Do I need it, or want it?
I need it to make me forget you.
I want it so the pain will stop.

I need to go blind,
So I won't see you.
But I want to see you.

I need to go deaf,
So I won't hear you.
But I want to listen to what you have to say.

I need to go numb,
so you can't hurt me anymore.
But I want the attention,
To feel someone loves me.
So I take it.

I want my heart to stop.
I want you to find me lying on the floor.
No need to hurt anymore.
I want them to blame you.
For a heartless killing.
My life is a mess too.

Kelina
copyright 1998

poem only to be used with written authorization fron author

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