Usually, I take several deep breaths through my nose, them very slowly exhale each breath through my mouth. These deep breaths seem to create a lot of airiness or lightness. Then somehow I gently "will" my mind to go out into astral space. Before I take the last deep breath I call my guide who appears over my right shoulder. He meets me at the townhouse gate and when I hear the click of the garden gate we lift upward in one of our transportive states.

We lifted rather instantly this evening. Often we have a few places to see and lessons to learn but tonight I felt a distinct sucking motion. I had a feeling of being sucked upward on something feeling like a very long slippery plastic sliding board. But it wasn't a sliding board, it was a rainbow. Much like a child would play with but of a size that would extend farther and longer and arc higher than one's eye could vision.

We began slowing down and as we reached the top of this rainbow, there was an indentation with rainbow colored feartherbeds, pillows, and cushions. Everything necessary for contemplative comfort. It was not a play pen...it was a thinking pen. We could see as far as our Mind's Eye could travel.

The prayer that Ruth opened with this evening was about "Seeking The Peace Of God." Jesus had already checked out what I wanted to know this evening...and I had told him that I wished to seek the peace of God.

Jesus often responded with a one word answer: "Sought."

I didn't quite understand this answer. Then, I asked what all it was that I needed to become responsible for in order to seek the peace of God?

"Naught."

I then opened my mind to receive from the Universe any messages I may need for seeking the peace of God.

Jesus again replied in thought, "Thought."

I wanted to know more, be more, dwell with more, and learn more. "Who will teach me?"

Jesus looked back over to me and grinned out of the side of his face, "Taught."

It is very hard for me to take in that I already knew these things. I seem to be either in a dream or in a fog; as I try to feign that I haven't the foggiest what Jesus means half the time. One time I got a message from him that was, "If you need to know...you do not need to ask." On some level I believe him, but since I may not want to be responsible for being like him, and for a long long time I've continued to think out of the egoic state which has been my illusive level. It seems that I want to remain loyal to ego, like dragging my feet...but I also want to seek the peace of God. So I do my best to stay with the messages that I get from Jesus. I then thought, "Jesus, why was I always so resistant most of my life? Wouldn't I have had more peacefulness had I not been so resistant? Why?"

"Fought."

I was wanting to resist his one word responses, but while in this questioning contemplative conversation, it appeared his answer were very conclusively correct.

"Jesus, where had I been all my life that I could not become more aware of what you could have meant to me and others?

"Caught."

"How was I caught?"

"With the illusive ego antics. You still are."

"Still?" ...me.

"Still."...him.

"Is there any thing, any thing at all that I need do whereby I will know that I have the peace of God?"

"Ought. Zero."

"This illusiveness of the ego, how was that a part of my thought system?"

"Bought."

"Does everybody buy into the ego's illusive dreams...how does that happen?"

"Wrought."

"I am very pleased that I have you for a guide, what was it like waiting for me to ask for your guidance?"

"I have trust, faith, and patience you know. You will never know the number of times you came so close to asking. I've always wanted you for my right hand and left hand woman. I chose you a long long time ago. You were still only an idea of God's." "Did you ever get discouraged with me like I do?"

"No. Everyone returns from the illusive dream. I have always been with you. When you were a small child, I was with you, when you were growing up, I was with you. You have always had the peace of God. I have always been with you."

I paused to reflect for a long time, maybe even napped a while. When I roused from this pure state of consciousness while in this still meditative thought there on the top of the rainbow...I grinned a knowing and accepting grin, "I know that now."

"Let's leave this rainbow and slide down it very slowly because at the end of it is that "Pot of Gold" which is the peace of God."

I returned to my body with my "golden pot" running over with my Peace of Mind that passes most understanding. ***in peace and love...rell

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