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6.03.05|12:04 pm Mogwai - Golden Porsche
hmm i'm back and it hasnt even been six months, wow. Summer has been in effect so far since May 7, even though I was in England for the first two weeks - I feel like that trip will come in handy when august rolls around. I've recently signed up for thefacebook.com and i'm kind of addicted, i'm not going to lie. oh, and my sister's mac is now back in my room so that's exciting, i can now watch tv/go online.. wahoo. todya it's raining and that sucks because i wanted to go bike riding from VF Park to philly. oh well, i'll do it sometime next week and since internship will be over maybe i can rally a friend or two. if not, oh well- i'm going anyways. i think i'm going out to lunch with kate stine in a little bit, she's one of the leaders at my youth group. i haven't really seen her in a while so it will be good to catch up. i feel bad about skipping out on fun in the son but ive gone for 4 years and while this would be my last one it just isn't looking good. not to mention i'm partially considering flying down to miami to visit my homies who will be down there, but i could only stay for like 2 or 3 days and i dont know that i could convince my parents to pay for the airfare. Town Hall is playing at the school tommorow night, i'm excited. Alright, i'm going to go hop in the shower.
4.3.05|6:12 pm George Stanford - Song for the Untrue
la la la its time for my once a year posting... may i just say how much i enjoy the thought that i only have 19 more days in the confinements of conestoga high school? booya. I'm siked. I would post in here more often if i felt like i had more interesting things to offer, but i don't. I didn't get into most of my colleges, but who cares, if they dont want me, then i dont want to go there anyway. I'm going down south later this week to figure out where exactly the next four years of my life will be spent, its either going to be virginia tech, university of tennesee, or rhodes. (for those of you unaware, rhodes is in memphis, TN). Unless, by some random act, i get accepted to university of michigan, in which case drastic measures might be taken and i could just go there without visiting. which would be really dumb of me but sometimes you gotta take a chance. I'm really nervous about these visits because... what if i don't like any of the schools? i just need to pay close attention to everything, and try to picture myself there. a friend of mine from villa is going to virginia tech.. and amy also was accepted and might go there, and dan is going to tennessee.. so unless i go to rhodes i'll know someone whos going to school with me. kelsey and kimber both got into rhodes but they aren't going. oh, and morgan's going to go to tennessee after taking a year off. I have a meeting with the honors program people, and i think with the business program director at tennessee. i have a feeling that i'm going to end up majoring in business administration and maybe hopefully even get an MBA, so i need to make sure the school i pick has a good business program. Rhodes' most popular major is "social sciences"... woo hoo.
okay enough babbling about college crap. i'll post back on here when i get back and when i make my decision.. should be an interesting one, because i'm highly indecisive.
9.21.04|6:34 pm Tim McGraw - Just to see you Smile
So school has begun, and all that I gotta say is - when does summer come back?? I'm already ready to be done. Usually I enter the schoolyear with some sort of motivation to do well but this year I'm just not feelin' it. The fact that I am unable to utilize any sort of privilege is really frustrating. C lunch, however, rocks the party that rocks the party. So, things could be worse. As far as academics are concerned, this year is going to be by far the hardest. I know I said this about junior year, but once again my stupidity dominates and I've gotten myself into taking AP courses and not dropping Italian.... why am i so dumb. Anyways enough about boring school work, Amy and I have purchased tickets to the Yellowcard/Starting Line concert on November 9th. I was a thinker and bought 5 tickets knowing that even if we don't recruit other cool kids to join us, we might still be able to pawn them off for a solid 40 bucks a pop. (that would equate to 15 dollar profit per ticket). Adam and I faced this dilemma when trying to get into the Something Corporate/Yellowcard concert last spring. That was one hell of an experience, I forget if I wrote about that on here. Anywho.. The Youth group is going off to the Fall Retreat this weekend, and it's a shame that I can't go, because of work related issues and ACTs. I wish that I could get away from my house for the weekend, but its not meant to be i guess. Everything around here has been extremely difficult, and I dont know how much longer its going to last before some major changes are made. (my mom and dad don't exactly talk to each other or any of us)... Dan can't go either because of work stuff. Damn you Commerce bank and UPS. Yes, you heard me correctly. Alright, i'm off to do a lab for physics, which means i dont have C lunch and that i don't have 7th free. screw that. catch you all later.
