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Nancy and Harold

Our Wedding Day

June 28, 1963


Letting Go



Your death has left a gaping hole in
my life and heart, producing an
emptiness I know will never be filled.
I miss your voice, the sound of your
laughter, those funny endearing things
you did, those moments when I was
infuriated at you.

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I miss the dreams I had for and with
yor. I miss the future we will never
have and the past, no matter how
long it may have been, will never
be long enough. I have wept for
you as well as for myself. I
have raged in anger at you, at God,
at fate, at the world, at anyone
and anything that seemed to be an
appropriate target.

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I have tried to understand why
you are no longer with me,
why I have to struggle through
this world without you. Some
people have reached out to help me;
others have turned away, unable to
bear the pain I carry. I do not ask
them to share it with me, only to
listen as I talk and cry.

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I have waited in the darkness for
some sign that you are in a better
place, and even when I may receive it,
I could not help but question how
it could be better if I am not there
with you. And I have wanted to join
you so often when aloneness
threatened to overwhelm me.

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Through all this turmoil and doubt,
I have managed to come this far. I
have not yet acheived my goal, but
at least I can now recognize that I
am on the road to recovery.

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I am not sure how I will go on
without you. No matter how many
other important people may be in
my life, you have held a special
place, and it is hard to
imagine you not with me.

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Will you walk beside me now as a
friend, comrade and loving
companion? I cannot come to
you at this time; I can only
trust that we will be united
in Gods love and compassion.

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But my life must go on; it is
time for me to begin to live my
life for myself and others. As I
think of letting go of you, I must
now ask that you also let go of me.

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Your new life must seem as strange
to you as my new life seems to me.
Perhaps the memory of me is as
comforting to you as your memory
is to me.

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Let us, then, agree to explore
these new existences, these new
spheres of reality, knowing that
we carry the other with us, not with
chains, but with loving open hands.

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I let you go, my dearest. I know you
will never leave my side, as I will
never leave yours. Thank you for the
wonderful, unique relationship we
shared.

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When we meet once more, I look
forward to sharing these new
ecxperiences with you. I will
never forget you or stop loving you.

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"Letting Go" was written by
Nan Kenton of Sequim, Washington


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