Well, son of a bitch. I knew today was going to be interesting. And damn it, it was. I’m sitting in the hotel pigging out on junk food all alone, now. Hmm… I wonder where Blondie is?
Anyway, back to the ‘interesting’ day. He got up and got ready and shit and then left the room, so I got ready and waited for him I didn’t know if he left or not so I was waiting it was almost seven and that’s what time we were supposed to be on set. So about fifteen till, he comes bursting through the door and then starts yelling at me. Telling me he’s been waiting for me with Mike down in the lobby, blah blah blah. Fucker, I couldn’t believe he was brave enough to yell at me. So I yelled back and then pushed past him and walked out the door.
We sat in the car silently both of our arms crossed and permanent scowls on our faces as we both stared out the window. We didn’t say anything to each when we arrived to the set and immediately got working. Finally, I was involved in the damn thing, I had to be all on him acting as if we were ‘together’ and it was fine for me. I could tell he wasn’t exactly enjoying it but fuck him. I was doing what I was told. And then the whole little fight thing came and I think he truly broke that chair because he was mad at me. Or at least I think he is mad at me. Then we had to do our little make up scene and *sigh* he smelt so good when we were hugging. Damn. So all in all I think it turned out pretty good.
So it’s almost two in the morning and I’m once again bored out of my god damn mind with nothing but what happened last night running through my head. Every time I blink I see his face before he kissed me or god… I don’t know if I want to think about it I might get a little worked up. I mean damn. That’s really all I can say when I think of it. He’s amazing. Hmm… maybe that was a bad idea. No damn it. It wasn’t I’m a big girl I can handle a one nighter. Yeah, but I want to know why he thought it was going to be a bad idea.
Now I’m fucking paranoid because that’s what I do, I worry myself sick about shit until I’m proved wrong. God, I hope I’m wrong this time but how can I not be paranoid when so many girls I know have had babies while taking birth control. And one small little detail that I didn’t feel like I should have told Nick is that, well I haven’t exactly been taking my pill in a few weeks. More like three months, when me and Shawn broke up I stopped I didn’t see any sense because I wasn’t having sex. So yeah… uh.
To top things off I’ve tried to call Nicole but she didn’t answer the phone all ten times. I wonder where the fuck that girl is? I need to talk to her about my new problem with Carter. Uh… I’m so emotional these days, which fucking sucks because I hate being emotional it’s a habit I really don’t want to get into. I hate being all emotional. Right now I’m just pissed… actually I couldn’t tell what I am right now. I’m so confused.
I need some more food.
Julie got up from the couch and walked over to the phone and grabbed the room service menu to order herself some more junk food. She picked up the phone and started to dial when Nick stumbled into the room. She set the phone down and looked at him strangely. Someone had been drinking a little.
“Hey.” Nick said as he staggered over to her and hugged her tight.
“Hi.” She said almost gagging on the scent of cheap perfume that filled her nostrils as she hugged him back.
They pulled apart but Nick didn’t move his hands from her waist. Julie tried to move away but he kept a firm grip on her.
“Nick.” She said looking at him.
He didn’t say anything as he leaned in taking her mouth in his kissing her deeply. Julie kissed him back deepening the kiss as he started to pull her tank top off of her. They continued to kiss each other as they made their way over to the couch; their hands everywhere and their clothes were being thrown everywhere. Nick laid her down on the couch and hovered over her, he kissed her hard and then got up ran into the other room and then came back.
Julie looked at him weird. He grinned at her as he held up the condom package. She laughed and shook her head as he put it on and then got back on top of her. In one swift move he entered and immediately started moving rather quickly. He moved his hands over her stomach and up her chest to her hands and entwined their fingers as he continued to look down at her.
Julie closed her eyes as he started to suck on her neck and then kissed his way down to her chest and then back up to her lips.
“Open your eyes.” Nick whispered against her lips and then kissed her.
Julie opened her eyes slowly staring intensely into Nick’s as he started to move even faster. Julie moved her legs around his waist pulling him deeper into her. Nick started to groan a little louder as he felt like he was almost there. He quickened his pace even more and then leaned down and kissed her passionately as he came, he continued to move until she moaned loud into his mouth as she came.
Nick stopped and collapsed on her chest breathing hard. Their fingers where still entwined and Julie’s legs were still around his waist as they tried to catch their breath. After a few minutes Nick kissed her forehead and then moved off of her and walked into the bedroom.
Julie laid there a little while longer letting it settle in that they had slept together again and he was the one who started it. Then she got up and walked into the bedroom after putting her pajamas back on. Nick was lying on his back one hand behind his head and the other on his stomach sleeping. She pulled the covers back and laid down next to him turning her back to him closing her eyes and tried to go to sleep.