08.20.04|1:32 pm Finger 11 - Only once
Wow I never update this. Maybe thats cuz i feel like my life is boring, which i know it is, so there really isnt much of a point for updating this. Anyway.. Since our last entry not much has happened. School got out, Summer began.. summer is now ending. It all has gone by with the blink of an eye - per usual, and I read last night "we live 10 months for 2" and I thought that quote is very true. Summer is the only time where you can get away from things that have been bothering you for the entirety of the school year. Well, we only have 8 months of hell remaining - and I plan on this year to go by fast. I'm not going to miss high school for one second , and I'll be very happy just to get out of this hell hole.
More likely than not I'll be leaving this place for somewhere I didn't expect/plan/hope on going.. but at this point I could go anywhere and it'd be better than here. Work is a pain in my arse, and their lack of understanding that im seventeen years old and have other obligations than working at their stupid bank has really gotten to me.
School is just another pain. Between applying to colleges, student council, the spoke (which im not even goign to be getting credit for, but im still "obligated to help out"... such bullshit), and all the other classes that im never going to pass... and the fact that i dont have 1st 6th or 8th free.. really pours salt on the wound. I really could not have come up with a worse schedule for myself. I dont know what I thought I could handle last spring when signing up for these classes - but it looks like im stuck for the moment. I havent completed a single journal entry for Lit and i still have to read 2/3 books assigned. The two i have yet to read are each 450 pgs long, and the font is microscopic and each of them are extremely boring. And i hate to read. So its just one strike after another- that class will be the death of me, (that is, if Italian 4 or AP Calc dont kill me first.)
Wish me luck. I'm going to seriously need it.
04/11/04| 5:44 pm|Hoobastank- The Reason
Hmm I'm beggining to notice i update this shit when its a holiday. Happy easter. Not to mention it was exactly 5:41 when I began this entry, but i altered it to 44, well, beacause the number 4 is cool like that and I didn't feel like looking lazy. So, Spring break has come and gone, (it's our last day today) and i gotta say im pretty pleased with how mellow it was. I got lots of thinking done, and put some good hours into work. Oh, for those of you just joining us I work at Commerce now. (Bank Teller). I decided that going away is overrated, and I'm actually glad my family didn't attempt any stupid vacations that would of only led to a bunch of fighting. Summer is nearing, we only have a one quarter left for school. Don't let that decieve you though, because thats still like 2 months of school. Not to mention have to kick some ass with my grades, because 3rd quarter killed me. I had about a 93 average until 2 weeks before break. then all of my grades went to absolute shit. So i think i'm sitting at like an 87 average, which used to be good, but isn't lookin so hot now adays. College is coming faster than i thought and i need to get into one. Alright, im going to go now. i'll be back eventually.
02/15/04| 5:41 pm|Something Corporate - Space
It's valentine's day weekend, and it actually has been crazy so far. Last night i saw Something Corporate at the TLA with Lauren, and it was amazing. My friend Laura from Villa Maria invited me, and it couldn't of been better. They are by far my favorite band-- my only problem was that they didnt play Konstantine- the best song in the entire world. I got to talk to the lead singer Andrew for a few minutes after the show, before they went out to sign autographs. Lauren and I scolded him for not playing Konstantine, and he apologized. So I forgive them. I am going to try and go out and see them April 15 with Yellowcard, at millersville university. I also got all of their autographs on my cell phone (it was the only thing i had that they could sign) So it was a great Valentine's day. Yesterday afternoon was so wierd though. Around 3 in the afternoon, i got up from laying down and watching TV. Usually when you get up really fast you get dizzy, it's really common for most people- especially me. This time though, I was walking over to the computer and my mom was on it. I went to sit on the couch cuz i could feel myself getting dizzy... but before i made it to the couch, i blacked out. I couldnt see anything, and i collapsed- and i fell down and hit my head on the wall. Punched a hole in it. My mom was screaming frantically and dropped the phone. I got up and thought i was dead, or just had a siezure.. or something. I had no idea what happened. It was probably one of the scariest things thats ever happened to me, since i had no idea what was happening. I have low blood pressure, and i also hadnt eaten anything for a good 20 hrs, or drinken anything. So basically i had low blood pressure and low blood volume. I'm not allowed to drive until i see a doctor though. It kinda sucks but whatever. Alright-- well i thought i'd let you all know how crazy this weekend has been. peace out.
