Hi. Today have been a kind of boring day for me. Well, we started with french and we found out what's going to be on our test on friday. The weather, seasons, regular nouns, and the nouns is and have. Like I said. A boring day. Well, after that we had gymnastics. We played football, which I sucked at. I just missed the ball all the time.. After that we had social science. And the chapter we're working on this week is about commercial. How fun :) Well, the food in school was terrible, like always, but atleast they had sandwiches. Then we had a boring doublechoire class which went, well, atleast we sang good. But everybody talked all the time. I just wanted to stand up and scream at them to shut up. But, unfortunatly, I don't have the courage. After that we had math and I found out that I had gotten 9/20 points...Very good job...Not. And to complete the boring/dreadful schoolday the tram I rode home in stood perfectly still for 15 minutes. And..That was quite annoying. But now I'm home and I've eaten a bit and now i'm talking about my wonderful day..            // Linney <3

Mood:  down

Hi. I'm a bit down today. I going crazy with trying to put up with my dad always trying to be with me..I just want him to get out of my life. He have let me down so many times. He says that he loves me and that he cares, but, how can you love somone that you don't know anything about? If he says that he loves me, I don't know if i'll be able to tell him the same. I don't want to lie. And that stupid letter he sent me. I can't believe it. He says that he's sorry and he keeps explaining why he couldn't make it to my rock-konsert, but he doesn't understand that it's not just the fact that he chose his wife, instead of me, it's, everything. Everything that he has done wrong. He wrote in the letter that he can look back at a bad choice and see that he has done so many good choices. But I think he is sadly mistaking. It should be that when he looks back at one good choice he can see that he has done so many bad ones. Omg, I'm about to cry any moment now. I wish that he knew how I felt, how my heart is thorn apart, shattered in pieces. Every mistake he do, feels like if he had stabbed me in the back with a knife. Nobody understands how I feel. Not even my mom. She says that she understand, but she really don't. She can't understand how much it hurts when he choose to be with his wife instead of me. How much I cry, when he chose to stay home with his wife and have a fancy dinner instead of being with me, on the rock-konsert, that I was so excited about. How my nightmares end up with me writing a letter to my family saying that i'm sorry for taking my own life. I dream about killing myself because I can't deal with this sick, twisted, painful reality. I'm seriously loosing my faith of being able to laugh when he always lets me down. There is a void inside of me and it feels so empty. Right now I'm trying not to cry. But it's hard. It feels like it's bullets thats trying to push iyt's way out, instead of tears. Bu, my point is that, my dad will never be able to change, and no one will ever be able to understand what i'm going trough. I can hardly breath right now because I remember all the times when I cried because of my dad. Like all the times when he wasn't there for me. When I needed him the most. In the most obvious moments, the most precious moments that you have when you're in my age. It's evrything form the small things that he says to the big things that he does. I just don't wanna live with him in my life. I'd like to pretend that he doesn't exist, that I've never, ever heard his name be spoken. I just want his whole existence to be erased. I know that it sounds harsh, but after all that i've been trough, I think that I deserve to be happy. And when he's in my life, I can't be happy. //Linney

Mood:  don't ask

Hi Everyone.  I'm Linney. I am the owner of this new blog. I have been feeling a bit depressed today but i hope it wears off. I don't know what i should talk about here, but i'll figure it out eventually. I guess that i should tell you guys a bit about myself. I live in Sweden, Europe. My birthdate is 1994/03/27. I go to a musicschool in my hometown Gothenbourg. My interests are:

¤ Music (Writing music, Singing, Listening to music)        ¤ Create persons (drawing a face and then add a personality to it, a name and such)                              ¤ Names (I'm obsessed!)                                            ¤ Doodle                                                                    ¤ Being with my friends                                               ¤ Reading

I have more hobbies but i can't remember all of them.   My favourite artists/musicgroups are Paramore, The Veronicas, Simple Plan, FallOutBoy, Avril Lavigne and more. My favourite color is green. I don't know what i should write more... I guess that i can tell you about how my day have been. I woke up at 9:00 am. I was so tired. Because it's saturday. But i read my book and i got so hooked that i read until the pages ran out. Then the time was around 12:00 am. I got up and ate breakfast. Then I got dressed and started my computer. I was online on a couple of websites for some hours. When the clock was about 3:00 pm my sister came and wanted to put some makeup on my face. I don't usually have makeup on me so i wasn't such a good model but it turned out fine. Then it was her time to put some makeup on her face so i watched her. When she finally was finished we went out and bought some candy. We went to a candystore where there is a creepy man who works there. I know, you probably wonder why we went there, but the other stores were closed. When we got back home my mom had made dinner. After i ate i went to my room and created this blog. So here i am. I've ran out of things to say for tonight. So bye bye.

//Linney ♥