What if it’s you?

"Then why did you come?" Nick asked breaking the silence that began between them.

"Well I don’t know I just did." Jerrica replied refusing to make eye contact.

Nick nodded as he tried to look her in the eyes.

"Why did you ask me to come?"

"I’m not sure. I wanted to see you again."

"Before you got married? A quickie for the road?"

"No." He said plainly.

"Oh."

"Is that what you wanted?"

"No."

"Sure."

Jerrica glared at him finally looking him in the eyes and said, "What do you want?"

"I want to be friends."

"I can’t be friends with you." She replied quickly.

"Why?"

"Because I just can’t."

"Why?"

"Because it’s just too hard for me."

"What’s hard about being my friend?"

"It’s hard to explain and I know you won’t understand."

"How do you know that?"

"Because I barely understand why. So can you just tell me what you want so I can go?"

"Why in such a hurry?"

Jerrica sighed and held back her tears.

"So?"

"Are you going to tell what you want or not?"

"I told you."

"The whole friends shit?"

"Well I didn’t think it was shit."

"Well I do think it is shit. I can’t be your friend Nick. Because I can’t be friendly to people I’m in love with and I especially can’t be friendly to the people they are in love with. I’m not that strong and I can’t take the pain anymore." She said.

Nick sat there just staring at her.

"Nick you don’t know what it feels like to be in love with someone and them not love you in return. It totally sucks to feel something for someone who is in love with someone else. Or is getting married that’s a new one for me but it results in the same damn feeling. I wish you would have never came up to me in the mall, I wish you were never my clients and I wish more than anything I’ve ever wished for that you wouldn’t have kissed me. Because maybe I wouldn’t be feeling all these feelings again, but I guess it’s just my destiny. Fall in love with the wrong guy and then get hurt. I guess I should just bone up and take it like a man." She said as she stood up.

"Don’t go."

"Nick nothing you can say will make me stay."

"I care about you."

"Good bye Nick." She said quietly and walked off as she began to cry.

Nick got up and followed her out the door.

"Did you hear what I said?" He asked grabbing her arm and turning her around looking her in the eyes.

"That you care about me? I highly doubt that."

"Why? What is wrong with the fact that I may care about you?"

"YOU’RE GETTING MARRIED! You are the same person Matt was. Except it’s turned around but I’m still the one that is getting hurt."

"What if I said I didn’t want to get married?"

Jerrica looked at him and said, "What if I said I felt like we were meant to be? What if I said my heart belongs to you now? You decide what you are going to do with that. What if I said I don’t think I could feel this way again toward anyone else?"

Nick shrugged.

"See that’s how I feel about you saying that."

"That doesn’t make any sense."

"You don’t know what you would do if I said those things. And I don’t know what I would if you really meant that you didn’t want to get married."

Nick looked at Jerrica confused.

"You could say that you weren’t getting married and that you were in love with me and you wanted to be with me but I don’t think I would know what I would do. I’d probably run because I can’t trust you how would I know you wouldn’t do the same thing to me like you are doing to Shanna?"

Nick shrugged again.