Chapter 4
Just stamp stupid on my forehead, because that’s what I was. I was completely and utterly the stupidest person on the earth. I laid there staring at the ceiling mentally kicking my ass for being so dumb. I heard the door open and prayed that it wasn’t Nick, but who else would it be? I shook my head knowing it was Nick after I felt the bed move as he lay beside me.
"I’m leaving today." He said as he lay on his side facing me.
"Great." I replied in monotone.
"It’s been fun." He said then got up.
Was he leaving? I wanted to sit up and yell at him. I wanted to yell at him for playing me like a fool. For playing with my feelings, but I just laid there holding my tears. It’s been fun? Yeah it’s been more than fun. It’s been heart breaking if it has been anything. Of course anything I’m involved in results in heart break, that’s how it was. That’s how it was always going to be.
"Maybe next time we’re in the same town we can get together again." He said walking over to me.
All I could do was nod. If I moved anymore I’d probably start crying uncontrollably.
He kissed my forehead said goodbye and walked out of the hotel room. I laid there closing my eyes letting the past few days run through my mind. How could I be so stupid? I wiped away my tears before I let them run down my face.
"This is fucking ridiculous." I said out loud sighing as I rolled on my side curling into a ball.
I woke up to a repeated pounding on the hotel door. I didn’t want to get up my body ached, my head ached but most of all my heart ached. I slowly got up making sure I had clothes on and made my way to the door.
I opened it and saw Harley standing there looking like shit run over twice.
"You look as bad as I feel." I mumbled as she walked in.
She didn’t say anything as she sat down and stared at me.
"What’s up?"
"Did you even notice I left?"
"Yes I noticed but I had no idea where you went or who you were with. I didn’t know anything."
"And I didn’t want you to either."
"Why?"
She just shrugged.
"So where were you?"
She started to cry and said, "I don’t want to talk about it."
"Ok then." I said as I sat down next to her and hugged her.
"So anything new happen with Nick?" She asked.
"Yeah he left today though."
"I’m sorry Kylie."
"It’s cool it’s better this way."
"You’re a shitty liar."
I started to laugh and said, "Yeah I know."
"Want to follow him?" Harley asked as she smiled at me.
"What?"
"Follow him, you want to? We can go every place he is."
"Why?"
"Because you are head over heels in love with this boy and I think he needs to know."
"I don’t think so."
"To bad, get dressed we have a seven o’clock flight."
"You already had this planned?" I asked with wide eyes.
She grinned at me and said, "Yeah I kind of hung out with his bodyguard for a while and well he was drunk and told me just about everything I need to know."
"Are you fucking me?"
"Nope."
"Holy shit."
"Yeah we’re going to follow Nick Carter around."
"You know stalking is illegal in all fifty states."
"We aren’t stalking."
"Ok whatever you say."
This was stalking. I’m going to go stalk Nick Carter? If I wasn’t completely insane before I have officially reached that point. What was wrong with me? I’m asking for a heart break now.
So I was sitting in the airport when I figured that this might not be a bad thing, and then I got slapped in the head by a paper from the little annoying brat next to me. I figured that was a wake up call telling me I was thinking some shit.
"Are you nervous?" Harley asked when they called our flight.
"Yes, I’m afraid that he will have us arrested for stalking."
"Oh shut up."
"I’m serious."
"You guys have had sex numerous times he might like the fact that you followed him."
"No it’s not called following it’s called stalking." I retorted as I found my seat and flopped down sighing.
"Whatever you know you want to see him again."
"Not especially."
"Ok whatever." Harley said sarcastically.
"Harley, I don’t think you are grasping the idea of what we are going to do and how this is going to affect my feelings for him."
"So you don’t want to go?"
"It’s a little too late for that now."
"Well if you didn’t want to go then you wouldn’t have gotten on the plane."
"Fuck you." I replied closing my eyes.
"I know you want to see him."
"Shut up." I replied and I could feel her smirking at me. I shouldn’t have said that, that just proved to her that I did want to see him. God I hated my life.
"Hey Kylie get up the plane is landing." Harley said as she poked my arm annoyingly.
"I hate you." I mumbled swatting her hand away.
"You love me and you love Nick. You just have so much love in you."
"What are you now, a spokesperson for PBS?" I asked as Harley started to laugh.
"So where the hell are we actually going?" I asked as we walked through the airport.
"A hotel first."
"Well that’s a good- holy shit."
"What?"
I pointed at him. What the fuck was he doing at the same airport? His flight was way before ours. God someone shoot me now. Please just shoot me dead.
"Well looks like your lover is here."
"Please tell me you didn’t know he was going to be."
"I swear I didn’t know." Harley said raising her hands in the air.
"Hey Kylie what are you doing here?" Nick asked from behind me.