Ever get the feeling you're picking out these
bits and pieces from anyone you're ever attracted to,
in the hope that it will equal the sum of the one person
you have always wanted?
Ever felt like you're not allowed to have that one person
you have always wanted?
Like it was wrong, forbidden, just not-going-to-happen
for whatever reason, and worried...deep inside your heart,
that it was something you did in this life or maybe one hundred lives ago
that caused it to be this way?
Ever wished you knew what this thing was so you could work on fixing it?
Ever felt things for people and been at war with yourself for feeling such a way?
Ever felt unwhole, and torn...or that an old old wound will just never heal.
Ever felt that you wished you could hate so it would be easier to not include
a certain something in your life?
Ever felt that you could be honest, with yourself and those around you?
Ever wished, more than anything, that you could sleep the rest of your time away?
Ever felt abandoned, forgotton, misused...old.
And those plans, so carefully put into action, never fade away,
just hang around and haunt you.
Well this is all me, and I wish someone would tell me what to do, I wish someone was brave enough
to do what I only dreamt about...
But I guess that that someone never will...and what is left?
Nothing, I suppose. Nothing.