"How'd she take it?" Xander asked Willow when she came back into the dinning room.
"Not very well." Willow sat down in front of the computer again. "There has to be some sort of spell or something that can help him."
"There isn't." Giles said taking off his glasses and setting them on the table and pinching the bridge of his nose.
Everyone in the room looked at Giles with the same "What do you mean?" expression. He finally looked up and said, "When I was in training to be a watcher when I was young, we learned about certain things. This was one of them. We had to learn about it, because if the slayer were shot with it, it would run through her body and kill her in a matter of hours. It's very deadly, and there is no curse, no spell, no nothing."
"Did you learn anything else about it?" Willow asked.
"No. That was the lesson. The lesson didn't go any deeper then that."
"Buffy's not going to believe that. She going to do everything she can to keep him alive." Willow paused a moment to think. "Well, part of the living dead anyway."
"If a vampire has a soul, does that mean they're still dead?" Dawn asked.
"Yes. Spike is still dead." Xander answered Dawn.
"She'll probably search the world over for Drusilla." Xander said looking at Willow.
A thought occurred to Willow, "What if Drusilla wasn't Spike's first love though? What if there was someone before him?"
"Like who?" Xander sounded socked and amused that Willow would suggest something like that.
"Like someone when he was still human?" Giles piped in.
"Yes, exactly." Willow said, "What if he had a first true love when he was still human."
"Then there wouldn't be any way to save him. She would have died over a hundred years ago." Dawn stated.
"We need to find something. For Buffy." Willow said turning to Giles.
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"Something's wrong." Spike said watching Buffy move across her bedroom pretending to be busy.
"Something's wrong? What do you mean?"
"I mean, that since you've come back in here you've been acting different."
"Acting different? How?" Buffy picked up a stuffed bear on the floor by the window and turned to look at Spike.
"Like keeping your self busy by walking back and forth through out the room. Hugging a bear from your long forgotten childhood." Spike turned from his back to his side to face Buffy.
"Keeping myself busy?" Buffy walked over to the side of the bed.
"Are you going to keep answering me with questions like that?"
"Answer you with questions? What do you mean?" Spike knew she was just teasing him now.
"Buffy, what the matter?" Buffy heard the seriousness in Spike's voice and sat on the bed beside him with a sigh. A sad smile came across her face.
"You're sick Spike."
"Wait a minute. I didn't say anything…" Spike's voice faded when he heard the woman beside him laughing quietly.
"No, Spike," Buffy ran her fingers through his hair, "You're sick. Really sick. The arrow that Kennedy shot you with, it's cursed."
"She shot me with a cursed arrow? What is it called." Buffy bit her bottom lip. She didn't want to tell him the name because she knew that some how he would know what it was.
"Don't worry about it right now. Here," Buffy placed the bear beside Spike on the bed. "He always made me feel better when I was sick. Of course I was 6 at the time… but, maybe he has some magical healing powers that I don't know about."
Spike grinned amused at Buffy and hugged the bear to his chest. "Thanks."
"Sleep now. I'll be back later to check on you." Buffy ran her fingers through Spike's hair as he closed his eyes. She made sure that he was asleep before she got up to leave the room.
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"Giles?" Buffy said as she walked into the dinning room. "Is there any chance at all that he could get better?"
Giles looked up at Buffy with sad expression. "No, Buffy. I don't think that there is a chance. But we'll keep looking."
"Thank you." Buffy said before turning to head down into the basement.
"Buffy, where are you going?" Xander asked.
"I going to look to see if Spike has anything that might be of help to us."
Buffy didn't know why she wanted to look through Spike's stuff, but something in the back of her mind told her that he had something that would help save him. She had to find something that could in some way help.
Buffy spent two hours looking through Spike's stuff. She had no idea that he had so much stuff. Everything he had fix into three boxes, so she didn't think that it would take that long. It turned out that Spike had allot of stuff. He had over 80 CD's, 4 of the same black shirt, 8 of the same black jeans, and a bunch of other little nick knacks. Buffy felt the need to go through everything. She had to open every CD case and look inside just in case there was something in there. It had been two hours and Buffy had gone through everything of Spike. She gave a frustrated sigh and got up to leave. Before Buffy reached the stairs something caught her eye. Spike's jean jacket was lying on the floor half under the cot. Buffy pulled out the jacket and looked through the pockets. In the inside breast pocket Buffy found a locket. She opened it and found an older woman, and a younger woman that looked to be about 19 or 20 inside. The picture was obviously old. It was a black and white photo, but it was turning yellow with age. Buffy put the locket in her pocket, placed Spike's jacket on the cot and went back upstairs.
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When Buffy arrived back in the dinning room every one were sitting at the table reading a book, except for Willow whom was using the computer as usual.
