July 1998

• July 10, 1998 218 lbs (yuck!)Today is the beginning of a whole new me! I have been dieting for over 3 years now and am sick of it! I am tired of never being able to fit into my clothes, i am tired of never being able to wear what i want to wear, I am tired of feeling the way i feel! I have been thin my whole life up until i had my kids, I have two sisters that have had kids too but are now thin again, (makes me sick) when i was pregnant with my son i gained over 70 lbs and took it all off just eating healthy, and walking, and with my daughter i only put on about 23 lbs, the weight i gained with her was after i had her, i had a "nortiplant" put in my arm for birth control and the weight started coming on pound by pound after that, (if anyone else has had this problem PLEASE e-mail me and tell me about it!) Well anyway, I had it removed about a year ago, and have took off some weight since then, but not enough, i want to loose about 78 lbs. I would like to get down to 140 again, I still have all of my clothes and when i buy new ones i buy them in a size 9 or 10 to give me incentive!, I think though what it really takes is just being ready to do it! and i am this time! bye for now.

• July 17, 1998 214 lbs Cool! 4 lbs!... but i think i could be doing better, i haven't been walking as much as i should, and i haven't been eating very good either, My problem is not that i over eat, but that i don't eat all day, then eat late at night when My husband Brad comes home. I have done some research on this and not eating all day then eating at night makes your body think it is starving, and makes your body store fat! EEKS! I definitely need to watch this more careful......

• July 21, 1998 213 lbs Well the last few days have been crazy!, We just got a new little POM puppy a month ago, and over the weekend she had her little head shut in the sliding glass door!, We thought she was dead, but today she is home from the animal hospital, and the Doctor said she is going to make a full recovery, (I am still pretty shook up about this, we all are)I will add her pic to the pic page as soon as she is feeling better... But i am glad to see another pound gone...

• July 23, 1998 213 lbs hmmmmm still the same weight, i'm wondering if it is because of my minstrel cycle or something?.. who knows? Well anyway, i am doing pretty good today, i have been staying busy cleaning, and i have been eating good today, should see a change in weight soon..

• July 31, 1998 213 lbs Well the last day of the month, and still the same weight, (sigh) but i am not going to get my spirits down, i know it's because i haven't been walking like i should, I HAVE BEEN SITTING ON MY BIG BUTT READING ROMANCE NOVELS!... OK I CONFESS!! I HAVE BEEN VERY LAZY!... but at least i haven't been doing bad on what i have been eating, and today i got off of my big butt and went to the mall and walked with a friend, and tomorrow we are going swimming, (eeks! that means i have to put on my bathing suit!) but it will just be me and her so it's not to bad, our hubbies are not going so i guess it won't be that bad, i have to wear a one piece though, I WANT BACK IN MY Bikini! (crying) i will get there though, :-) i am sure of it! Also we are going to visit my little sister and her husband in Dallas on Wednesday and stay threw Sunday, that should be fun, but i am mad at myself for not loosing more weight before i have to see her, she weighs about 100 lbs (thin like my whole family) but we are really close and i feel comfortable around her, but the rest of my family that's a different story! i have to go back to a family reunion over Thanks giving (EEKS!!!!!!!!) i am soooooo stressed about this i can't even tell u!... everyone will be there and i am the only one in my family overweight!... and the only one that has seen me overweight is my little sis! I want to get down to at least 170 before i go, or i will just die!... 170 is still not what i would like to be at when i face all of them, but it's allot better then 213! Well need to get some work done... bye for now....