Messages from angelina's friends at Fantassia's Palace. (Some of the messages below have been edited for content.) (Continued from previous page.)
Mon Aug 6 3:15:56 2001 Cinnaminn: *still in shock*......ummmmm....I just got done talking with angie's brother.....*shaking my head*....unfortunately the news is true....angelina fell into a coma on the 17 and passed away on the 22.....*sigh*.....the one good thing is that her brother said that she did not suffer.
Her brother said that if anyone would like to donate/contribute, he asked that you give to your local Humane society.....
Mon Aug 6 3:20:44 2001 Kathe: good idea...
thanks, Cinn*hugs*
Mon Aug 6 3:24:34 2001 Kathe: I might have to go offline soon...and not sure when I'll be able to get back online (probably not tonight)....so, if anyone wants to get a hold of me,
Cinn has my phone number
Mon Aug 6 3:25:04 2001 destinee°: smiling softly....guess i knew ang better than i thought...seeing her brother's suggestion for donations...~ life is crazy here...will anyone be able to set up the donations?~
Mon Aug 6 3:26:05 2001 paleface: thanks hon ~tight hugs~
Mon Aug 6 3:27:55 2001 ~sexyshell~: Thank you, Cheryl.
Mon Aug 6 3:42:00 2001 WHOS YOUR DADDY: Ticie I hope someday I will get to meet You I allways loved the way You slinked into a room and brightened Mine and E/everyones day with Your wit charm and caring I hope You have found peace angelina because now you are an angel
Shalom..
Mon Aug 6 3:46:40 2001 ~opal*essence~: *soft tears as i read more and shaking all over*
*taking a breath* thank you Kathe and Cinn for finding out the info *hugs you both*
i think we all should have a special time in the Celtic Cavern tonight for angie, she always came in there to light a candle when worrying about someone vt or rt, it was a sacred place to her *wiping my tears* i am going to be there in the Cavern if any like to join me, say around 9pm est and light a candle for her and remember the good happy times we had together while i have known her here at Fan's and gotten to talk to her on the phone and would like to share the memories we all have of her together, she'd like that so....
*leaving warm tight hugs for all*
Mon Aug 6 3:47:35 2001 ~opal*essence~: for angie
The Rose Still Grows Beyond The Wall From the writings of A.L. Frink
Near shady wall a rose once grew, Budded and blossomed in God's free light, Watered and fed by morning dew, Shedding it's sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall, Slowly rising to loftier height, It came to a crevice in the wall Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength With never a thought of fear or pride, It followed the light through the crevice's length And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view Were found the same as they were before, And it lost itself in beauties new, Breathing its fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve And make our courage faint and fall? Nay! Let us faith and hope and receive-- The rose still grows beyond the wall,
Scattering fragrance far and wide Just as it did in days of yore, Just as it did on the other side, Just as it will forevermore.
Mon Aug 6 3:46:54 2001 destinee° : smiling.....taking a sip of yoo hoo...eek...laughing softly wondering how angelina could drink this stuff over the years....the raising the bottle.....to angelina a friend that will be remembered by many for touching their lives....soft smile~
I scrolled back in the Herald....angelina posted in here on July 16th....apparently the day before she went into a coma...soft smile...one of the last things she said was...
gets harder and harder for me to be here.....I have to take care of my health.........I'm not well now.......
I be in when I can............... Hugs to all my friends here...
~she was thinking of all of us until the end...soft smile
Mon Aug 6 4:14:36 2001 ColT45: I have no pretty words to say. I miss her so very much. I am very proud to have known her and was able to call her friend and to be called friend by her. angie... I will see you again someday. for now farewell
Mon Aug 6 4:41:36 2001 Legacy~*: remembering angie and leaving these flowers...
lighting a candle.. leaving.. a tear slowly courses down my cheek
Mon Aug 6 4:43:11 2001 Legacy~*: thank you Cinn and Kathe for finding out all that you could and for the info on donations..*hugs* Ladies
Mon Aug 6 4:51:40 2001 ~kudles~: softly entering with tears in my eyes.. ticie, angelina.. warm tight squishy hugs... you are one of God's angels... i love you, angie..
