August 7, 2000
Four months exactly and yet ... "I'm a big, big girl in a big, big world it's not a big, big thing if you leave me, but I do, do, feel that I do, do, will miss you much ... miss you much. Funny how those lyrics seem to fit best ....
August 9, 2000
Am I a morbid person? Is it wrong that I get some kind of satisfaction when reading a friend's journal and knowing that she's been having a few bad days too?
August 13, 2000
What a night. While my friends went out to Summersault 2000, I was out on the town with my friend. So were do we start ...? Joining a b-day celebration and getting included in the fun, all the skits - those are my favourites, Bon Jovi's Bed of Roses, the Ice Cream Man, men in uniform, policeman, doctor, Baywatch, pouring hot candle wax down a half naked body, then in his shorts (YIKES!!), the karate champ with the great moves with the bars and numchuks, the chains, lots of audience participation, and I think the best is ... the Banana man. I got to get myself a guy to try that!!
August 15, 2000
Happy 18th Birthday!!!!
It seems like I'm just drifting at times. I can't say if I'm going backwards, or forwards, sideways or not. I just know that I don't seem to be keeping up with the rest. I'm drifting. Or maybe I'm in a drifting mood. Either way ... I'm not sure if I like it.
August 20, 2000
What a weekend!! To start off Friday was 18 of my friends over for a great party! It was a blast wasn't it? Saturday everyone went home and we cleaned up. Sunday was the canoe trip down the river. This is the fourth time I've done the 25km course. This time there was two canoes though. Dad and our neighbour and myself with our friend. Let's just say "youn'uns" against the "old men" was quite a sight to see. Needless to say our canoe pulled in right at 12 noon and they followed 15 - 20 minutes later. As usual I write my highlights when something big happens so this time I'll include the whole weekend. Last time I invite everyone over for "supper" First to arrive was .... you guessed it First one out was surprising at 10:30 "he's consumed enough to put out an elephant" "party's up here" the "blackmail" tape "I pissed in your garbage can" "all rum ... some coke to add that caramel colour" caterpillar man showed up ... *sigh* "WAAAZZZZZZZ UUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPP" "Hey ... first time that your girlfriend's drunk before you are" "Everyone's picking fights with me" "your parents are the coolest" "I didn't know your backyard was this big" certain people in certain tents (or not in certain tents) the kitchen talk no sleeping the 6:00 AM morning talks --- puppies in the freezer???? ---the ice tea interview ---my mother and I busting a gut laughing ---the insults flying the sleepyheads waking up "I lost 3 hours" ...? from 10:30 - 2:30 was more ... A few people left early and a few things went wrong but it was pretty good. -losing the sticker with the number on it and the tickets, the map in the water, and the pen not working - what good are you 2 anyways? -almost falling into the water -getting rammed -giving up in the end ------glad I wasn't on that team ---going backwards "we had trouble in reverse" but finally got starting off ---"do you want to get stuck in that mess? Then fuck it" ---the idiot by himself in the canoe, then watching him steal rocks for weight in the front ---a dog with a lifejacket ---a very sore steering shoulder afterwards ... hope it gets better .... a good time was had by all (exhausted?) participants
This was a great weekend righ before school starting - an amazing finish to summer.
August 28, 2000
"Why am I lonely/ You're sitting right here/ Why am I talking/ It's like I'm talking to the air/ What am I looking for/ That just isn't there/ Why am I angry/ How'd it get so bad"
August 29, 2000
"It isn't easy to be kind/ With all these demons in my mind/ I only hope one day I'll be free/ I do my best not to complain/ My face is dirty from the strain/ I only hope one day I'll come clean"
"Gimme faith in dreams/ And someone to hold/ Gimme love 'cause I'm out here in the cold/ There are no secrets/ No angels at my door"
"Fed up with my destiny/ And this place of no return/ Think I'll take another to day/ And slowly watch it burn/ It doesn't really matter how the time goes by"
"Did I just miss/ The last exit to Eden/ Did I just miss/ My only way out of here/ Did I just miss/ The last exit to Eden/ Did I just miss/ My only way out"
August 30, 2000
"So what are you doing Friday? Do you want to go to Carlos and Pepes Friday night?" "No. It's my birthday on Friday and I'm going out with my friends to celebrate that night. I'm going out with the people who didn't ditch me, forgot my birthday, or make plans on that day!"
August 31, 2000
ICQ is good to me - it's a date!