01/27/04| 10:14 am |The Starting Line- Piano Song
Once again, its been a while. Well- two snow days in a row... and midterms were supposed to be this week. So much for that. We're supposed to get a lot more snow tonight... woo. The only good that can come out of this is the possibility of midterms being cancelled. I have extreme cabin fever. Lack of money + snow + shitty parents + no school = no socializing. I'm going insane-- yesterday a bunch of us went to Kim's house for an Italian study thing. It was alright, considering the people I hung with weren't the people I usually hang with, it was still a great time. I need to get a job, really badly. For those of you just joining us my dad is now currently unemployed, and my mom just quit her job at hartstrings 3 weeks ago. My mom just started her new job yesterday with a company called "Certainteed", which apparently is very professional-- so I guess thats good. My grandad had a stroke or something close to one last weekend, so my moms been on the phone with all of her sisters forever. My sister's been back at school for a week now, and It's only been hectic still because now the spotlight is back on me. It was ok when she lied to them and said she was sleeping at a friends but really was going to a frat party in philly- but its not ok for me to go out with friends for an hour the night before SATs. I also can't drive if its "supposed" to snow in the next hour if all I want to do is drop some forms off at church. Speaking of church... the winter retreat is approaching quickly. Considering I haven't been to youth group for the past 3 months, and I'm not on good terms with some of the people there, and the fact that everyone hangs out with everyone from it like every waking hour, makes me feel like going would be almost pointless. It really just comes to who has a right to go and who doesn't. And I don't. Plain and simple. Even if i do go, the weekend will be consumed with people vying for my attention cuz they "miss me so much". Why should it take some stupid retreat to get back in touch with someone? Also, everyone will want to take credit for my return. It's distgusting that that's how it works. Well, im not going to ramble anymore because I know nobody reads this. It's just a good place for me to ramble and justify my thoughts.
12/10/03| 9:36 pm |None
Well I lied.... oh well you probably could of guessed I wouldn't be back by the time I had promised. Oh well. I am so sick of school right now, I've procrastinated so much. Survivor is on Saturday, and I have 13 people definately coming I think. I still need 3 more. This is too much for me to handle when its less than 3 days away. Hopefully it won't be muddy from all this rain and snow melting. If it is, oh well. I'm pretty much set with the challenges, but I don't feel like it. I'm sure I'll remember a whole bunch of shit like saturday morning and it'll suck bigtime. Well, that's basically what's been on my mind, is this stupid game. I have 3 tests tommorow and I am yet to begin studying. Go me.
11/24/03| 2:17 pm |Linkin Park- Numb
Why hello there. It's been quite a while... i think the longest ever. I really need to keep updating this. And i need to think of cool things to do with the site. i'm not a big HTML wiz, so it might be difficult. Anyway, 1st Marking Period is over- thank god. And my average is an 89. Woo hoo. I'll just have to do better next time i guess. School is such a pain in the ass. Christmas is coming shortly, and I have no idea what to ask for. My parents are making me decide what i want now, because they want to avoid all the rush. The only substantial gift i can think of is an IPOD. But I don't even know if i want that. Every year i do this, i dont know what i want. Then after christmas 10 things pop into my head that i wish i had asked for. It sucks. This weekend has been alot of fun, but sort of a headache too. I applied to Charlie Brown's Steakhouse this week. Hopefully they will hire me. Who knows. Well, i have to get to some homework, I will be back here in less than a week. I'm sure Kate will be keeping track.
10/13/03| 3:07 pm |Rage Against the Machine- Killing In the Name of
I'm back again, and there's really not much to say. I'm doing alright... schools still a pain, but im growing used to everything so its not such a big deal anymore. US history is definately my biggest obstacle this year, along with Chem. Amy and i laughed today during free pronouncing Chem, like the way it's spelled. It was fun. Made me laugh, which is something i dont do enough of during school. I'm gona go on some pretty sweet haunted houses this weekend i think. Eastern State Pennitentary, 13th floor (if it exists..) and Bates Motel! I'm ready to get scared. Halloween is fun, so lets take advantage of it. November is gona be a very busy month too. A BarMitzva, 2 Weddings... woo hoo. Ive never even been to one wedding, so that will be interesting. And Barmitzvas.. i've only been to one of those. So yeah. I'll check back a little later... i got work tonight from 5-1030. Woo hoo. Peace out.
