Love

I lost myself that night. In a good way. In the best way. I lost my mind in the music and in the sounds of AJ’s deep and raspy moans in my ear. I lost my body. Electricity raced from between my legs, through my soul, and out of my toes and fingers--- preventing me from controlling my actions. I did not lose my heart though, I knew exactly where it was. It lies safe within AJ’s embrace.

I felt so very hot. Both of our bodies grew slick with sweat. But it didn’t feel nasty, it only made me want him more. My legs tangled with his, we planted kisses on each other frantically. I felt as though we were making love with the intensity and force of a tornado, and we were ambivalent to the world around us.

AJ grew physically tired, but I knew he had no intention of cutting our lovemaking short. I felt confident enough to gently push him over onto his back, and I rolled over on top of him in the same gesture. He looked up at me in surprise, but he smiled just the same. I had a little trouble getting used to taking over. I didn’t know how to move or what to do. But I had to do something! I couldn’t just sit there frozen. So I did what I knew felt good for me, and I hoped that it would feel equally as good for AJ, if not more. I placed my hands on either side of his chest and pushed myself up, then I sat back down again. AJ’s eyes closed and his head pushed back, so I knew I was getting the knack of it all.

I felt too exposed with AJ’s lying horizontally, so I pulled his body up toward mine and we held each other. He kissed my chest as I continued to churn myself up and down on his erection. It was all too much. It was too good to be true. I had always dreamt about how I’d lose my virginity, and with whom. I always wanted it to be with someone like AJ. A bad boy who wanted to have passionate sex with a good girl like me. But I always figured that with my luck, I’d lose my virginity to a weirdo with just as much experience as me. So, all in all, this was a dream come true. And what made it even better was that I felt something for AJ. It wasn’t just physical with us. We could talk to each other. We had so many things in common.

I could feel myself giving in to him. My body had taken all that it could possibly take. I had endured too much of a good thing, and now my body kicked into overdrive. Heat raced through my bones. Electricity rushed through my veins. Goosebumps covered my skin. And a powerful chill went down my spine. I was having my first REAL orgasm. The most intense one I’d ever felt. I cried out in sheer excitement. I gripped his hair, I scratched his skin, I clawed at the sheets, and I died in his arms.

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I opened my eyes and looked around AJ’s room. It looked slightly different in the daytime, but I still felt right at home. The blinds were still closed, and the curtains were still closed. But still, a few rays of sunlight peered through and warmed my face. I looked to my right and the clock read that it was a little after noon. I sat up in bed and pulled the tangled blankets up to cover my exposed chest.

I was just about to reach over the side of the bed and get my clothes when AJ entered the room. He strolled over to the bed and then hopped on, landing next to me. He laid back, so I did the same, and we just looked at each other for quite a long time before saying a word.

“How do you feel?” He asked me, stroking my hair out of my face and smiling sweetly.

“I feel great. Very well rested.” I replied. As I stared at him, thoughts of how he held me all night long floated through my head. He held me as though he was afraid to let me go. I slept in his arms, our legs tangled together, and our bodies closer than ever before.

“I don’t ever want to lose you, Monica.” He whispered, now caressing my cheek with his thumb.

“You won’t. I’m not going anywhere.” I assured him.

“But your father, what if he gets stationed somewhere else. Somewhere far away.” The sincerity in his eyes made me want to cry. What if I did have to move. We never did stay in one city for long. And I hate it, but I had no other family to live with. And now that AJ and I were together, the possibility of moving terrified me.

“I don’t care if he gets stationed somewhere else. It doesn’t matter to me. I’m not going to leave you. I don’t think I could bear that.” I rolled over toward him and hugged him tightly.

“I love you.” He whispered into my ear.

“I love you too.” I responded, wholeheartedly.


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