Mood:  blue

It has been one of those days that I just should have stayed in bed. 4:30 can’t come quickly enough.

Yesterday I found out from my sister that a friend of hers, who I had met on my trips to Ocean City, had decided to take his own life. It didn’t make much sense to me because he was always so happy and everyone seemed to love him. I couldn’t imagine having that much of a support system and still feeling like you were all alone in the world.

This morning I get into work and find an email from a guy who works with the State. A suicide occurred close to a building on the project. So my boss comes to me and tells me to investigate. So I met the officer at the site. A man had shot himself in the head just off the main road. Luckily by the time I arrived there everything had been cleaned up and it was discovered that it was actually right outside the boundary so I wouldn’t have to file a report. The officer at the scene was very nice and neither of us could believe the rash of suicides that have occurred recently. I don’t know much about the guy who killed himself except for his name and that he drove a truck. Since the information wasn’t released on the news I will respect his family and not go into details.

It is so sad to me that these people feel like they don’t have a soul to turn to.

Shortly after getting back to the office I was told that I had a two hour conference call starting at 10am. It was already 10:05. It was so boring I nearly fell asleep at my desk. This afternoon I have some training to complete and some bills to pay. I really need to get a cot for my cubicle.

Lennie has been working on the house in the evenings so my nights are spent curled up on the couch which is great but I have lacked the energy to do much else. The pollen has been so bad that I can’t breath and I sneeze every 5 minutes. I was hoping the rain would help but it hasn’t. Hopefully it will die off soon.