December 3, 2000
A great weekend was had. A great play at RHS on the Thursday and Friday. A huge congrats to all my favs (the Virginia people of course!!). Afterwards was a b-day celebration for a good friend. Glad to know he enjoyed his party and appreciated the little things his friends did. It's so much nicer that way. Saturday was interesting. Bowling after going to bed at 2AM produced a 97 for a first game. But I came back with a 161 and 146, so it was okay. Later that night was watching The Replacements (GREAT MOVIE!!!! I love it!!). It's funny how the only time I've ever been asked to spend the night was by a seven year old. Today was decorating the house for Christmas. So now all Scrooges beware - my house is like a haunted house to the very week at heart - try and enter without fear. ;-)
December 6, 2000
"If at first you don't succeed, try, try again". But in order to do that, one must be prepared for the possibility of failing again. That is the hardest part.
December 10, 2000
"Yippy skippy" - where did that come from? And why is everyone using it? I don't understand ......... ;-(
December 11, 2000
(_/_) (_|_) (_\_) (_/_) (_|_) (_\_) Shake, shake, shake, shake your booty, shake your booty ... (_/_) (_|_) (_\_) RASBERRY CREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December 16, 2000
Trigger happy - it's a compliment to the gun, I think. ;-)
December 17, 2000
Two days of silence and then a bubble of tears are released. At least now we know what was wrong.
1:11AM - MY COMPUTER IS DRIVING ME IN SANE!!! Delete my ICQ identity did you????!!!!!!!! Well fine!! So now I have to re-establish my identity as browneyes in the world of ICQ ... there goes 52 known strangers from my life.
December 21, 2000
The phone rings. I answer to a woman crying. I ask what's wrong, is everything alright, is she okay? She manges to choke out a "not so good". She just came from the doctor's. Why does everything have to fall apart around Christmas?
December 26, 2000
Well another Xmas traditional dinner was survived. Only this time we had an extra on our side in the constant them against us scenerio. Dinner was amusing ... there was stories and laughter, presents were opened ... with one extremely surprised member. (It was unexpected and much appreciated and those are the best kind of gifts.) The clean up was ... shall we say "we bonded"? LOL. The bow was cute ... "I'm hiding my ... veins". ;-) The hugs goodbye were cute - "his face was priceless", and the hunkering down only occurs with one tall man. It was a good Christmas. Different from all the rest ... but the phone connection made all the distance seem minimal. There was no weeping or vocal attention raised to the absence of certain bodies ... but they were with in both spirit and thought. Merry Christmas everyone. ;-)
December 27, 2000
Ape-shit? Ape-crazy? Well whatever it was it's true. Have to try it again to see if it'll bring it to the brink. Another passing of time marked - here's number two ;-)
December 28, 2000
To be trusted with certain information is what I believe to be an honour. The relevance of the information isn't of importance so much as the ability to be comfortable enough for it to be told. Even if it impossible to relate by agreeing and comparing similar experiences, the act of trusting means alot. I can't murmur words of comfort or share, but I do know what it feels like to have the mere mention, sight, or even thought dredge up feelings of dread that pools in the pit of your stomach as you clench fists tight to stop the trembling and clamp teeth tight from chattering. The idea that such a thing can still hold power over your own being is the most awful feeling possible to experience. I can at least share how losing control to another can feel.