You know, living alone again after living and loving someone for a while can be hard. You come home to silence and there's nobody to say goodnight to when you go to bed. You're left alone with your thoughts and sometimes that can be a dangerous thing. It's especially hard when you have a daughter that you miss so so much and want to see her and kiss her little cheeks all the time. I have my good days and my bad days during all of this and I know it's gonna get worse before it gets better. The thing that makes it easier is when you have friends that will help pick you back up and brush you off. I have found out through all of this that I have a few close friends that I can count on. What I also found out is that something can fall in your lap without you even realizing it. There's one friend that I consider pretty special and have enjoyed hanging out with a lot. We've laughed, had some good times and enjoy each others company. We're not jumping into the fire or dating at the moment, we're just hanging out and seeing where the road takes us. It's a first for me because I usually jump in head first and worry about everything later. Slow and easy is how it's gotta be because I still miss her and my daughter and it's understood that I'm not really ready for anything serious right now if anything at all. I gotta learn to be me again and be on my own and put my little girl first before even considering bringing another person into my life that way. Thankfully, this person is patient, and is willing to wait, which is a surprise to me. So, with everything else that goes on in life, when you have good friends, things get a little bit easier to deal with. Plus it helps to have them tell you you're crazy for hopping on a bull one time. HAHA They all say they'll watch when I get flung off. This is for all you for standing by me and making everything seem like it's gonna be okay.