February 1, 2001
Well got my fortune told yesterday ... all is good. Was told I"ll be married twice and have three children. Closer to the present I'll be falling in love in the spring she said. That will be interesting. Housework is not my thing and I'm a person to deal with the public, she can see me with children or therapy, and my job for the summer is good. I will have a good summer. ;-) Got some things cleared up in my head about a certain somebody ... just I hope I can keep thinking straight anyways. It was a good fortune actually ... I'm feeling uplifted a bit. ;-) Plus I'M GOING TO SEE EVERCLEAR IN CONCERT!!!! Got my tickets today ... can't wait for friday night!!!
February 3, 2001
Last night was the Everclear concert. One of the opening bands was called Volcanic. Hmm ... how shall we describe them? Let's just say they had one (possibly two) good songs and that's all. They are very amateuristic and obviously need some work. The "costumes" they wore were interesting - bets on girl on the left if she pops out of her top. There was also bets on if she'd kick in the drum on one of her dance moves, and the sad attempt to use lesbian action to get the crowd's attention. Next came Nickleback - these guys are good. They have good music, nice attitude towards the crowd, and can actually pronounce Montreal properly, unlike Volcanic did. They deserve the attention they got. Then came Everclear and they were great. Sang my favs and a few I didn't know. Also were very good to the crowd - came back for an encore and played about three songs. I even went on the floor and jumped around with the rest of the crazy fans. Managed to get out unharmed and didn't end up in the air, or get hit with anyone, or anything in the air. The Metropolis is a neat place to hold a concert. I really think it would be an amazing place for a grad ... but as somebody pointed out to me, it really would be financially impossible. I'm glad I went and am really pleased it was such a great concert. Can't wait for my next opportunity to go out again.
February 10, 2001
My first instinct was to shout at you ... "I know I've lost status in your life and therefore are less important, but does that mean you have to ignore me?!!!" ... but I didn't. It's not what I do. I've never really taken a tantrum. So I opted for silence ... when that got too hard to bear ... I did as what was always done - a walk. Walking in the rain on a nice cool winter evening slipping and sliding on the ice down the street. Walks have always been the cause or the cure for all that ails the mind.
February 11, 2001
Well it was a great weekend. A great evening playing cosmo bowling with no fatalities ... just plenty of beer. The guys got better ... well some of them, and the ladies ... let's just say it's not a good thing ;-) Either way it was a great evening ... one that must be repeated ... followed by a great night.
February 14, 2001
Went to RHS this afternoon with a great bud. Was fun walking through familiar halls and seeing the faces of the school. Some changes in the school - most of them for the better - the walls, the atmosphere, the happy faces, "our resident lesbians" don't remember that from when I was there .... "Told you I saw two girls kissing in the hall!!" "And I missed it!!!! Damn!" Gives a whole new meaning to let's watch some lesbian action doesn't it? Had a great time talking with teachers, hall monitors, and such ... was even better because we were both so well liked ;-) Out for lunch after, it was a great day really. Didn't really notice it was Valentine's Day. A lot more uplifting thoughts on this Valentine's day than last year ... guess somethings even if they don't change, don't really stay the same.
February 17, 2001
First off ... must acknowledge the 50th birthday of my Dad today. Then I must gloat about the 212 I bowled during the tournament today ... ;-) Other than that I'll just add some mindless things I've been thinking about recently - note to self, when extremely tired alcohol tolerance in cut in half - beware, can't believe I was so sleepy after only three beers in just about as many hours. A certain somebody managed to survive the night ... kinda ... at least he survived the people if not the drinks they served him, was extremelt tired this morning to go to Quebec City but I managed. Left the house at about 8:20 and arrived at Frontenac Lanes at 11:15. Not bad going through a snowstorm. Managed to get a 17th placing out of 19 - yet the bronze medalist had a 213 average so I was kinda out of my league with my measly 133 average. But I had fun and bowled pretty good ... best game was 5 strikes in a row and my all time best score of 212 that was pretty sweet.... now I"ve got gloating rights .... and who wanted a one on one challenge hmm? hmm? let's see how you do now against me buddy!! All in all it was a great weekend ... Sunday will consist of major recouperation and sleep ... oh and an afterthought ... forget hickys ... biting is such much nicer .... >;-)
February 19, 2001
He hasn't been thinking in my thoughts for the longest time. He's lasted out of thought through one boyfriend, through two boyfriends, and now he reappears. Some things never change, but some do. The flutter is gone, but the dreams are back like they never left. Why now reappear? What does this mean?
February 24, 2001
Well last night was a great time with some good friends. Between searching for a place to go and wandering in the cold ... "can't blame a girl for trying" ... thanks to people who can't count!! ... a dumb waiter ... oh really dumb ... a really strong daquerie ... crispy chicken wings ... fighting to get some attention and some free nachos ... two beers for me when I thought I aksed for only one ... three shots each ... "you know with the wait for alcohol we will have to be here until three am right?" ... "don't hit the guy in the chair behind you - he's really drunk" ... and of course bashing and talking freely about all whose presence was not there ... all in all it was a great night. ;-) Can't wait for less than 20 days to pass - we will go out again;-).
February 26, 2001
Well my mom went out with her bagel buddy today ... for some lunch and typical gossip. Hmm I know they were talking about people who weren't with them at lunch ... wonder if all they said was incriminating things that could be used against the other people and to stab them in the back. Nope probably not ... just normal talking about mutual friends, their children and their friends. Hmm ... seems like a nice thing to be able to do ... guess I should sit in on one of those lunches to learn the art of innocent gossip ... an exchange of information about friends ... since I know I don't know how to do that since I've been told by others that I can't. I just believe that there's got to be a medium between adoration and hatred ... but it seems like some can't do that and, like my inability to converse without betraying ones trust, it won't happen now will it?
February 27, 2001
Interesting day - only one comment was spoken when I was expecting many. Got to see Saving Silverman with a couple of friends ... "no more masterbating privilages" ... hmm ... lol. The evening was okay, got my ass kicked - damn brute strength, but I only lost once. Now if only I could see certain things coming I'd deal better I think. It was a shock ... then there was the cut off tonight. I might've known it was coming ... guess I chose to ignore it. It was just nice to be thought of in that certain way like no other would. Now I'm back to without being that kind of thought ... does it change much? Probably ... it's really too bad though. And I know it wasn't meant to happen like this or turn out so screwed up. In a way I'm experiencing something similar to another ... only I"m glad it's not exactly the same. And stop worrying - I will be fine.
February 28, 2001
Heard this and it struck a cord: "Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady" - Angel by Shaggy
"You can pout your cherry lips Or try to tempt him with a sweet kiss You can flut your pretty eyes He ain’t got his hands tied No chains to unlock So free to do what he wants He’s into what he’s got He loves me, he loves you not No matter what you do He’s never gonna be with you He’s into what he’s got He loves me, he loves you not" - He Loves U Not by Dream Only it's she singing ... ;-/