LOVE: Love is the first topic I will talk about. But where do I start? There are so many different ways to love. I mean, I believe there are so many different types of love, too many to name really. But for instance, I believe you can love a person for who they are, and what they believe in, but not be in love with them. And you can love a person for the way they make you feel, but then again, not be in love with them. Just like somebody loves ice cream. I think the word "love" is over used in our society today. Everybody takes it way too lightly these days. I think that love is something special and it's something that we should take seriously. What I don't understand is how at one time you can think you're meant for a certain person, and be the happiest with them...but when you eventually get over them, you realize that you can feel the happiest/exact same way with another person. And what I also don't understand is how guys can say they care so much about you one moment, but break your heart the next. Do guys and girls have totally different meanings to the word care? All my thoughts are coming out jumbled, and so prolly none of this amkes sense...but maybe you can figure it out.
SEX: Now, some of ya'll may think I should have talked about sex in the love category...but i believe it's a category in itself. First of all, I am waiting until I get married to have sex. I believe that it is a special action between two people who love each other and who have commited to each other to spend the rest of their lives together. Some believe that it is an action to satisfy a need..or to fill an addiction. I have had numerous oppurtunities to crush my thoughts, but I have stood firm and people actually respect me for that. And yes, I know some of you are thinking..."she's only 18, she'll give in before she's married.." and maybe I will, but i don't plan to. i plan to save myself for my husband. But, do I shun people who don't wait? Of course not. And do guys leave me because I won't have sex with them? I'm sure some of them do, positive two of them have. But do I care? Not exactly, yes I'm hurt, but I belive if they really care about me, they'll understand who i am and why i'm choosing to remain a virgin until marraige. Right now, I'm with a guy who's very understanding...and I thank him so much for that. What I don't understand is how people can go out and be with a countless number of people..and it not even matter to them. Do they even believe in love?
FRIENDSHIP: This topic is one I hold very dear. Friendship is something rare and wonderful. Not many people can say they have a true friend...that they know will be there the rest of their life. What exactly is a friend? Well, to me a friend is somebody who is always there. To help you get through the hard times, the easy times...the heart breaks, and the idiots. A friend is somebody who understands not only the outside you, but also the inside you...who you really are. A friend is somebody who allows you to feel comfortable in any situation, and is someone who you can truly trust. A friend is a person who is always honest with you, and even risks being with a certain guy for you. I believe that I have a true friend. she has been there for me countless number of times. She was there for my first love, and my frist heart break. She was there through the idiots that treated me like crap, and the wonderful jerks who made me feel like i was on top of the world. She was there when other people turned their back on me for one reason or another. And she always has stood up for me. we have been through fights..and even times of not talking, but we always were friends. and we always will be. yes, she has been dishonest in the past..but who hasn't? forgiving is another vital part of friendship. i've learned that...
FAMILY: There again, some people may think I should have added this topic under love. And maybe I should have. But family is a different type of love. It's a love that makes you feel safe, warm, comfortable, and just plain happy. Family is very important to me. I just now realized this, and I'm 18. I used to take my family for granted, but now I'm so very thankful for them. Not so many people are lucky enough to have two parents living in the same house...and even two siblings that care about them. I am so thankful. I know that I will always have a home to come back to. Not just a house, but a home. And yes, there is a difference. My parents were thinking of moving to Texas after I graduated highschool. That destroyed me. I kept thinking, where will I go? do i really have a place that I can call home? Then i realized that where ever my family is...that's where my home is. Even though the surroundings would be different, the love would be the same.