After twenty minutes of tossing and turning Julie finally got up and went into the living room area to watch TV. She flopped down on the couch sighing, she turned the TV on and started turning the channels looking for something decent to watch in the middle of the night. She put it on the cartoon network that was always a great station to watch cartoons were the best. She smiled when the Power Puff Girls came on and got comfortable on the couch. Not really paying attention to the TV when her mind started to wander to thoughts of none other than Nick. She couldn’t help it, she tried to think of something else but it didn’t last long. It was inevitable Nick was on her mind a lot, but this time it was for a completely different reason.
Nick woke up to the phone piercingly ringing in his ear, early the next morning. He rubbed his forehead as he reached his hand out to pick up the phone. Of course it was another damn wake up call; he sighed as he put the phone back in its stop and put his hand over his face. He was silently yelling at himself for going out last night with Mike and getting drunk. Finally, he rolled off the bed and staggered into the main room looking for some aspirin; he knew some had to be around somewhere.
He walked into the room to see Julie cuddled up on the end of the couch. He smiled slightly as he watched her sleep and then he picked up the cover off the floor and covered her back up. Then he returned to his search for aspirin.
“Nick?” Julie whispered as she opened her eyes.
“Yeah?” He asked not looking at her as he continued to search the room.
“What are you doing?”
“Aspirin.” He replied.
Julie laughed lightly and got up from the couch and went over to her purse. “Here.” She said holding out the bottle for him.
He turned around and smiled wide at her. He walked over to her and took the bottle took two out and then gave her the bottle back. “Thanks, you’re an angel.” He said kissed her cheek and then walked back into the bedroom. Julie smiled as she went back to lie on the couch.
“We get to see the video today.” Nick said as he walked back out.
“Uh huh.” Julie said yawning.
“Tired?”
“Uh huh, I didn’t sleep all that well last night.” Julie replied cutting eyes over to him.
“Well we have to be there in an hour.” He said avoiding her stare.
Julie nodded as she started to close her eyes again. “Wake me up fifteen minutes before we leave.”
“Ok.” Nick replied laughing. He stood there staring at her for a second and then turned around when he reached the door he turned around again and looked at her one more time and then went into the bathroom.
~Nick’s point of view~
So, I know I had said earlier that I liked her, but damn it I didn’t think we’d take it that far. I’m not sure what I want to say to her. I know I said that it was a bad idea but truthfully it was far from a bad idea. I mean I don’t want a girlfriend right now, I have so much to focus on right now, and my album is like my girlfriend dude. It’s going to seem like it when I’m going everywhere promoting her and shit. So, what do I say to her? I like her, that’s a given. I enjoy hanging out with her. She’s a fun person, but I just don’t want a relationship. I could just say that, right? But I did say that at the beginning of the first night but then last night after the shoot I got drunk and she had me horny all damn day and I couldn’t help myself. Yeah, a good excuse huh? I know. So I don’t know what she is thinking after last night. She may be thinking that I want a relationship or something. You know how girls are they think crazy whack shit up all the time. No offense to all girls, but you know you do it. *grins*
And all that crazy shit she was talking about the first night, I didn’t want to hear that shit. Sure she may have a reason to be paranoid now but damn she went a little over board, don’t you think? I do.
So I’ll just not say anything yeah that’s a good idea. We’ll just go about our regular business and forget that we had sex. That’s easy right? Probably, no it is. I hope so because I’m having a feeling… wait I’m not saying it.
I’m going to take a shower. A cold one. Fun for me.
Nick walked out of the room to see Julie sitting on the couch dressed and ready to go. “I thought you wanted me to wake you up fifteen minutes before we left?” He asked as he sat down on the other end of the couch.
Julie shrugged and said, “I couldn’t go back to sleep so I just got up and threw some clothes on and shit.”
“So you are ready?”
“Yeah.”
“Well let’s go.” Nick said as he stood up and headed towards the door.
~Julie’s point of view~
I wonder what happened to Nick when he went out last night. Because he is nice this morning and acting as if nothing happened, which is totally fine by me because well damn it I can’t seem to think of anything else and if he was doing the same that might be a problem, but now I know that he isn’t then hopefully I can stop. The key word in that is hopefully.
I had a dream last night before he came back it was repeating what happened the night before like over and over in my head. It was fucked up. It was like my brain was telling me something, but I’m not listening. When do I ever listen to anything? Never, exactly. So I get to go home tomorrow, technically its late tonight to me but really it’s like two in the morning. Why in the hell do we have to go so late? Huh? Because I’m traveling with the blond god of course. It must have slipped my mind. Silly me.
When I get home everything well go back to normal and I won’t see Nick for a while because he’s going to bum fuck Egypt and you know everywhere, I really haven’t been keeping up on his schedule obviously.
