January 18, 2002
Well I've been accused of neglecting my thoughts page and therefore neglecting the life of a certain friend. Who knew that she lived her life through my thoughts. What an odd life to live if it's through my thoughts. Well last semester of school went extremely well. I'm really excited to believe that I actually got an 87% average in the semester. Then came the New Year's Eve celebration fiasco. When you invite people to a party and they give a "maybe" answer because of the possibility that something better might come up, that is not only rude and disrespectful to the host, but something to really piss me off. Oh wait, agreeing to come then just not showing up or calling to tell of the delay or cancellation pisses me off a bit more. Or maybe being told of other plans then being called to come to the party because the other plans got cancelled - another piss off. But those who actually did show up I am grateful and respect them for sticking to their plans. We all had a great time. There was plenty of food - snacks, drinks, and dessert. Plenty of wine was drunk (lots of it by one certain person) and of course the cheesecake dessert was the main event of the night. ;-) There was laughs from playing Guesstures (big man in green sweater!!) especially from the drunk player on our team. A strong competitive streak was shown when the Planet Hollywood game came out. Unfortunately two years in a row the guys' team won again. ;-( A huge fiasco began the new year off. I don't think I will ever think of her the same way for doing that. But I just bite me tongue and keep quiet. The new year also is shaping up for a few changes. With me packing and unpacking - loving my new room and all it represents, the searching for apartments and finding things for a new home - as well as wondering if she'll blame me. Today too is known as a type of doomseday for me. Yesterday passed with no word otherwise, but it all goes well today then I'll have survived it and all will be good. I think it has passed though. I doubt a repeat of last year will happen.
January 19, 2002
Well I've put my foot in my mouth. On the bright side there could be a "Crazy Mothers" support group. It's funny how I didn't think twice while I was talking, only after did I realize what I might've said could be unmentionable. It's too late now to fix it. I only hope there's no bad feelings. It is official that doomsday came and went without any problems. An extremely good thing too - not sure how this time around would've been accepted. To think a year agomy mind was in a complete muddle and things seemed pointless. Now things are very much on the up track. School is seemingly okay and the university applications are the only thing looming over my mind causing some fogginess during classes.
January 24, 2002
Pet Peeve of the day: If for some reason, by company policy or something, that you can't give a girl your number, then don't do it. Or if you do get your cousin to give it to the girl, tell him to give the number and then leave it at that. None of this "are ya gonna call him" and "what percentage of a chance does he have of hearing from you?" crap. Just give the number and leave it at this. It's extremely uncomfortable to be told to "make the right decision" as the "cousin" leaves the store. And by all means do NOT belittle the current relationship that the girl is in, and has been in for almost a year and a half, by saying it's just "baby steps" and really doean't mean much ... because the cousin's percentage of a chance of getting a call from said girl really diminishes at that point.
January 25, 2002
Took a picture today of my yellow first-day-of-work,because-I-felt-like-it,monthy-anniversary rose I got from my boyfriend on Wednesday. It's a really full one that is expanding everyday. Hmm wonder what kinda double meaning that stands for. I'm a penny picker I am, I am. But it kinda pays off - I collected 75 cents last semester from October to December. Plus so far this semester I've found 5 more cents. Hmm my university fund is growing mightily.
January, 26, 2002
I was once told of a journey ... not too long ago ... a journey of a falling. Now I haven't heard of where this falling has taken this person, or how this falling journey has ended, or if it has ended at all. I don't even know why this journey of a fall has been brought up in my mind recently. I wonder how it went? p>January 28, 2002
Well I got my answer to where that falling journey ended up. It's funny how I've been thinking of it recently then it just pops up unexpectantly. If only I could tell of my journey just as easily. But even though it's on the tip of my tongue, I still can't get it out in the open. The irony of the 27th being the day of this realization kinda makes me wonder if possibly the 22nd should be switched to the 27th as a monthly reminder.