Dear God, it's all right,
I am only hurtin'
The pain is very deep, God
That is for certain.

They tell that you care, God
That you provide relief
But not for me God
I've got no belief.

Where do I go from here, God
Back to the pain?
This hole is so empty, God
I caint feel no gain.

I wont ask for help, God
You just aren't there
I'm only a failure, God
Why should you care?

OUCH! That bolt hurt, God!
You just knocked me off my bunk
No, God, I've never heard
That you don't make junk.

Me listen to you God?
Say that again
You want me to stand up?
How would I begin?

I've laid here so long, God
In my muck and misery
I've wallowed for some time
In my safe self pity.

You've been there for ever, God
Let me hear that once more
You have available treasures?
Just for me in your store?

Are you just joshin' me God?
Like everyone else will
I am an easy target for them, God
I‘m sorta silent and still.

I am thick headed, too, God
Opinionated, obnoxious, obtuse
I can always come up
With another legitimate excuse.

You will hold me in your arms, God
For as long as it will take?
You will erase every pain, God?
That has made my heart break?

Your arms feel secure, God.
Please don't set me free.
I've waited for ever, God
For this kind of a Mom-mee.

Keep me safe forever, God.
I am feeling inner peace
Hold me tighter and firmer, God
Until all pains and pities cease.

You call this love, God?
You say I've done no wrong?
You don't condemn me, God?
Have I prayed too long?

God, are you ready for me?
I have heard my own prayer.
I can feel your love now.
God...for you, I'll go anywhere.

***in peace and love...rell

{This prayer was written while doing research
for my work at a treatment center for battered
women and the alcohol and drug addicted.}

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