I want the warm air from a lovers mouth to fly me into a ocean of tears. I want to swim in the remains of people's joys, fears, and sadness. I want to soak in their memories. I want air to keep me alive. I wish for others breath to keep me alive. I want to dance around in a small room full of colorfull lights. I want the lightsto carry me across the room. Faint music plays in the backround, while i sing along to a song i never heard before. I will know the words because it sounds fimilar. I know it all to well.It tells the story of a life I never lived. A life that i dreamt. A life that i watched from behind rose colored glass. I want to fall into a bedof feathers. Feathers from the pillows that catch bits of dreams from stangers. I want to stand in the rain and wash away all the dirt from words spoken to me from uncaring tongues. Words that I don't remember. I want the rain to make me pure. I wish I climbed trees when i was a child. I wish I ran arond in the forest and got leaves caught in my hair. I want my hair to blow in a cool breeze. I wish i could look up at the sky and be able to breath. I wish i didn't alwaya feel trapped. clouds move so free. the glide from town to town taking on shapes of cars and cats. Their free flowing shapes make me feel restless. I wish i could rest my feet. They hurt from walking through the streets. They walk, and i follow. Where they go I can't remeber. I can faintly remember though. I remember the sidewalk was hard and covered with gum.I wish could float in tears and know why they were shed. I want memories to cover me until they mesh into my own. Until i am unable to tell the difference between what was others and what was mine. Between a life I wish I had lived, and what I am living. Until I forget the harsh realities of my thoughts and dreams and just remember the memories i soaked into my body, my veins, my heart, my mind. 


--Chiara-anne