10/08/03| 10:44 pm |Till I Collapse- Eminem
I cannot explain how much I miss summer, and being carefee. School is nothing but one enormous headache, and when they said Junior year sucked- they meant it. I don't have any of my little 'fallback' classes that I've always arranged for myself (usually it was english that was my accelerated, now its my AP)... and that is taking a serious toll on my workload at home. Italian is kicking up because its 3/4, so the 4th year braniacs know most of the stuff we're doing, so Russo is moving fast. The class is in mostly Italian, and for dumbasses like myself, that is not good news. Math is a cakewalk during class, but Bonnager always manages to find some way to screw me up during tests and quizzes. I don't fail them or anything, but they certainly aren't A's. Science and US are my two least favorite subjects, because each of them grade me particularly harshly and I don't know how to stop them because everything we are graded on is SUBJECTIVE. The word subjective is going to be the death of me this year, because it allows both of these teachers to ruin me. I fear both of them during class because I desprately want them to not hate me the way they seem to when grading my quizzes/tests. I had tests in each class today, and i studied my ass off in both. I'll guess now and say i got B minuses in both, which isnt horrible- but its where my aim is. I want A's. Anything short is a failure. (On a report card) So... I have to step it up, or i'll never achieve my goals. After touring Dartmouth, my drive to succeed is higer than it ever has been at this stage of the schoolyear. It's nice to have the willpower, but is the intelligence actually there? I'm starting to think it isn't.
10/02/03| 7:41 pm |Nothing
It's been a while since Ive updated. I think its cuz i dont even wanna talk about how I feel anymore, because it only makes me mad. Kate, I think you're the only one who cares enough to read this crap. If I'm wrong on that one, let me know. Cuz im pretty sure nobody reads this. Homecoming is this saturday. I'm not going, and im not sure if i'll regret it or not. Everyone is being so gay about it and is like mad at me for choosing not to go. I'm sorry but i dont want to waste my time on stupid shit like that. I know I won't have fun there. It's a lame exscuse to get dressed up, waste money on dinner, and just another source of drama that i dont want to be a part of. School blows. I don't think any of my teachers like me. I dont think they hate me necessarily, but there's no desire on their part to like be nice to me. It's frustrating, because im working really hard in everything and I feel like im doing shitty, and this is the one year that actually counts. I'm touring Dartmouth on sunday... leaving at 8AM or something... woo hoo.. i love riding in long car trips with a hangover. (connecticut was the worst.. i cant imagine this one being any better.) I just dont know about certain things anymore. I'm trying so hard to be involved in like everything. Best Buddies, Student Council, Peer Helpers, The Spoke, Fall Crew, Spring Crew (possibly) Church of the Savior, Working at 5 below, tutoring for my brother and this other kid matt, Paoli Pres., Core Cast, Missions trips-- i cant do all of this stuff. It's physically too much for me. I don't have faith in myself to last through the year doing all of it. But other people can, so i guess im not good enough. Who the hell am i kidding though? i knew this from the very beggining.
9/15/03| 7:40 pm |Perfect- Simple Plan
School has begun. It's junior year, or crunch time... whatever you want to call it. I think I'm my biggest enemy when it comes to school though. Amy is in a bunch of my classes, and I think I like all of my teachers so far, so im kind of happy in that regard. Tonight was insane. Mark called me up around 3:10 and said that Upper Merion needed help moving like boats to higher racks and stuff cuz when hurricane floyd happened, their boathouse was ruined and all the boats were killed. So I drove out there in the rain and we went to the boathouse. It was me, Mark, Jesse(his brother), Sarah, and Jackie. We worked and moved boats and de-rigged for about an hour and the coaches are getting calls saying "get out of there now" so we rushed out. We're all in the car trying to leave and the bridge thing flooded. No cars were allowed out.. So for the next hour or so we are standing around in the rain. They told us no cars would be allowed out probably for the next day or so, and they could even get destroyed. So we took Mark's system out that is worth more than his car, and said our goodbyes. Then we got taken to an ambulance after crossing some like rock thing and got taken to marks house, from where i drove home. It was a crazy afternoon but alot of fun! haha. Now its time for some homework.... peace out
9/8/03| 11:48 am |Bi-Polar Bear - Stone Temple Pilots
Well, it's been a while... We go back to school in 2 days. It's distgusting. This is going to be the hardest year I've ever had, or so I think. I really hope I'm wrong, but I dont know. I have so much stuff im going to be involved with. I'll have fall crew with Upper Merion (practices have been going on since the 27th... 3 days a week.) I'll be doing indoor soccer hopefully if i can find a team, Spring crew (i really hope not but deep down I know i'll be stuck in it), Student council.... This thing at Church of the Savior called Core Cast (an acting group).. I'm glad I wasnt able to make it into peer mediation cuz i could never do all of it. I am going to be in 2 or 3 school clubs though. It's going to be alot of work, especially without my one Accelerated class i can just relax in. That class was english. Now im in AP english. I'm such an idiot. I tried to drop to Honors and my mom said that she'd "really like to see me take at least one AP. So... whatever. If I turn antisocial, it's her fault. I just want this year to be over with, and it hasn't even begun. Last night we went to valley forge elementary, and Em and Amy got some professional driving lessons. :) It was alot of fun, and I'm really glad we hung out. Why does summer have to end. I want to go to college.
