somethings are melting now

i've had this same best friend for about five or six years. He's very very dear to me. Very close to me. I always felt like i could tell him everything. Like you know how you'll have a boy best friend and a girl best friend? well, this is my boy best friend. I met him in my language Arts class my first day of Middle School. Sixth grade. he was probably the biggest dork in the class. glasses, funny hair cut, braces. but he became my best friend. Ashely...Ashely's his name, so on top of having braces, glasses, and crazy hair, he's also got a girl's name. Ashely used to be in love with me for about three years but i always saw him as a brother, just a good friend. All during middle school, we just kept getting closer. I remember in eighth grade he started going out with this girl and for the first time i got a twang of jealousy. i was always his girl. he was always there for me. always let me hug him and play with his hair and everything.
the summer before high school we all changed a little, but ashley and i were still best friends. we made some drastic changes. ashely became a boy hottie and i became one of the biggest freaks in school. our friendship suffered a little, but he was still my best friend, and i still loved him as much as i always did, in the same way i always did. During our sophomore year we had lunch together first semester and we ate together everyday and went out after school everyday, went to the mall, went to his house, just hung out most of the time. Talked everynight on the phone for an hour. i'd tell him my stories, he'd tell me his. His mom used to talk about how we'd probably someday end up married, we talked about that, she's probably right. I've hated every single one of his stupid girlfriends. They're all dumb. i just wanted to be with Ashely all the time.
Ashley and i don't see each other much anymore
somethings are melting now
i miss Ashley. he's very distant from me now. i can't talk to him, he doesn't let me hug him, he barely lets me touch him. i feel like i'm just standing here trying to find something of his to cling to, so i don't lose the little bit of him i have left. which really isn't much. i see him once a week if i'm lucky. sometimes i just want to cry cause i miss my ashley so much. best buds for almost six years and he's doin this to me now?
i was sitting in class with him today actually, we have this class together once a week. we just sit and talk, or i watch him sleep, cause he does that a lot. he doesn't care about anything anymore. at all. i think it's just a bad place in his life right now. but he still doesn't let me hug him. and i'm lucky if i can touch him. i told him today that i miss him. and i told him that he's mine, he's no one elses. and today for the first time i felt how much i actually love him. and how much i really care about him. i miss my ashley