Chapter 6
"So I’m really going to move out there." Nikki said into the phone to Jana a few days later.
"Hmm…"
"Do you mind if I stay with you for a while until I find a place?"
"No."
"I’ll probably do it at the end of next month so I can get everything together."
"Hmm…"
"Damn it Jana what the hell is wrong with you?"
"What?"
"What’s got you so deep in thought?"
"Four letters."
"Nick?"
"Correct what do we have for her Johnny?" Jana retorted sarcastically.
"Miss him?"
"Hell no I just think I made a huge mistake."
"What’s that?"
"I opened up too much." Jana said in a low voice.
"And that’s bad because?"
"I just shouldn’t have."
"Why?"
"Because I don’t trust him."
"Why?"
"Well I don’t trust much of anyone, I figure if you can’t trust the only two people that matter that most then you can’t trust anyone."
"You mean your parents?"
"Duh!"
"Sorry I was just making sure that I was following you. Well I don’t know what to say."
"You never do no one ever knows what to say. It’s ok I’m used to it. I’m used to fucking my life up."
"How do you know Nick isn’t the one?"
Jana started to laugh, "I just do."
"Ok whatever. I have to go."
"Yeah, bye."
"Bye."
//A Week Later\\
"You have to tell Nikki thanks for the pictures."
"I will. How many did she send you?" AJ replied into the phone to Nick.
"Four."
"Are they good?"
"Jana is smiling real big in one of them and seriously that’s the first time I’ve seen her smile. It’s a nice smile." Nick said smiling staring at the pictures.
"So when are you coming back here?"
"Umm… a few days before the CD is released. I’m heading to Japan now. I’m not quite sure what day but I do know I’m doing my first concert in the US in Tampa like 3 days before the CD and I think I’m going to send Jana plane tickets to come down."
"Seriously?"
"Yeah I want her to see me perform."
"Cool."
"Yeah but hey don’t say anything I want it to be a surprise."
"Ok man."
"I have to go now."
"Talk to you later."
"Bye."
"Bye."
//Three Weeks Later\\
Jana finally decided she needed to get back to working on her movie script she was writing. It had been so long since she worked on it because when her father died she really didn’t have to worry about money or anything else and she just didn’t have the desire to write anything. But after meeting Nick she all of a sudden had a wave of creativity wash over her. So for the past three weeks she had been writing non-stop, most of it was the script, and some of it was poems and just little short things she felt like writing. And every time she went back to reread something to see how it turned out she always started thinking about Nick.
"God stop thinking about him you stupid." Jana said out loud to herself trying to cure her writer’s block. "Maybe some music?" She suggested to herself as she pushed play on her CD player.
LeAnn Rimes’ voice soon filled her apartment on the Coyote Ugly soundtrack. This was by far her favorite soundtrack until the third song came on. She listened intently to every word.
About your reputation
And now it’s bound to be
A heart break situation
But I can’t help it I’m helpless
Every time I’m where you are
Walks out the door
Say my name and I can’t fight it anymore
I know I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Shouldn’t want to spend my time with you
I should try and be strong
But baby you’re the right kind of wrong
A mistake I’m making
But what you’re giving
I’m happy to be taking
Cause all that will make me feel
The way I feel when I’m in your arms
I should do with out
But they don’t know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
"Off." Jana said as she turned it off, "I’ve had enough of that for one day." She concluded as she went back to her desk.
"So when you are going to move up here?" AJ asked Nikki on the phone.
"I don’t know now."
"Why?"
"It’s a long story don’t really want to get into it."
"Ok."
"Talk to Nick lately?"
"I talked to him three weeks ago or something like that."
"What did he have to say?"
"I’m going to tell you but you can’t tell Jana."
Nikki smiled and said, "Ok I promise."
"He’s sending her a plane ticket to go to Tampa for his first concert as a solo artist."
"Are you shitting me?"
"I shit you not."
"When is it?"
"Like two weeks or something I’m not sure."
"I hope she goes."
"Why wouldn’t she?"
"Its Jana things are complicated when it comes to her."
"Oh ok." AJ replied with a laugh.
Jana decided to take a break from writing she hadn’t left the house in over two weeks so she decided to get dressed and go shopping. She walked downstairs and went to check her mail since she hadn’t done that in two weeks too. She filed through the bills until she got to an envelope that didn’t have a return address. It intrigued her so she sat down on the steps and opened it. She pulled out a plane ticket and a folded piece of paper. She unfolded it and began to read it out loud.
First off I suck at letters. Just so you know. I really don’t know what to say. I left and you weren’t really talking to me and then AJ gives me this package from you. I listen to it and I was just blown away by the words. They were pretty deep, don’t you think? We’re you serious? Because I’ve come to realize you’re tendency to change your mind in a split second.
Anyway, enclosed you’ll find a plane ticket for Tampa, on October, 25. Why you ask? Well the 26 I’m having my first real concert as a solo artist and I want you to be there. To see me perform, so you can look at my fine ass. Just kidding don’t chop the boys off.
I hope you’ll think about it. I’m pretty sure you’d enjoy it. So I hope I see you there.
Nick
To say Jana was shocked would be an understatement. She stared at the ticket and couldn’t help the smile forming on her face. She knew what she was doing on the 25.
Know all about
‘Isn’t that truth that boy has a bad rep and how do I know he isn’t going to hurt me? That’s why I keep my distance. Well haven’t really been doing that, that well but damn it I’m trying. For the love of God I’m not helpless when he’s around LeAnn damn it. Ok you’re yelling at a song; in you mind no less you need to stop.’ Jana thought to herself.
You walk in and my strength
‘That just makes me sound pathetic. Fucking song. I hate it. And I can fight whatever "it" is when he says my name damn it. He doesn’t make it sound that good.’
Loving you isn’t really something I should do
‘Love? Whoa now. I don’t think so I loathe Mr. Carter. Ok maybe not loathe him. Maybe I like him a tiny bit. But love is definitely a little far. Damn straight I shouldn’t want to spend time with that little fucker or I shouldn’t be wondering right now what he is doing. I am strong damn it.’ Jana thought as the song continued.
Might be a mistake
‘Fucking right it’s a mistake. A fucking mistake to feel this way and an even bigger mistake for doing that shit with the fucking song. What in the hell was wrong with me that day?’
They say you’re something
‘Stop thinking of that damn kiss. Stop thinking of that damn kiss. Stop thinking of that damn kiss.’
Jana,