8.28.03| 1:46 am | Heaven - Live
I got my license today! Well, um, yesterday since right now its technically the 28th. But anyway I got no sleep last night, felt like shit taking the test, and was certain I had failed. somehow I passed, so I now have my license. It's a great feeling, only now my parents have gone psychopathic. But we are working on that one. Life's definately going to be different now though. Tonight we went to Barry's small group thing, which is always fun, I like getting to talk with that group of people, and then we went to the last youth group, swimming and eating at the West home. (the biggest mansion I've ever seen.) Noelle and Mark came, so that was fun. We left around 9 and chilled at Blairs. We all had a pretty good time I think. Hopefully I will get a job at outback soon and start making some money for gas, and social life. Cuz i have no money at all. Oh well. I just thought i would update this about the license. Oh, and Connecticut was fun. A little boring during the day, but seeing Alyssa Annie and Erin was awesome. I'm so proud of Erin and everything she's accomplished and Annie with College, and Alyssa with her AP classes. They're all doing so well it was awesome to see that. Oh yeah, and tommorow my house is gona be a hotel for mourning people cuz my aunts father in law just died and he lived around here, so people who dont live here are staying at my house for the funeral and stuff. Oh what fun. Get me outta this house for tommorow night. Peace out.
8.19.03| 7:20 pm | Glycerine- Bush
I thought I added another entry in here, but it got deleted. I swear I did. Anyway... I won Big Brother... as you'd notice if you went to that part of my webpage. Collin and Joe are over, we are just sitting around and bored. 8 more days until I am free to leave my house whenever i want. kinda. I just hope i actually pass on the first try, that would be kind of embarassing if i didnt. Anyway... summer is kind of drawing to a close and as much as i thought that i wasnt ready to go back, im starting to realize more and more that i am sort of ready. i just want to get junior year over with so i can put it behind me and start thinking about college and getting out of this area during the school year. Although, that does mean all that college crap which is bound to be nothing but headaches stress and ALOT of rejection. oh well, enough school talk. I'll write back soon.. I leave on Saturday for Connecticut, im excited to see alyssa i just dont want to go with my entire family. My sister leaves for tampa on thursday. It'll be nice to have the extra room back, but at the same time it's sad to see her go. Less screaming/yelling/fighting though. Although the spotlight is back on me when she is gone... which SUCKS. I'll deal with it later. peace.
8.15.03| 12:08 am | Right Thurr- Chingy
Big Brother. Tommorow. Or, today.. since technically its friday. I have no idea of what to expect. I know that things are gona get dicey from the beggining, but hopefully not against me. No garuntees though. This is gonna be hard, because this game has so many detailed rules that make it hard for someone to win easily. Someone out of the blue is gona win this thing. I will make a new page after tommorow listing each challenge and what we had to do, who won them... who was nominated... all that stuff.. along with the veto. And i'll run through what everyone had to say when they voted, and who they voted off. I'll also post what was going through my mind at the time of everything. It hopefully will be a funny site to read. Alright- I am goin to bed so i can get tommorow over with. Peace.
