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When I think about myself, I see where I have been and were I would like to go. I imagine that all people do this type of thing, but for myself it has been really this past year (2000) that I have discovered the 'new' me. With the help of a few very special on-line friends, and one young man in particular, I have opened my eyes to the dark light I was living in, and stepped forward to embrace me, my beliefs, hopes, dreams, passions and desires. *S*
I was born in 1968 in a small town in Oklahoma. Yea-Yea make the joke, but I'm not an Okie. *LOL* I have an older brother by 3 years, a younger sister by 8, two nephews by my brother that are currently 9 and 6, one son of my own that will be 10 in March 2001. My mother is still living, however my dad died in 1995 from colon cancer....and my mother still ask me: why do I smoke?? *L*
In 1987 when I was 18 I wanted to leave home, and the small town that I grew up in. I wanted to move far enough way so that mom and dad just couldn't 'drop-in', yet not so far that it would be impossible to drive in a day. *S* Thus, fresh out of travel school from getting my degree in Travel and Tourism, I took a job offer that landed me in Missouri. After 5 years I was burned out in this chosen career, (always booking trips for others and not for yourself gets depressing *L*) and spent the next 7 years working in the Customer Care Management Group, as a Resolution Specialist for a World Wide Company. Yea, it's BIG, and my paycheck is PUNY. That's Corporate America for you. *L* Disatisfaction hit me and in December of 2000 so me and the company parted ways. As this is the field that I am most knowledgable in will seek future employee with the same type of company....and this time hopefully with a BIGGER paycheck. *LOL*
In 1990 I was married (now going to divorce him *cheeky grin*), and in 1991 my son was born. Ah, he is the joy of my life. While not the most behaved kid that there is, I'll take him cause he is mine. *LOL with a BAS* He looks a lot like me *VBAS* and I suppose acts like me at times, but only the good stuff...all the other...gets that from his dad. *L*
I like to think of myself as an open, honest, caring, compassionate human being...but I am a women, so I can be a BITCH too! *ggls* I'm a writer of poetry (hint-hint check out the poetry page) and I also like to write novels and short stories (hint-hint check out the short story page). I have currently written one novel that just needs to have an ending, and am working on my second. I've never had anything published to date, but hoping one of these days I'll get this second novel done and submitted. While I may be bias here *L* I happen to think that it is a pretty good story so far. *BS* Hey, I've had my mother read it, and she says it's good, and she is an avid reader and very critical, so if your mother says that is good then it damn well is. *BAS*
My chat name gets me numerous responses. From the typical 'that is a very beautiful name', to 'reminds me of the Little Mermaid'. Well I didn't pick "Aerial" because it was beautiful, or because I don't have a fish tail or scales. *L* When a co-worker introduced me to ChatHouse and I started surfing the floors and rooms I wanted to have a new name. I've chatted before at other sites and wanted to just have a name that was a little different, to chat honestly about myself and to those that I would met. *S* Well, at this time in April 2000 I was in the beginning stages of my second novel and my heroines name is "Aerial". Not the normal spelling for the mermaid, font or Shakespeare charactor from the play "The Tempist" , but it suited my purposes for my novel and for a handle to use. Well, 8 months later the handle is still with me, my novel is still in the 8 chapter (I spend way to much time chatting *L*), and I get men wanting to chat with me. *ggls*....small update...it is now March 2001 and I've written 3 more chapters...so a little closer I have gotten to the middle of the story. *L*
I like to think that life has treated me fairly, but as with all things, I've had my bumps and bruises. From when I was doing the Hookie-Pookie on roller skates (way before roller blades *L*) and broke my left arm, to trying to ride my bike fast like my older brother and smashing into a tree. *LOL* First boyfriend crushes, to having sex for the first time and being disappointed that it wasn't all that! Ya know? *LMAO* Acquiring the wrong kinds of friends, ya know what mean, and being very thankful for a special man pulling me away and keeping me from winding up dead. I lost track of him way back in 1986, but I still think of him fondly today, and hope that life treated him well. *S* Going to school and feeling like a nerd, and hating the cheerleaders and oggling the jocks and knowing that I never stood a chance. *L* Fights with my brother and sister and know that my parents loved me. *BS*
I am very thankful that I grew up in a loving home. Now, don't get me wrong, I got my share of *spankings* but by no means was I or my siblings abused. Communication did not always seem like an open door policy on certain subjects, but looking back now that I am an adult I see this just from the times my parents were raised, to the years of my childhood and now the years that I am raising my own son. I do try to instill good morals in my son as my parents did for me, but it isn't always easy with all the social pressures that kids are subjected to now days. *nods* The key to any type of relationship...parents, children, spouse, on-line friends...is communication. So, as I go forward now in the year 2001 I've made this one thing that I will endeavor to do in all relationships that I have. *S*
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