Somewhere between the procrastination and the homework and the incessant
forewords and the new friendships and the nasty commons food, and the
calls home complaining about roommates and boyfriends, and somewhere
between the phone calls to old friends, and the I miss you's and the I
love you's and the I can't wait to see you again's, and somewhere between
all of the changing and growing, and somewhere between the classes and the
skipping classes, and the studying for tests and the pretending to study
for tests, and the downright not studying for tests... ...I forgot.
I forgot what it was like to be in high school, I forgot what it meant to
cry, I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy, and
pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
I forgot that you can't just forget the past. I forgot that you can't
control falling in love and that you can't make yourself fall in love. I
learned that I can love. I learned that good food doesn't really seem
great until you can't have it anymore and I learned that even I would grow
to love Grilled cheese and tomato soup.
I noticed that I get along better with my mother now than I ever did
before, and that wasn't because she changed, but because I changed. I
learned that going to college means making choices and that making choices
can get you in trouble. I learned that its okay to mess up, its okay to
ask for help and that its okay to feel like crap.
I learned that sometimes the things that you want most, you just can't
have. I learned that the greatest thing about college isn't the parties or
the drinking, or the boys, its the chances--taking the chances and then
making the most of them.
I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which
me most need to talk about. I learned that once you get to college, things
don't automatically get better, it's what you make of them. I learned that
letters from friends are the most important thing and that sending cards
to your friends makes you feel better.
I learned that home isn't necessarily where I went to high school, but
wherever I wanted it to be. I learned that my mom seemed to get a lot
smarter once I started listening to her. I learned that I miss my family.
I learned that high school was good for me and that the challenges in high
school are nothing. Somewhere along the line, I learned if you look for
love you'll never find it. I learned that some people will do anything to
try and make you see their point. I learned that its really hard to
explain yourself. I learned that its easy to have views, its easy to have
friends, but that its hard to stick up for both of them if everyone else
disagrees, but I learned its worth it to stick up for both of them in the
long run.
I learned that I don't have to be the center of attention to have fun, and
I learned that being the center of attention isn't always fun. I learned
that laughter is the best medicine and that friends who make you laugh are
the best kind to have. I learned that there is a fine distinction between
friendship and love and that friendship is the more valuable of the two. I
learned that sometimes its not always possible to agree and that sometimes
its necessary to compromise.
I learned that everyone has a few problems in life, and that everyone
laughs about them later. I learned that kisses aren't contracts. I learned
that I am my own person. I found out that I am just starting to find out
about me. I learned that its never too late to change. I learned that
change is good sometimes. I learned that no matter what happens, they
still care about you. I learned that you should tell people how you feel
about them..
I learned that sometimes I need to be alone. I learned about life, I
learned about love, I learned about me, I learned. I learned that some of
the most valuable lessons in life are the ones you can't teach in a
classroom. I learned that no matter what I want to be, I will have to take
a class that I don't like in order to get there. I learned that there is
so much that I have to learn. I learned that college is different from
everything I thought it would be.
I learned that life isn't always about me. I learned that I should stick
up for myself. I learned that that is hard to do. I learned that people
should like me for me, and that I should like me for me.
I learned that naps are good, and that when I get angry, I shouldn't take
my frustrations out on someone else. I learned that things change and
people change and that its not always possible to stay in touch with
everyone.
I learned that some people are your friends for life, even when you doubt
it, through fights, and being apart for what seems like forever, they are
still there. I learned that though you may doubt them, you always know in
your heart that because you are friends everything will be okay. I learned
that friends make everything better and that I should thank all of my
friends for being there for me and helping me learn.