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me (David M Romano)
When tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said "This is eternity, And all I've promised you." Today for life on earth is past, But here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day's the same way There's no longing for the past. But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true. Thought there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven And now at last you're free. So won't you take my hand And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.
Mon Aug 6 5:04:01 2001 Passer: FWIW:
If you don't have a local humane society, but want to donate a memorial of sorts, ticie was intimate with the Wisconsin Humane Society, and an adjunct (I don't remember the acronym or title, at the time,......sorry.....I'll try to review my notes later).......I'm sure any contribution would be gratefully acknowledged in her name.
Mon Aug 6 5:12:45 2001 Cinnaminn: You can make a donation to the Humane Society at this URL:
It gives information for how to make a donation either online or by telephone or snail mail.
Mon Aug 6 5:17:58 2001 Aregorn: gessssssss I am at a loss, I feel the lack ticie, hear in my heart, yoy gave me so much joy so much and i'm glad i gave you the same back dorever in our hearts always for i have a little part of you, which holds your memorie in me for all time.
I'm sad for i felt your loss befor now, love ya always ticie!! *sendoing my huggs*
Leaving huggs for all who are so sad, remember she sent on the wings of our love and thats a wonderfull gift the best of gifts..
Mon Aug 6 5:21:38 2001 Passer: ........*thumbs up* to Cinnaminn............I shouldn't have been specific..........all animals need ...........
.....anyway, I hope the point's taken............
Mon Aug 6 5:28:18 2001 Lance: *stunned.....almost speechless*
God, that is so so very sad! Who is going to call me Lunchalot now?
*hugs to all those that are weeping over her*
I will miss you ticie. I will miss your tenacity and quick witted humor, your effervescence and exhuberance. Your simple outlook on life, and people. The fire in your spirit, and the warmth in your heart.
Now you are in peace. Now, you can spin and twirl with eternal joy before your Maker.
Goodbye for now, tiny dancer. We'll see you again.....soon.
Mon Aug 6 5:31:10 2001 Tearlach: lights a candle and remembers
angie
One of the first I met here at Fan's fun-loving and sometimes silly Always a kind word always full of life always full of love a beautiful spirit You touch so many people you brightened so many lives It's never a good time to say good-bye it's never a good time to say so-long
In any event, neither word seems appropriate instead I'll say one single word one which you used often and one which says so much...
Shalom
whispers: We will meet again sweet dancer
Mon Aug 6 5:41:53 2001 MARQUIS DE SADE: So many memories...where to begin...I met ticie at another site...I was good friends with her...and Emerald Mistress...some crap was going down there and Emmy said...come to www.fantassia.com...its a great place...the other place was home...and I would come here once in a while...but I hung out there most of the time...I remember...hearing something that access to the Dungeon was by permission only and I had to ask Fantassia for permission to enter...so I came here...and asked...lol...Tina in her typical cute sarcastic way said...so go in if you want to...lol...and I have been here ever since...ticie started coming here after her and Kirl broke up...ticie and I became good friends...she was one of many of the wonderful people I have been blessed to meet on line...so many wonderful people...yes we are real...yes on the other side of the screen is a human being...with feelings...joy...sadness...all of them...we even feel pain when people are not always nice to us...I remember a very very long time ago...long before I had gone to the 3rd annual party...I was in the dungeon...and I got a PM from ticie..."If You want...I would be Your online submissive"...I was not ready to be in that kind of relationship...we talked about it and decided to remain friends instead...it was the best thing we ever could have done...we were good friends...I remember...being really down...damn near suicidal...and I was at work at The Solar Stop...and Internet Provider I was part owner of...it was ticie...in her over emphasized southern drawl...she called to cheer me up...and that she did...before the end of the call she had me rolling on the floor...she could do that...she could always make you laugh...I think she had a hard time doing that for herself..I think I helped her with that a few times...we spoke on the phone often at that time...she was always calling me...I think back about some of our conversations...she loved cats...and she would write to me...and send cards that always had kittens on the front...I wanted to meet her in Chicago for lunch...but I think...because of my sordid reputation...she was doing the smart thing and staying safe...too bad...I bet we would have laughed alot...
