I lose my temper with my friends
They go, but some come back again
And it's those few that I find solace in
Am I an off-white angel with just a bit of sin?
But it's those friends who never come back
Who stay in shadows far away
It's those who make me sentimental
And sad the good times couldn't stay
Although they'll never be recaptured
I sometimes wish for yesterday
But no matter how I cry
It will always be that I
Am tainted
The storm blew in with vicious winds
The silent treatment did me in
And I knew then that I had lost a friend
Was she an off-white angel with just a bit of sin?
I wish we'd known in June two thousand
Just how much heartache was in store
That someone I had loved for six years
Would turn her back and care no more
It was November when we found out
What had gone on behind closed doors
And no matter if I die
It still would be that I
Am tainted
She lied, I couldn't trust her then
I felt betrayal deep within
But still she wanted me to let her right back in
Like she's some off-white angel with just a bit of sin
She never answered any questions
She hoped that they would slip my mind
But I kept pushing for some answers
To find the reason for the rhyme
I fought so hard to keep the friendship
But she just couldn't spare the time
Though I don't know how or why
It always seems that I
Get tainted
I lost my temper with a friend
She left, not to return again
I wonder who that girl finds solace in
Is she an off-white angel with just a bit of sin?
I know I'm better off without her
She changed too much to be the same
She looked like someone so familiar
But she would never say her name
She thought avoidance and denial
Would hide her from her share of blame
But no matter how it flies
It always comes that I
Am tainted
My temper flares time and again
It scares them off, but some come back again
And it's their smiles that I find solace in
Am I an off-white angel with just a bit of sin?
Are we all off-white angels with just a bit of sin?
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