MY ANGEL
I see your face everywhere I look
In my room, on my walls, even in my own eyes!
Sometimes I wonder if you ever think of me.
You never did know how I really feel,
And I often wonder, how will I deal?
Seeing your big blue eyes makes me see,
That you will never look back at me,
The same way you did when we first met.
That feeling; I'll never forget!
But the strange thing is,
To me, you are so unreal.
And yet, you have feelings, too,
Oh what will I do?
And even if you asked me
To be your girl,
I'd probably say, "No."
You must think I'm a fool,
But I don't expect you to understand
Why I say the things I say
And why I do the things I do.
Like saying no to you,
Because in my eyes, you aren't true.
You seem too unreal,
But I don't honestly expect my heart to heal.
No matter what I will love you,
Forever and always,
My angel. . .
I was once known as 'Happy Girl'.
And that was my name.
Nowadays, they call me by my real name.
Because underneath all my smiles are tears,
That I haven't cried in years.
And this 'Happy Girl'
Now is sad.
She realized that her boyfriend,
Never really loved her.
`Cause if he loved her,
He wouldn't have said goodbye.
So this 'Happy Girl' is hanging up her wings
Because she doesn't want to be anybody's angel,
Anymore.
After her angel turned away for the night,
And left out of her sight,
Her angel no longer was hers.
But she now knows,
That her angel, wasn't hers to begin with.
So now, 'Happy Girl' shows her real feelings.
But hides the ones the ones that matter.
Because in her eyes,
Nobody can ever understand how she feels,
Except her angel . . .
Memories are lost,
And pictures fade away.
And now you're gone,
Now you've left.
But what happened to you,
Being my angel?
'Happy Girl' is me, running away from real life.
Hiding in the shadows,
Of my past.
I built up a wall,
To hide my emotions.
But like anything that can be flexible,
My wall will come down.
And when my wall does come down,
Years from now,
I'll be crying tears
That I had saved for years.
And I can only hope that you will be there to help me through it all,
My angel.
-----Jennifer Troppe
99/03/03
That Love I Never Had
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