October 4, 2004
Baby shower ... what fun ... the only journalistic skill I possess helped me out that day --> the skill of observation. But I came away with a tea for one set ... which actually matches the kitchen set I've been recently collecting ... minus the kitchen of course. But it was a great day ... and here's hoping the baby will be born on December the 8th ... then I'll have keen observation and good intuition skills to boast about.
October 10, 2004
"That was his ex ... one of the ones we shared." ... hmm well at least you got a pretty one.
"Ahh ... I'm not going to hear the end of this." ... and so the laugh means either embarrassment or enjoyment of being teased about such things .... hmm ....
October 15, 2005
I could not resist adding this:
"So we're still on for 5:30pm tomorrow?"
"Unless a hot young redhead falls into my lap and offers me alternative entertainment, nothing will make me stand you up."
And from tonight:
"You don't act weak and pathetic, if someone bugs you, you deck them."
October 17, 2004
Wasting my Time
I don't think you understand
That what you're doing is not so cool
You think it's funny to mess with my mind
Don't you
You know I like you so you just tease me
You give me just enough to hang on enough
When you're just wasting my time
You're simply wasting my time
So quit wasting my time
Do you hear me when I say
So let me ask you something
Do you think I'm pretty or don't you
Do you wanna get with me or not and nowwww
Or are you just wasting my time
You're simply wasting my time
So quit wasting my time
And what would you've got to say
Well things have got to change
Say this just isn't right
I don't wanna have to fight
And I think I'd better go
Cause this ain't working out any more
and I'm sorry, sorry, sorry
Understand
That what you did
Was just not so cool
Baby, you're just not that cool
When the chased becomes the chaser ... it's time to give up.
10:50PM
"a bond between a freak and a dork" ... I wonder who that refers to ... ?
October 23, 2004
Out of the closet he falls, only to be dusted off and pushed back in ... however this is one skeleton that I refuse to let lie still ... you will be hearing from me soon my friend ... so beware.
Went to the Als game (won it 52 - 21 against Ottawa) and almost lost my voice ... it's slightly scratchy at the moment ... but well worth it. No trophies to show for it ... however can't say I didn't try ... dancing, clapping, shouting, screaming, waving arms, jumping .... all to no avail .... However the company was fun, dinner was great (I'm still full at this moment) ... and getting up at 6AM to go to school for an assignment for Intro to TV hasn't quite hit me yet (and it's currently 11:24PM as I write this) .... perhaps the moka, regular coffee, and cafe au lait I consumed today is fending off the sleepiness.
Here's hoping it lasts until all my midterm work is done with!!!!!!!
October 24, 2004
A little stressed today ... tantrum occured in the drive thru .... there are ways to prevent that, however things just don't go as planned. "We are a team" he tells me .... hmm ... so what ever happened to saying bye when leaving? So much for my partner ... having to stay another half hour ... "Deep down you know you want to stay anyways" .... uh huh suuure ... I'm not used to having to be rescued ... however I'm glad it happened with that certain manager and that certain employee, and having "oh danny boy" there to attempt to calm me down ... well its a good thing he was there. And I gotta really go out and have fun Friday night at the sorority party .... when a certain look makes me think he's extremely cute it's time to shake it off and just go have some fun.And how can I not have fun going to this:
October 25, 2004
I've been wasting time most of the day ... trying to get some homework done, but as usual anything can distract me when I want it to. Instead I've been reading ... my usual past time for when I want to procrastinate online. I've been reading journals of those I know or once knew ... old journals, and new. I say that I'm learning about them as I read their thoughts, but I don't think I'm any further advance than I was before I started. So while I was trying to write something profound for today's entry I found myself searching out the profound writings of somebody else instead. I love his writing, and while I probably never got the chance to tell him, just the fact that I go back and re read it over and over whenever I make the time makes me feel something I would never get without his insight. So I'll share that with you now ... this was probably written in the October of 1999 or 2000 ... but its an entry I have always liked:
I'm standing here on the edge of myself and I am afraid. It's like last night in my dream when I was hanging over the edge of the Grand Canyon looking down at the Vishnu rock, the oldest rock exposed to man - something like that. Isn't there something about the fear of heights being caused by a person's desire to jump? I mean, it's so easy to make that move over the edge. It's ... just ... one ... step ... away. The jumping is the fun part, it's the crashing that's so damn unappealing. Body bouncing like a super ball, bones crumbling on impact - shooting out at odd angles through the flesh. What does one think when one is falling to a certain death?
Thank you ...
October 27, 2004
I think I want to be a speech therapist.
October 30, 2004 - 3:48AM
Well I've been home for a bit ... and I'm proud to say that I actually had fun at the Angels Gone Bad Party for Halloween ... I loved my costume ... and I just might add it for everyone to see when I get the pic developed. Even better was the fact that somebody who didn't seem to want to go, then wanted to , then didn't, the wanted to .... well you get the idea - he actually seemed to have fun as well .... and I would be feeling pretty shitty if he had a terrible time and it was all because I wanted him to go to a party he would not have even known about had it not been for me. But he did have fun ... and he did do something he told me he would never do ... and ... he even admitted to wanting to go to other events in the future .... this is all something I never would have expected. But I know I had fun ... plenty of dancing, plenty of drinks (and expensive too!!!!) ... probably one more drink that I should have .... spinning room and whatnot was not pleasent. I got some pretty good compliments too I might add - "I'll give you points, I didn't recognize you at first. I was expecting dorky and you weren't." ... "You are the sexiest witch I have ever seen." ... "You just got the 'you look like you need a pimp' look" .... okay maybe the last one wasn't so complimentary ...... Other than soe awkward mixing of friends the night went well .... I probably had too much fun than I should have ... but I think I"ve gotten to a point where I don't care anymore ... somebody else would be lookinginot the relevance of handholding on the way home ... but I've decided that whatever goes on I"ll accept. My only disappointment was the lack of a six foot green witch, now that would have made the night a whole different story!!!!
October 31, 2004
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!
Well I had a blast at the bar last night ... I got kinda picked up ... "You're friend is hitting on my daughter, should I be worried?" ... "He's a nurse/paramedic and his father's a doctor ... good choice." ... "Do we know his age? ... well only 9 years older is not so bad." .... I got to dance it up and sing along, and witness the guitar genius of the blues last night. Plus - the highlight of the night - I got to play guitar!!!! "All you have to do is strum and I'm going to disappear...." ... so he got to stand behind me and play the cords while we made music together - that was great ... only I dropped the guitar pic halfway thru and now will have (most probably) permanent scars on my right hand from that night. Then I dragged up another "nice kid" and he got to play a little too .... over all it was a great night .... followed by a morning wake-up call at 10:30AM from my general manager to come into work ASAP ... after only getting to sleep at 3:30AM (which was really 4:30AM for my body due to the time change) ... and after being told that everybody had to dress up for halloween, I was the only one with vampire fangs at work representing the halloween spirit. I only scared one little kid, and got a few dentist jokes ...and a few witty ones ... "You're the first vampire I've seen work the day shift" ... "Can I pay in blood?""Maybe tonight, but for this afternoon its gotta be cash." ... and a few "nice teeth" comments. So it was a great Friday night party, an amazing Saturday night at the bar, and a fun Sunday at work ... a pretty great weekend over all. Now I'm catching up on homework, and going into school on Monday for a workshop for Career Week ... so maybe I'll find out what I'll do with the rest of my life ... who knows?