8.10.03| 11:23 pm | Undignified- Matt Redman
Alright- work crew was NOT what i expected. That doesn't mean the week sucked, but at some times it did. Basically I felt like i was the outcast, and had nobody on my side, ever. I fought with people im not really even friends with... and the only person i was friends with going into the week ended up turning on my by the 3rd day. But i did meet a few awesome people, making the week worth all the crap that I dealt with. It felt worse than school as far as cliques go. Which to me is rediculous, because we were all there to serve and to pay back what we had enjoyed years past, and help make the retreat work and fun for all of the campers. Nobody seemed to care though. Some of my campers were absolutely hilarious. Tiring, but worth it. Mike, Brandon, John, Jeff, Petey, Katie- Medford rocks and I'm glad i met all of you. (even brandon.) I just hope they keep coming back and know how awesome it is that they come on retreats like this. Alright, I'm gonna go. Peace.
8.02.03| 11:34 pm |Dave Matthews Band - Crush
Tommorow I leave for The Great Escape, a retreat I have attended 4 years past, and now get to go as a member of the Work Crew staff. This year is going to be completely different because instead of having fun and forgetting everything at home, I will be working my butt off. But it should still be an awesome experience. And, something to take my mind off of Big Brother. I think that Jeff is going to have one. 10 people, same game as the show. I am so excited, because I haven't participated in a reality show thing since Tim's. I've held all of them since then, and as a result could never play. This is going to be awesome. I'm nervous though because a lot of money is at stake. 200 bucks! I don't need to win it to be happy though. As long as I am not kicked off first or second, I'll be fine. Almost everyone that is playing I believe is going to expect some sort of alliance with me, which is bad because I am going to have to vote someone out. Let's just hope that it won't be me that is nominated first. Alright, enough about the game. I've been talking about it so much lately. I'll be back on satuday.. Big Brother is the 15th. I'll dedicate a new section of the website towards the game, all the players, and my strategy. After it's over, I'll post the entire events of the game. I think it will turn out to be a funny website. I might even add what some of the quotes were when people voted other people off. Check ya later.
7.27.03| 2:08 am |Starting Line - Best of Me
Today's my brother's birthday. Happy birthday, Thomas. He's now 14. He's pretty old for his grade. (He is going into 8th.) So, in January of his Sophmore year, he'll be driving. That's crazy. I feel young for my grade. Actually, I am the youngest for my grade among myself, my sister, and brother. But I perform the best out of all of us. Interesting. Today I got him Wario Land, a video game that originated for the Game Boy. It's a fun game. I've been playing it for the past few hours. I decided to come on here before going to bed and update, because a certain someone.. coughKatecough... told me I had not in a while. Oh yeah, I've been watching Disney movies lately. Aladin with Kate, and Return of Jafar with Jess today. "Gotta steal to eat, gotta eat to live.. otherwise we'd get along!" I love that line. Disney movies are actually quite humorous and always put me in good moods. I'll have to keep this in mind next time I get pissed off for no reason. Alright, I better get going. The bed awaits. Off to dreamworld I go.
7.21.03| 4:25 pm | Aerosmith - Dream On
Things are getting tricky. I feel like I am losing friends by gaining new ones. I don't like the way it feels. Ally stopped by today. It was nice to get a chance to see her for a little. "I always have good food" she says. This afternoon is interesting because its been so boring that I've had a chance to evaluate things. I'm trying to figure out what It takes to hold a friendship. I don't think I've been making a good friend out of myself to everyone lately, and it sucks to feel like that. If I could drive, I could make a much stronger effort. I guess not. Matt said he'd call me back, and that was around 230. I must of done something to annoy him. Mood swings suck. I like the other side of this spectrum alot more... I just don't know how to get back to that side. I think tonight I might just stay home and hang with my parents. Oh wait, I'm not on speaking terms with my dad. I almost forgot. I guess I'll just chill in my room.
7.16.03| 11:26 pm |The Ataris- Boys of Summer
So, summer is flyin by, and I can't seem to grab a hold of it to slow it down. Everything has been so awesome lately. I feel like I've been overdosing on antidepressants or somethign to feel this way. Certain people are just incredible. Caitlin, I'm so happy we are finally talking like normal friends again. I feel like something that's been missing for some time now is finally back in place. I couldn't be happier with the way things are right now. I don't want things to change. I want time to freeze. With the exception of the alarm clock going off at 7 AM and then watching 4 hours of pointless videos, life is good. If the school year was like this, I could deal. Collin, even through your annoying little schemes, you are certainly someone I am glad I have met. I feel like I can't get you out of my house, but at the same time you are really funny to have around, so it doesnt bother me. Alright, I am done.