"Hey Buff, we were thinking about ordering a pizza. What do you think?" Xander asked.
"That sounds fine to me." Buffy walked over to stand beside Giles and said, "Look what I found inside of Spike's jacket."
Giles took the locket from Buffy and opened it up. "This is very old." Giles said.
"I know," Buffy replied. "Who are they?"
Giles passed the locket to Willow, who passed it to Xander, who passed it to Dawn, so they could have a look at the locket. "Maybe the older woman is his mother." Willow suggested.
"Maybe." Buffy then noticed that Anya was gone, and asked, "Where's Anya?"
"She had to go home. Said something about leaving the oven on to long." Xander replied.
"Oh." Buffy turned to Willow and asked, "Well, if the older woman is his mother, then who if the young girl. I've never seen her before."
Giles took the locket back from Dawn and studied it for a moment before replying. "Perhaps Spike had a sister. She looks an awful lot like him."
"Or maybe a daughter?" Dawn piped in.
"No, he was never married. Back then, that was VERY bad." Xander said to Dawn who just made an 'oh' face at him but didn't say anything.
"I'll go up and ask him. Maybe this locket can unlock some questions that are Spike." Buffy said taking the locket from Giles, and added an, "I'll be back in a few." Before heading up the stairs.
"I'm ordering pizza now." Xander said standing up and heading towards the phone.
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Buffy quietly opened her bed room door and entered. Spike was still asleep on her bed. As she approached, she noticed that Spike had hugged the bear close to his body and the sight made her grin. She had never seen him look so innocent before, and she loved the sight.
Buffy hated to wake him, but she had too. She slightly shook him and whispered, "Spike, wake up. I need your help."
Spike slowly opened his eyes and turned onto his back. "Hi." He whispered to Buffy.
"Hey," Buffy whispered back sitting on the edge of the bed beside him. "I have a question for you."
"What is it?" he asked rubbing his tired eyes.
"This." Buffy stated and held up the opened locket. "Spike, who are they?"
Spike took the locket from Buffy and smiled. "Well," he started, "This woman right her," he pointed to the older woman in the locket. "This was my mum. She was a fantastic woman. You would have liked her. You're mum reminded me allot of mine. Maybe that's why I liked her so much." Spike now had a big smile on his face. The memories he had of her where great. Buffy could tell that when Spike was human, he had to of been a 'mama's boy'.
"And who's the young girl?" Buffy asked looking at the pictures in the locket.
A sad smile and sadder memories replaced Spike's happy smile and happy memories. "The younger girl was my sister, Emmy." Spike stopped there. He felt like he couldn't go on with becoming a blubbering baby.
"I didn't know you had a sister. How come you never told me." Buffy's voice was soft and soothing.
"I didn't even tell Dru. The memories of her were too painful. Even as an evil vampire, I couldn't do it. The pain was to much." Spike felt tears stinging his eyes, but fought to keep them at bay.
"What happened to her?" Buffy ventured.
"Well," Spike began with a sad smile on his face. "It was a great day for her. She had a boyfriend. He was a great boy. Treated her right. Never did a bad thing to her or said a bad word about her. She was to marry him the next week. It was her birthday that day. She turned 18. But she never made it to her wedding." Spike paused a moment to get a hold of the emotions that were threatening to take over. "It was knight, and I was supposed to meet her on the corner of the main street. I got held up at the market and was running late. I was a block from her when I hear it." Spike couldn't hold it in any more. The tears started to fall. "I heard her scream. I will never forget it. It was one of those horrible screams full of blood. I ran towards her. I saw her just a little bit in front of me and she was running my direction. I was almost to her when the guy ran up behind her and stabbed her three times. I think I screamed 'no', but I'm not sure if I did or not. I ran to her side. I saw the guy run, but I couldn't leave her." Spike grabbed Buffy's hand, "I couldn't leave her, Buffy." Spike took a moment a sobbed, then said, "I remember. She looked up at me and she told me that she was sorry. She didn't have anything to be sorry for. But she said that she was sorry that she would be there for me. I didn't understand what she meant by that. I still don't. I told her that she wasn't going to die. I wouldn't let her. She just looked up at me, smiles and told me that she loved me. Then she said," Spike paused, took a small breath and said, "Then she said to me, "Don't worry Big Brother William. I'll be back to help you." And then she died. In my arms. She died. My sister, the first woman I ever truly loved, died. After that, I didn't know what to do. My Emmy died, and I became lost. She was only 18. I was about to turn 21 that year." Spike couldn't continue any more. His sobs took a hold of his body. Buffy took Spike in her arms and helped him until his sobs subsided and he fell back asleep. She laid him down on the bed and left the room. As she closed the door, she thought to herself. "Spike had a sister. And she was his first love…" As quickly as she could, Buffy ran down the stairs.
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