Many times over the years...I have read the book by Robert Heinlen called..."A Stranger in a Strange Land"...in this book...a human...that had been raised by martians...was "rescued"...by the second manned mission to Mars...he was brought back here to Earth...he had the ability to do many things we uninitiated earthlings could not do...he knew how to understand...or as he put it...to grok...the best I can put it is to totally absorb the essence of the individual...when the entity passed away...you ate the person to absorb them and feel their presence...I do know now...that forever more...I will always be grokking with ticie when I eat latkes...I did not know ticie well enough to understand the total of her essence...but I knew her well enough to know that she had heart...a great heart...filled with pain...pain of her own...and the pain of others...her and I were always kibbitzing...we all know that ticie couldn't keep herself out of trouble if her life depended on it...I knew...that if I came in the room...and she was here...I would be getting a mile long red telling me what an asshole...(What ever name fit at the time)...lol...was...and why...I think she knew she could rant and rave or joke around...and I would keep it to myself...she was always worried about me...worried about my health...my mind...my soul...as she did for all of us...she was very special...unique in all the best ways....and a couple ways that were a pain in the ass...but that was ticie...you liked her or you didn't...she will sure be missed around here...I will miss her southern drawl on the phone...her endless diatribes...(Opal...she was almost as long winded as you...you must type damn fast)...lol....I don't know where I am going with this...just sitting here crying and typing...it hurts to lose a friend...and even though I never had the good fortune to meet her physically...I knew her well...God this sucks...much heart ache...haven't felt this bad since my mother passed away...I will be there for the gathering this evening...she will be a part of me forever...
Mon Aug 6 6:07:35 2001 Fantassia: You take people for granted. You get busy in life and you think in the back of your mind that it's ok because those people will still be there when you have a free moment. It's not always that way, and those people that we take for granted disappear right before our eyes.
angelina was a troubled soul so desperatly wanting to be happy on the inside and not just on the outside. She needed us in her life, and now that she is gone, we that knew her will miss her greatly. The Palace will never be the same without her, but at least we all now know that she is at peace. Rest well angelina.
Mon Aug 6 6:08:58 2001 ~kudles~: ticie, angelina.. i saved this from a year ago.. i caught you talking about me.. and i smiled.. and i loved this... now i know.. you and thea are up in heaven, driving someone crazy.. grins... thea bombing around and hugging..
and angie.. triple spacing.. angelina... i will miss you sooo sooo much...
Sun Aug 27 10:26:27 2000 [ neutral.... ] angelina: oh, I think thea got booted...
well
anyways.....
I call kudles tootsiepop, cause I'd watched her for a bit... and it just came into my mind one day...
and then....she's sorta protective of herself...
I can relate to that....
thus the hard shell for lack of a better way to describe...
but in the center, is the reward... the soft sweetness..... just like that candie... and thus, that's why I call kudles tootsiepop...
and I love the poems she posts as well...
she's kewl beans...
Mon Aug 6 6:16:58 2001 Soul~of~Fire: shaking My head not wanting to believe I remember the first time I came here, I met angie and love of Geth. and we did
a scene. It was so funny and off the wall. I am just stunned that she has passed over to the other side. I did not know her well. But I enjoyed her posts so much. she had that special flair with the way she said things. smiles It is so very sad. And I am sure that she knows that she is missed.
Mon Aug 6 6:17:18 2001 le~ala{Damian}FG: ~at a complete loss for words as i read the news~
will miss you hun ~wiping away tears as i go~
Mon Aug 6 6:28:38 2001 cherish: ~in total shock from reading the news about angelina~
angie...you will be missed sweets *hugs*
~leaves a yellow rose in memory of angie...because it was her color~
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