September 2, 2004
Let's begin at at the beginning:
IF SEPTEMBER 1 IS YOUR BIRTHDAY: ... you have an internal guidance system that kicks back into gear this week, so listen to your heart as well as your head. Pleasant synchronicities such as that parking place being there just when you need it, or unexpected compliments, raise your spirits. The more you become aware of the small blessings in life, the sooner big ones will manifest. Your confidence and good fortune will grow by leaps and bounds in the next 12 months as you exercise the magic of gratitude.
And the daily horoscope for September 1 : You are finished rehashing old situations and ideas, and can make a firm decision. Remember that it is often the simple things that give off the brightest glow of happiness.
And now the rehash of what has been my birthday celebration ... Went to work with my birthday button on - it read "It's my birthday wanna spank me ..." ... but took it off as I entered when all the big-wigs of the company were chit chatting front and center. Added it to the little seen part of the uniform during my whole shift tho ... and I got quite a few birthday wishes. Also got "whipped creamed" from a manager .... and while I thought he'd be nice about it and actually aim for my mouth ... he missed and got my whole face ... much to the amusement of some co-workers. However today .... that same manager had some rather rude comments about that ..... "She got real whip cream in the mouth at work ... what she got that night I don't know." .... if only he wasn't my manager .... if only .... But apparently he'll know better for next year .... now he knows how to hold the whipped cream so as to get it exactly where he wants it. Can't wait. So I got birthday wishes ... my ass smacked once ... whipped creamed ... and that was about it I guess.
Got to open one gift tonight .... and it will probably be the most unexpected ... a digital camera ... and its "gear to go" so it's really tiny. Can't wait to set it up.
September 7, 2004
Hmm ... quite a bit to catch up on ... went out on the 3rd to celebrate my birthday .... told the waiter at Barbie's that it was my birthday and I was treated to a "suicide cake" ... chocolate and oreo with about 4 layers ... and worht about $5 ... as well as my own Barbie's key ring ........... and ......... a shot .... of something I don't know what it was ... kinda a green lime-ish shot with whipped cream on the top. Then onto the hospital to check in on Grandma and open my gifts form her with her. From there it was home to watch the end of a footbal game (yippee we won!!!!) and then across the street for my only homemade cake for this year. But it was yummy ... and I got a gift of a shopping card to Old Navy .... that might come in handy ..... ;-)
Work on Saturday, Sunday ... and despite my reluctance yes even on Labour day Monday. The day from hell I might add ... three people short all day which added up to two incompetant people on drive to handle everything - drive thru, retail, drinks, and cash ... with the help of the manager of course. Plus the set back of doughnuts due to problems with the machine, a cash drawer that couldn't and wouldn't open ... until it was smashed open later in the office ... and then the damn computer broke down as well, causing problems to get the read-out for that same cursed cash. And the swinging door falling apart and staying stuck open .... ahh yes .... labour day - the day we laboured hard and the machines gave up. It was quite an interesting afternoon and evening.
Today was the first day of classes .... ahh yes ... the time I sit back and watch the people I recognize go about their day while I hid in my little world alone ... it was a quiet day. Saw a former teacher while waiting for a class to start .... "If you ever feel like doing any freelance, just let me know, give me a call." ... ummm .... you did read my stuff right? ... hmm .... but working for Reader's Digest like he does for 2 days for $500 might be something I might look into ... with his connections of course. I'll have to see how that pans out.
Now focusing on Grandma getting better, helping my mom get her shop into shape and doing well in school will be my look ahead.
September 14, 2004
Up ... down ... up ... down ....
Up-side of the day ... getting together in groups, being friendly, getting called on in class and knowing the answer ...
Down-side of the day ... C- ... you're structure and wrting style is all wrong ... please see me next time if you need help ....
Up-side of the day ... social dance class ... no toe stepping, no changing partners, a weird accented man with quite the swivel in his hips as a teacher ... plenty of laughs and plenty of fun ...
Down-side of the day ... the procedure did not go too well, they'll try again on Friday thru the other leg, but they stopped becasue they thought she might end up paralyzed ...
Welcome to my shitty great day.
September 15, 2004
"So why did your day suck?"
" Umm let's see ..... the short of it or the long of it?"