7.13.03| 11:26 pm |Time for Health
Well... work camp was amazing. I feel stupid for saying I didn't want to go. Jersey and I became friends. Yeah, I was confused. I made alot of really awesome friends. My team was Pete, Colin, Kim, Pam, and Kate. I couldn't of asked for more amazing people. Each one of them made my day, everyday we were there. We had the best homeowners ever. Becky and John (the parents), and then Amber, Buddy, Amanda, and of course, Jessie. Jessie was the cutest 6 year old I've ever met. We had burping contests, candy cane fights, and played with her kitten. It was just an amazing week. I'm so glad I went. Now I have a lovely week with Health II. If I get Mariani, I will shoot myself. No joke. Timmy and Marshy are taking it too. We all better be in the same class. Well, thats enough for now.
7.06.03| 11:31 am |Off to Work Camp
I am just about finished packing for the week. My church and I are going on this thing called 'good works' and we are going to repair houses for people who cannot afford to have it done themselves. Last year we did Habitat For Humanity, and built a house from scratch. It was fun, but I must say spending a week out doing work when you are not being paid. Oh, and this kid "jersey" is going. He hates me. He'll be harassing me all week. I'm so excited. Not. He doesnt even go to PPC, but he comes on this thing. We are being put into teams of 6 or 7 for the week. These are about the only people you will all day everyday, except when we get back to the church in coatsville. I am assured a spot in a group besides his, so that's good. I still dont want to have to share any space with him though. For anyone at home thats reading this, text me, or call my cell. I might be able to answer it, but leave me a nice message please. I'd appreciate it. Well, I better finish up the packing.
7.03.03| 2:03 am |Can't Sleep
I'm at Matt's house right now. Everyone is upstairs asleep. I was about to go to bed, and I changed into my pajamas. Then it hit me. They dumped itching powder in them. I quickly took them off and ran to the bathroom. Great. That kind of stuff is only funny on retreats, where you are supposed to stay up all night every night. I was tired. I wanted sleep. Now I can't stop thinking about things. I was online and 100 people IM Matt's s/n very excitedly. Half of them are people that I instant message all the time and they always act bored and not wanting to talk to me. I really am beggining to think that I come off as a very mean person. It's kind of upsetting to realize, how people actually view you. I think I only have myself to blame though. I just wish things were different. So many things. The feeling of having no control over the situation makes me so angry. I need an escape. Somewhere to go to get away from all of this- I guess this is the best thing I can find. Just typing out exactly what I want to say.
7.02.03| 6:12 pm |I hate this house
This house sucks. My mom is on a cleaning frenzy as usual since she has nothing better to consumer her life with. I am sitting here minding my buisness and she attacks me with demands of things I've already done but didn't do good enough. "Make your bed" she says. The bed is made. "There are too many wrinkles in it". "Clean up your bag" "are you taking shots of coke?" she asks. There's a shot glass Matt got me from his cruise sitting next to me, that I got when I walked to his house because my mother is too lazy to drive me. I asked if she'd drive me to KOP tonight, because my dad did a hell of a lot of driving last night. How dare I ask. After screaming at me for all of my "shots" of coke and my bed not being made enough, she says how she's so glad I'm not relying on her for a ride tonight. Not like she'd get up off of her butt to do me a favor anyway. She feels that being a cleaning freak is her service to me, when I could care less if the carpets are vacumed 10 times a day. I like it when shes at work. I just wish I could drive.
7.02.03| 10:36 pm | What a night
Oaks is not a fun place to be if you have no transportation home. Unfortunately we learned this the hard way. (Amy, Julie, Emily, Dan And I) There is no bus stop going to KOP, only to pottstown. That wasn't very useful. Well, I guess the bright side is that we won in Laser tag (the guys.) I was a lieutenant private... whatever that means. I got like 1350 pts. Woo hoo. We'll have to go back when I have that thing called a license. Thank you to Mr. Chaya and Mrs. Boettcher for saving us.
7.02.03| 5:46 pm | Amy is God
Today Julie and Amy hung out with me by the pool.. it was a good time. After slamming them with water baloons and throwing julie in, we headed inside. Amy then fixed the website up and LOOK! its all professional lookin. Jollie and i just danced in the background while Amy slaved away. The biggest problem was getting the table to scroll, and after many attempts, she got it. Thanks kalangyy!
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