Mood:  lazy

so like class is really boring today.  I literally fell asleep in english class today because it was so boing.  The book Frankenstein will put anybody to sleep even the person most interested in "horror" stories. 

Anyhow the rest of my day is great.  Ive been thinking of my semester project and what im going to wirte next.  and its not coming easy.....

well here it is.

when i got back to the barraks the other day i was scared shitless.  i didn't know wether or not the guards had noticed me gone for so long.  I was looking for a way out and again didn't find one.  The one i thought I had found led to a dead end.  Obviously someone had already tried to get out that way and was then sealed off.  I dunno what to do.

Mama and Papa wouldn't know what to say to me.  Mama is in a better place though, a place without all this terror and hellish conditions.  I did see papa though the other day and he doesn't look good.  His body looks frail like all the others...like the others his knees are larger than his legs and same goes for his elbows.  Eyes sunken into his face making him apppear older than he actually is....

It makes me sad to see him that way and it makes me want to go kick something really hard.  But if I do that the guards might take me and hurt me.  Then make up some stupid excuse like I was trying to take their guns away....huh what am I supposed to do?

The guards are coming...I'll write later...