Now I’m off to see myself on TV. Eek! I’m going to be TV! Ok that was a squeal, yes I did squeal, hell I have a right too damn it. I’m going to be on TV.
Julie and Nick stood around in the room with a bunch of other people watching the video. They hadn’t talked the whole way there. It was that uncomfortable silence that gets on everyone’s nerves. At one point Julie just wanted to shake Nick to see maybe she could find out what’s going on in his head.
“I like it.” Nick said crossing his arms after the video finished.
“Yeah.” The director replied, “Turned out well.” He said nodding.
“What did you think?” Nick nudged Julie in the elbow slightly.
“I liked it.” She said softly.
“Ok we’re done here you can go.” Matthew said to Nick.
“Right. Thanks.” Nick said and then turned around and started to walk out the door with Julie following him slowly.
~Julie’s point of view~
I’m going to hell. Nick’s going to hell. This is bad. So ok I don’t really believe in hell, well to an extent but damn that’s not what this is about. This is about me joining the fucking mile high club if you catch my drift. Carter over here is a little horn dog, not that I’m complaining, but I thought this was just a one night thing. Obviously not. Well I think I can handle that because it was damn good.
But I still can’t believe I did that. Never in my whole life had I ever done anything remotely close to that in public until now. Crazy, it’s fucking crazy. *shakes head*
So I was confused about this all after the incident on the couch now I’m beyond confused, if that’s possible I don’t even know what to say. For once I’m speechless.
“Hey the plane is getting ready to land.” Nick said as he poked Julie’s shoulder waking her up.
“Yeah I heard the damn announcement.” Julie muttered with her eyes still closed.
“Ok.” Nick said as he looked away and crossed his arms.
They got off the plane and immediately headed outside to the cars that were waiting for them. They didn’t say anything to each other as they walked out there and as they waited for their luggage there was still no words exchanged. Julie was getting frustrated with the silence, she didn’t get it. Did he always do that? Because it was just a tad bit annoying.
“Julie.”
Julie cut her eyes over to Nick. “Yes?” She asked.
“I wanted to say thanks.”
“For what?” She asked confused.
“For being in my video.” He said smiling.
Julie started to bite her bottom lip and nodded while she tried to think of something to say.
“And I’m sorry.”
“For?”
“You know.”
Julie smiled and said, “No, I don’t think I do know.”
“You’re going to make me say it?”
“Uh yeah.”
“I’m sorry I yelled at you and I’m sorry I was an ass.”
“Ok.” Julie said simply.
“Ok? That’s all you’re going to say?”
“Uh huh.” She replied grinning.
“Fine.”
They stared at each other intently like they both were searching for something in each other’s eyes.
“I’m going to be gone for a while with promotion and shit.” Nick said breaking the silence.
“Yeah and hopefully I’ll be getting a job soon or something.”
Nick smiled and said, “We can call each other.”
“Ok.” Julie replied smiling back.
“I really like you Julie you are fun to be around, except in the mornings.”
Julie laughed lightly and nodded.
“I’ll talk to you soon.” He said as he got closer to her and hugged her.
She hugged him back and then they separated looking at each other, like they both had something to say but they just held it back.
“Ok, bye.” Julie said breaking the awkward silence that formed between them, again.
“Yeah, bye.” Nick replied and then turned around and walked over to the car waiting for Mike.
Julie watched him walk off and then she turned and got in the car that was waiting for her. Sighing heavily she sat down and leaned her head back against the seat closing her eyes. What a crazy four days.
Twenty-five minutes later Julie got to her apartment, she smiled wide as she got out seeing it still standing and her car still in one piece. She slowly made her way to the front door, she unlocked it and walked in turning on the light throwing her bags down and made her way into her bedroom. She changed into her pajamas and then went into Nicole’s room.
She walked in quietly and over to the bed. She reached out and started shaking her and yelling at her to get up.
“Hey you’re not Nicole.” Julie said as stood back.
“I know that.”
“Shannon!” Julie said as she attacked her.
Shannon started to laugh and said, “Yeah I missed you too.”
Julie got off Shannon and looked at her. “What are you doing here and where is Nicole?”
“I came for a visit. I wanted to see you. I came back from New Orleans and I went to your house and your mom told me you moved out here and she gave me your number and shit. I called no on answered and then she gave me your address and I flew out here to see you, since I have nothing going on in my life, ya know.”
“I’m so happy to see you.”
“Where have you been?”
“Uh… somewhere.” Julie said looking around the room.
“Where?”
“That’s not important.” Julie said waving her hand in the air.
“Sure it isn’t I’ll get it out of you sooner or later.”
“You’ll find out sooner than later.” Julie mumbled.
“What?”
“Nothing. So where is Nicole?”
“She moved out.”