wanna fall with you again

I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall with you again
Like we did when we first met
I wanna fall with you again

Ohh, la la la (etc.)

You again