"Short to get an idea."
"My grandmother almost died yesterday."
It has taken me all day to finally admit that (albeit in writing it was admitted) ... and yet she insists on telling it over and over and over "Well, we almost lost her" ... "Well the procedue had to be stopped ... we almost lost her" ... "It didn't go well, we almost lost her" ... Why does she keep repeating it? What does it do to keep being reminded and why must she tell it over and over? It didn't happen so just be glad. Our next big test is now on Friday ... "Three strikes you're out, or third time's a charm ... we're hoping for the charm." she says .... how uplifting my friday will be. Just can't wait.
September 18, 2004
Well the past few days have been quite interesting. Grandma had her surgery on Friday and all was successful. Was told I would get a message on my phone if anything went wrong and was to check it during my supper break at work. Never has my heart stopped like it did when the beep on my phone went off to announce a message had been left. But alas ... it was good news ... just a heads up about how well everything went (but that wasn't the plan now was it?) ... and I had a comfy shoulder to lean on during the whole ordeal. Sure beat locking myself in the bathroom to face the inevitable truth like I would had had there been noone as caring as he.
However that day turned into the day that never ends ... when I punched out and finally left the store it was 1:30 in the morning ... a long way away from my 2pm start of my shift. But I guess I'm just too nice a person to leave people stranded. However sometimes niceness can bite you in the ass .... my shift today began at 11am ... quite early for me who only slept from 3am to 9am that night ... needless to say I ran a hot bath when I got home and almost fell asleep right there in the tub. I think I'm in need of a masseuse ... I don't know any ... however I can guess who might offer that type of service .... and as much pain my muscles are in right now it would be tempting ... but I just might enjoy the feeling too much. I don't think I want to go there .... I've already overstayed my welcome in the comforting zone and I should not push my luck ... or rather ... alienate what has already been established.
I guess I'm babbling right now ... however it just seems nice to babble knowing that the doom that lay over my head these last few days (weeks I guess really) has been lifted ... all will be returned to normal ... the equilibrium has been shifted back ... and things are right in my world ... at least for now .... When I get other things sorted in my head there might be a quake of some sort again, but the end result won't be so devastating ... at least I hope not ... but then that's the real fear now isn't it?
Alas it is time for sleep ... another 8 hour shift to look forward to ... and no time to recover from this whole weekend so far. Here's hoing I survive all I need to .... if not I know a great shoulder to lean on .... I might just be tempted to try it out again.
September 21, 2004
I had so many good witty comments to make for the last entry (my stomach was churning the first half of my shift ... but then it could've been from something other than being worried about my grandma - he's made my stomach turn before) .... instead it came out all sappy.
Learned a few new things about a friend of mine in the past little while. Altho, I won't know how much I learned cuz the quiz he send me won't show me my results .... all my info was in vain!!!!!!
Ahhh yes ... got a great phone message tonight ... the madness has desended on Krispy Kreme ... even my sani guys are feeling it. It must be madness .... truly. I'm actually tempted to go and visit and laugh ... and prepare for what I'll be facing on Friday.
Oh, yes, the joys of dance class ..... I don't know your name, your smell is not staying on my clothes..... it wasn't a bad smell I'll admit ... but I've only ever kept things like that to sleep beside when those who the smell belongs to are not around .... such is not the case this time .... far from it.
September 27, 2004
Well now ... I've got a little survey to do ... I haven't done a survey since probably Dawson days ... but anywho ... its more like an opinion poll, however, and all avid Thoughts Page readers are welcomed to give their opinion (and since a survey is not quite a survey with only about 3 responses others are welcomed to write in as well).
The survey concerns two friends who have the choice of choosing between companionship and sex for a good 6 months or so, or to have a friendship lasting hopefully longer than that. In your own opinion what would you choose in such a situation? Please send your opinion, as well as any tidbit advice to these two friends to sayssurvey@hotmail.com
Thank you for your help.
September 30, 2004
"Why are you doing this?"
"You're nice, he's nice ... nice people should mingle."
"Oooo ... casual ... there's nothing wrong with casual."
Maybe it is time for casual ... ya never know.
And what's with the non-response to my survey question ... has my readership been wasted?