The Servant
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December 1, 2004
Well today I woke up to the vision of the first snowfall of the winter. If I wasn't in such a shitty mood, I'd probably go outside, walk in the snow, have the snowflakes stick to my hair and eyelashes. The wind would make my eyes tear and freeze the liquid to my cheeks, making them all stiff and colder. But alas - I'm stuck working on homework instead. And figuring out weird dreams ... I truly am fucked in the head I think. Why is there such a dillemma within me ... on the one hand that dream was so cosy and sweet, on the other, had it actually happened, I'm not sure if I'd know what to do from now on. I like cosy and sweet ... complicated has been getting me into trouble this past while. I'd rather just play in the snow ... sadly I'm too old for that now.
December 2, 2004
Well it's all over now. That thorn in my side for the past month is now gone ... and healed over. However I kinda miss its presence. So ya ... our newscast was presented today in class .... and I must say I enjoyed it completely. The other team did well too, but I loved the thrill I had watching ours as the music swelled and the images flashed before me. I'm proud of it. I never say that too often about my own work. But then it wasn't really my work. I helped out, did some editing, added a few comments, but it truly was a team effort. As much as I hate group work, this really made it worth while after seeing the final project. Then we all sat around class after it was over ... all of us reluctant to admit that this was the end. Sigh ....
December 7, 2004
So much anger ... hurt ... pain ... yet I let it pass. I got through a real low this weekend. I'm not sure this is much of a pick-me-up ... however is it self-revealing. Check it out and let me know how you did:
The Servant
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December 8, 2004
Well you learn something new everyday: Rules to Leave By
Truth be told .... Quizilla is my new method of procrastination .....
Aww...you are the plant of love! You are the
mistletoe! You are a loving, romantic person
who likes to do what is best for the one or
ones you care about mostly. You are very
affectionate and enjoy being close to people.
You believe that love brings you together,
which is a wonderful thing. You are most likely
going to have a very nice and marvelous season.
Your inventive mind could come up with anything
interesting to do. Merry Christmas =)
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December 9, 2004
Finding Neverland .... somebody did.
December 10, 2004
So apparently we're too robotic at work, and we don't engage the customers enough ... hmm ... well I'm sorry but there's only so much I can take. Being called cute with the reindeer antlers on is okay ... being told to put them on by the regional manager is okay cuz its showing the holiday spirit ... being told that the regional manager likes things kinky ... not so comfortable ... being told I make a pretty reindeer ... with that look in his eyes ... hmm .... I'm not going to be engaging with many customers from now on .... how about that?
December 12, 2004
I think I've got a cold ... I blame it on working drive-thru ... never did that this time last year ... blah.
Had a wake-up call at 7:30AM ... felt really bad for refusing ... fell back asleep with an I'm sorry to the overnight guy whispered through my lips. I really did feel bad though.
I wait and wait and disappointment rears its ugly head ... yet again.
Accedintally, you will find them, in the last place
you would expect, may be they are near you
right now and you don't know, you love to have
a good time that is why the chances that you
and them be friends first than get in a
romantic relationship is very high, so open
your eyes and think, it might be so close.
Where will you find love?
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You take the Path of Least Resistance.
Why make things hard for yourself? You are a
go-with-flow sort of person and
little gets to you. Why? Because it's all good,
right? They say the path of
least resistance is a straight line and that's
where you go, ever forward and
never looking back. It's good to keep the past
behind you, a quality far too
little people have these days. You know the past is
the past, but don't let
yourself forget it. You can't learn from your
mistakes if you don't remember
them. You're probably loved for your laid-back
frame of mind and easy-going
qualities , but you tend take the easy way out in
life and verge on lazy. Great
character is found through great challenges. You
most likely have the abilities
in you to succeed and over-come what life throws at
you. You just got get up and
face that challenge. You tend to lose your head in
bad situations because you
aren't used to them. And by the time you've found
the easiest way to master a
problem, you could've already taken care of it. Bad
things happen, difficult
situations come up, that's life. What matters is
that you rise to face those
challenges and you can do it. Never lose your
laid-back qualities as they will
help you greatly. Just step onto that hard road
every once in awhile and you'll
discover that with each stretch it becomes easier
and easier to over-come life's
hurdles.
December 14, 2004
So a little review was done tonight ... I'm kinda wondering about it now ... the little trip down memory lane, does it mean that after all this time I finally miss him? Maybe it's just the feeling, the caring and closeness that this time of year offers ... could it be that I miss, and not really the person, rather the body ...? Does that make this easier to accept? I truly don't know.
December 15, 2004
"Let me get this straight - you like music, you like movies, you like to dance, you like to play pool, and you like to drink. Can you be my girlfriend?"
"If he's talking too much just tell him 'I don't speak Spanish' ... that's what I do."
"So in your honest opinion, does the one on the right have better rythum, or is she just not as drunk?" ... (in reference to the 2 girls dancing on the bar top) - straight out of Coyote Ugly!! It was amazing!!
"I'll sing you a goodbye song" ... "That one's for table number one."
And so ... if the spanish dude actually does show up at work to get my phone number ... (since I refused to give it to him at the bar) I'm not quite sure I know what I'll do!! ...... But .... survey says he was just really drunk ... so who knows ... he just might not remember ;-)
December 19, 2004
I wonder ... "I'd like to stick my penis in you" ... has that ever worked? Cuz it kinda sounds like it wouldn't work in my opinion. Along with "Letting me push against you will be a fast way to get on my good side" .... also not too convincing ... again - purly my opinion.
December 24, 2004
Well ... 12:33AM (really early christmas morning)
I've just been ditched again .... man I'm really beginning to love new yr's.
December 28, 2004 - 1:28AM
Ahh ... the holidays ... my favourite time of the year ... oh wait .... make that my former favourite time of the year. Christmas was considerably less cheery this year, and New Year's ... well it's a good thing I'll be working on the eve ... the mood I've been in lately, drinking would not be the smartest thing to be doing that night, let me tell you. So I'll be at work, probably in a foul mood if not brought on by a certain co-worker, than definately maintained by him. Can't wait ... even if I start out in a cheery mood, by the time the countdown approaches I know I'll be getting crankier, and less comfortable to be around. I have that feeling. But ya never know - something might happen to turn things around ... oh wait .... nevermind ... my optimism on that date has run out after so many years of botched attempts, lousy parties, and mundane celebrations infront of the television. Here's to another good new years .... blah, blah, blah.
December 29, 2004
December 30, 2004
Annual dinner and a movie (a strange on at that) and another annual gift exchange with "the girls". Interesting conversations as always .... and the one-line zingers we always are able to pull off. The coughs, the sniffles, and best of all the tears from laughter kept the kleenex box at the table busy ... but it was worth it. "Social Smoking" ... man when it gets to being only 2 people ... my social world really is shrinking. But I already knew that ...
Wow ... last entry for this year ... kinda a sad thing now isn't it? I was told today that 2005 will be better than 2004 ... I'm hoping that will turn out to be true ... I'm tired of getting bummed out, disappointed, and cranky at people, things and situations. I answered that it couldn't get any worse ... but that's just setting myself up for a fall now isn't it?
At exactly 1AM I received a poem from a friend. He wrote it for me and I must add it as a final post in this year ending entry. Thanks for pulling up my spirits everytime.